Donghae P.O.V

I opened my eyes slowly and shut it when I feel dizzy. Aishh.. I try to open it again and look around. Oh.. this is my room. I feel exhausted because of crying yesterday. I sit on the bed. Thinking about yesterday make me want to cry again. Its hard for me to accept the news that I heard. How can I...? Then, suddenly the door was opened.

“Oh, you’re awake”say Eunhyuk relieved. He brought me a breakfast and smile at me. This guy didn’t change. Always bring me a breakfast when I’m sick. Such a kind guy.

“How you feel today? Better?”he asked. I formed a little smile. He smile become more bigger.

“Now, you need to eat or you will sick. Its not good for you. Moreover, the concert is around the corner”Eunhyuk take the spoon and begin to feed me. I shooked my head. I feel doesn’t want to eat right now.

“Hae-ah, you look pale now. So, you must eat to regain your energy. Or you want Teukie hyung to feed you?”his eyebrow is up. I quickly shook again.

“Omo, where your voice? You cannot speak anymore?”Eunhyuk try to make me speak. I smiled.

“I don’t want to eat. Lost appetite”I told him. He seems relieved when I finally spoke.

“Finally... I thought you cannot speak anymore”

“Pabo!”I said. He rolled his eyes.

“Whatever. But no matter what, you must eat! This is an order”

“Wae?”

“Heechul hyung!!”he called loudly. I’m panicked and shut his mouth immediately. I know what he want to do. I cursed him when Heechul, Teukie or can I say all the member were coming into our room.

“Wae? Hyukkie, what’s wrong? Hae?”ask Heechul hyung worriedly. I look Eunhyuk with a warn face that he will in trouble after this but he doesn’t care.

“Our fishy doesn’t want to eat”Eunhyuk replied.

“Aniya!”I denied it.

“Then? You must eat now”Eunhyuk closer the spoon to my mouth. I took a glance to others member. Aish... Forcefully, I open my mouth and eat it.

“Aigoo...our fishy. You’re too cute”praise Sungmin hyung. I smiled a bit. Teukie hyung take a seat near me.

“Doesn’t anybody has a schedule today? Its because all of you keep watching me”I ask uncomfortablely. Yes, it’s about 5 spoon I eat but they kept look at me.

“Did you forget? Our manager had clean our schedule before the concert”Heechul hyung replied me. I smile wryly. I shook my head when Eunhyuk want to feed me again.

“One more. You eat too little”forced Eunhyuk. I close my mouth tightly and look away from the spoon.

“I’m full enough. Don’t need to force me or I will vomit here”I said annoyingly. The others member sighed loudly.

“Fine. But you need to eat medicine too”. I pouted. I really doesn’t like to eat medicine.

“Wae?? I’m not sick!”

“Hae-ah, don’t talk too much. Just eat. Even Hyukkie not force you but we will”Teukie hyung speak like an order. Eunhyuk smiled in a victory. He put the medicine on my right hand. I give a puppy face to them.

“We do not serve with your pity face, Donghae”Kangin hyung said. I sighed.

“Not even once?”I try. They shook their heads in unison.

“Fine”I give up and swallow it. I drank the water that Teukie hyung give.

“Good boy. Now, rest a bit. If you want to tell us what happened yesterday, we’re ready for you. Arasso?”say Heechul hyung while caressing my hair. I nod weakly. Then, they left me alone in the room.

I lay down on the bed. I sigh again. How can I tell them? It will be hurt them badly. They always worry about me. Should I burden them again? How about Hyukkie..? Will he accept the news? Too many questions in my head. I decided not to tell them. I wonder what will happen when I’m not here anymore. Tears are rolling on my cheeks.

Hyung, mianei..

Hyukkie, mianei...

Mianei...

Eunhyuk P.O.V

2 hours later...

I entered my room to check Donghae after let him rest. He was still sleeping calmly without realizing me. I sit on his bed. I wonder why he was crying hardly yesterday. What would make him cry? As far as I know, Donghae doesn’t cry anymore after his father died. Suddenly, his calming face turn to a.. what should I say? Like he’s having a nightmare.

“Hyukkie... Hyukkie..”he call my name. His face look uneasy. I frown.

“Hyukkie.. Hyukkie.. I’m scared”

Don’t want him to be like that, I immediately soothing him with my low voice. I try to make him feel safe.

“Syhh...I’m here, Hae. Don’t be scare”I poke his body slowly and caressed his soft hair.

“Hyukkie...”he become relax but still called my name.

“Syhhh..”I kept soothing him until he felt asleep again. I wonder what he dream about. I look him with many questions played in my mind. After I’m sure him okay, I went out.

“How’s Hae?”ask Sungmin once he see Eunhyuk close the door. Others member also curious. I sighed a bit.

“He’s having nightmare just now”I pulled out the chair at dining room and sit there.

They nodded their head. My mind still thinking of Donghae.

“Hey, Hyuk. Are you okay?”ask Heechul. I’m hummed in response. The others member sighed as they gathered around me. Kyuhyun pat my shoulder.

“Hyung, don’t worry. I bet he will okay. Maybe he got stress so that he like that”he said.

“I know. But there’s something else in my mind. Lately, I kept tninking about him. I don’t know why”I told them. Kyuhyun just smiled.

“Hey, Hyuk. Let me ask you”Kangin talked. I frowned.

“What?”

“Hmm.. didn’t you have slight.. erm.. feeling with Donghae?”

“What the---?”I rolled my eyes. Why did he ask the same question like Teukie hyung? Oh, I forgot! They have chemistry.

“Hyung.. once again I told you and everyone here. Me and Donghae only a bestfriend. Why we need to go more than that?”

“But you said you kept thinking about Hae. So, what’s the mean?”ask Kyuhyun. I closed my eyes annoyingly.

“That doesn’t mean I had feeling with Hae. I really care about him. I’m worried when he become like this. I just want the old Hae. Doesn’t you see he always avoiding me? I don’t want him to be like that”I had to make it clear. They sighed again.

“I wonder why you all always asking my feeling? Did Hae say something?”I curious.

“An—aniyo”Teukie stuttered. I raise my eyebrow.

“You’re ego man, Hyuk. I don’t want to talk anything but find it out by yourselves” Kyuhyun said before he leave us. Okay! Now, I’m completely clueless.

Donghae slowly closed the door. He goes back to his bed. He heard everything. He touched his heart. That’s hurt. Very hurt. He will never love me. A tears fall down his cheek and continously. “Me and Donghae only a bestfriend. Why we need to go more than that?” His words was echoed in his head. He smiled bitterly.

Just love me as your friend, Hyukkie..

That’s enough.. as long as I love you..

*is that okay? im sorry for not updating.. <3