What In The World Had Gotten Over Me?

Maybe The Rain Had Clogged Up My Senses.

Or Maybe Mom Had Put Alcohol In My Drink, Because Right Now, I Feel Drunk.

Or Maybe I'm Just A Little Dizzy From That 'Incident'.

I Couldn't Help But Think About It.

The Scene Just Replayed In My Head Over And Over Again, Constantly.

I Couldn't Help It.

It Was My First Kiss.

This Was Probably Wishful Thinking, But I Couldn't Help Feeling That There Was Something More Than Just Snot, Lips, And Hormones In That Kiss.

Suzy And I-

Ok Taecyeon And Bae Suzy.

Suzy And I.

Could We?

 

Rain Lead Me To Reality.

I Realized That All Of This Was Nonsense.

I Guess I'd Known About This All Along.

I Loved Bae Suzy.

I Loved Her Innocence. Her Smile. Her Pale Skin And Her Pink Cheeks. Her Chesnut Brown Hair And Eyes. I Loved How She Laughed And I Loved To See Her Reactions Every Time I .

This Is The First Time I Felt Like This...Towards Anyone.

But I Can't.

I Can't Love Bae Suzy. For Her Sake.

I'm Just A Messed Up Human Being With No Future. I'll Probably Just Screw Her Life Up If She's With Me. I Know I'll Mess Her Life Up. Because That's Just The Kind Of Person I Am.

Ok Taecyeon.

Always Wants The Best For Everyone, But Doesn't Make Things Happen The Way He Wants It To.

Suzy May Like Me Now, But She'll Move On.

She Has To.

She Has To Move On, Or That'll Make Me Want To Continue Loving Her Like I Love Her Now.

I Know I'll Move On When She Moves On.

There Will Be Someone Else Out There For Me.

All I Could Do Is...

Forget.

Forget And Ignore.

Pretend All Of This Never Happened.

And Every Time I Want To Remind Myself About Her-To Remember The Kiss-

I'll Just Have To Remember That All Of This Is For Her.

Bae Suzy.

 

I Walked All The Way Back To The Place Where I Left My Motorcycle.

Bae Suzy Was Gone, But She Had Left Her Umbrella Down On The Seat Of My Motorcycle.

Stupid Girl.

It's About Three Miles Away From Home From This Street.

I Half Yelled And Half Cried In Frustration.

I Think The Rain Poured Even Harder, As If It Was Trying To Swallow Me Up.

 

After I Got Myself Together, I Swung My Legs Over The Motorcycle To Head Back To Home.

I Made Sure That The Engine Was On The Lowest Speed, So I Could Have Some Time To Think About What I Should Say To Suzy When I Get Home.

I Figured It Be The Best To Pretend That Everything Didn't Happen.

Forget Equals Less Pain, Right?

But What If She Told Someone About Us- Kissing?

Then What?

Should I Just Ignore Her? Change The Conversation?

Maybe I Shouldn't talk To Her At All.

Problem Solved.

But What If She Blows Up, Like She Did Just A Few Hours Ago?

And What If We End Up Kissing Again?

I Don't How I Would Ever Control Myself After That.

Ever.

 

I Was Still Hesitating As I Opened The Front Door.

I Decided That It Was The Best To Avoid  Bae Suzy At All Times.

 

"Ok Taecyeon!"

I Swear. Mom Can Scream Louder Than Anyone When She Wants To.

"Shh..." I Tried To Soothe Her. "It's Late."

Mom Gave Me A Sour Look. "It's 9:21."

"My New Bed Time?" I Asked Hopefully.

Mom Sighed, Lifting My Chin Up With Her Fingers.

"I Have No Idea What Has Gotten Into You These Days." Mom Said, Obviously Exasperated.

"Me Neither." I Said Honestly.

Mom Glared At Me, And I Lowered My Eyes.

"You Abandoned Us During Dinner-"

"You Guys Were Getting Along Fine!" I Yelled.

Mom's Eyes Were Boring Holes In My Stomach.

I Lowered My Voice. "And I Asked To Be Excused."

Mom Sighed Again.

"Are You Going To Ground Me?" I Asked, Smiling My Little Boy Smile.

Mom Had A Grim Look On Her Face, But I Could Tell She Was Holding Back A Smile.

"Well," She Paused As If She Was In A Deep Thought. "I Don't Know. You Were A Naughty Boy."

"Mom." I Said, Looking Up At Her. "Come On. I Was On The Naughty List All My Life, And I Get Millions Of Presents From Santa Each Year."

"Either Way." Mom Said, Pursing Her Lips. "Promise Me You'll Never Be Impolite To Suzy's Friends."

"Just Suzy's Friends?" I Asked.

"To Anyone." Mom Shot Back.

I Sighed. "Okay."

Mom Smiled. "Good. Although I Am Worried About You, Keeping Your Promises."

I Laughed. "Don't Worry. I Can Be Charm Boy If I Want To."

"That's Enough." Mom Said. "Right Now, I Want You To Apologize To Suzy."

I Stopped Smiling.

"Now?" I Asked Weakly.

"Now." Mom Confirmed.

"But I'm Tired." I Complained.

"Don't Make Mad, Taecyeon. I Want To See You Upstairs In 3."

"2."

"1."

 

So Here I Was, Grasping Her Door Knob.

What Happened To The Avoid Bae Suzy Thing?

How Could I Ignore Her For A Year When I Couldn't Even Avoid Her For An Hour?

 

I Kicked Her Door Open.

Suzy Was Sitting In Her Bed, And Turned Around, Startled.

She Wouldn't Look At Me, And I Didn't Blame Her.

"I'm Sorry." I Said, And Reached For The Door, So That I Could Leave The Room And Save Myself From Embarrassment.

"Wait-" Suzy Croaked.

Her Voice Sounded Hoarse.

Of Course. She Walked Under The Rain For Hours Without An Umbrella.

I Stopped, But Didn't Turn Around To Look At Her.

"I'm- I'm Going To Go Back To Gwangju In Two Months." She Whispered.

I Didn't Know What To Say, So I Kept Quiet.

"Thank God My Parents Allowed Me To Graduate Before I Leave," She Commented, And Laughed Weakly.

Her Moving Away- Was It Because Of Me?

"You Don't Have To Move Away If You're Uncomfortable Because Of Me." I Said. "I'm Going To Go To America After I Graduate From Highschool."

"Don't Let It Bother You, It Has Nothing To Do With You." Suzy Said.

"It Doesn't Bother Me." I Said A Little Too Quickly.

I Couldn't See Suzy's Face, But I Wondered If My Comment Had Hurt Her.

"Okay." She Said, After A While. "And What Happened Earlier-"

"It Was Nothing."I Said, Trying To Sound Indifferent.

"It Was The Rain And All- I Wasn't Thinking Straight. You Reminded Me Of Um, Yoona." I Lied.

When She Didn't Say Anything, I Continued, " It Just- I Don't Know, Made Me Realize How Much I Miss Her And All, And I Don't Know." 

No Response.

"Anyways. It Was Just A Kiss That Shouldn't Have Happened- It Was Just, My Horomones Or Something. I Don't Know. You Know How I Just Broke Up WIth Jessica. I'm Sorry. It Was My Fault. Just- It Was Nothing." I Said Quickly, Walking Out Of Her Room.

"Maybe It Was Nothing To You." Suzy Said In A Small Voice.

That Made My Whole Body Freeze- And I Bet All The Blood Circulation Crap Stopped.

"But That- That Was My First Kiss." Suzy Continued.

I Almost Told Her That This Was My First Kiss Too, But I Stopped Myself At The Last Minute.

"And It's Something To Me." She Finished.

I Walked Downstairs, Not Wanting To Hear Her Voice.

 

"Did You Apologize To Her?" Mom Asked Me As I Sat On The Living Room Sofa.

"Yeah." I Said.

"You Kids Getting Along Now?" Mom Asked Again.

"Sorta," I Muttered Underneath My Breath, But Mom Didn't Hear My Answer, I Guess.

"Did You Know That Suzy's Moving Back To Gwangju In Two Months?" Mom Asked.

"Yeah." I Answered.

"Aren't You Going To Miss Her?" Mom Questioned. "She Was Such A Dear."

"I Guess." I Replied.

"Do You Know Why She's Moving?" Mom Asked.

I Looked At Her.

I Didn't Know That There Was A Reason Why She Was Moving Away. I Thought She Was Going Because She Just Felt Like It.

But Mom Looked At Me Expectantly, So I Just Took A Wild Guess.

"Um... Her Parents Won The Lottery?"

"No." Mom Answered, Giving Me A Strange Look.

"Just A Guess." I Told Her.

"She's Moving Away Because Of Tax Collectors." Mom Whispered.

I Stood There, Gaping At Her In Shock.

"And," Mom Continued, "They Found Out That Suzy Moved In Our House In Soul, It Seems."

It All Seemed Pretend. I Had No Idea How Anyone Could Be That Thirsty For Money.

"They Couldn't Have," I Argued.

I Had Never Seen Them, And I Was With Suzy Almost All The Time.

"They Chased Her Today, When You Were Gone, Out In The Rain."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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