Finally, I can meet you, my D-lite again. After six long years, I have found you.

I stood in front of you and said : “ I’m sorry…”

You looked at the sky, you looked at the people passed by, you looked at everything in your sight, except my eyes…. Perhap that I’m not worth to impress myself in your eyes anymore…

You said : “ Have I ever met you ? You mistake me for someone else.”

I took your hand and screamed : “ D-lite, look at me. I’m Choi Seunghyun, I’m TOP, I’m…the one who you hate, am I ?”

You only smiled and removed my fingers one by one away from your hand. “ I’m Kang Daesung, Mr Choi. I have never met you so I don’t have any emotion for you. So, excuse me, I must to go now.”

And like that, once again, you walked away from me. All I could see id your behind… I heard…My heart was broken in thousand pieces…

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If…

I have never seen you, then you have never felt into my trap.

If…

I have never met you, then you have never admired me.

If…

I have never been good to you, then you have never smiled to me.

If….

I have never seen your smile, then you have never loved me.

If…

I have never felt happy around you, then you have never been beside me.

If…

I have realized that I loved you, then you have never been hurted.

If…

I have never loved you, then you have never been unhappy.

If…If…If…

Even if I say thousand times “if “…. I still love you…..

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I’m sorry

I’m sorry that I tried to make you smile

Because I want your love belong to me…

I’m sorry that I hold you tight

Because I want you sinked deep into my world…

I’m sorry that I made you say you love me

And after that I betrayed you…

I’m sorry that I was the one who taught you how to cry

I’m sorry that I hurted you

I’m  sorry….

Sorry doesn’t bring back time

But I just want to say I’m sorry

Just once…I want to say to you…I’m sorry

I’m sorry….that I’m falling in love with you…..

Sorry that I love you….

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When the night came, I continued drinking in misery. Next to me, Kwon Ji Yong also drank himself to death. Wh