A/N: Another update, as promised! <3 Comments are greatly appreciated~~

MY POV:

I just lay there, in my bed. The only thing I hear is my music, my sweet music that I could have seen LIVE if that STUPID *!&($%)^$!_* FLIGHT HAD NOT BEEN CANCELLED!!! UGH! Calm yourself Bree, theres nothing to get worked up over. Oh who am I kidding. This is Gods way of saying that I shouldnt dream so big, right? I'll never meet them, ever, and thats just how its going to be. I look at my latest poster of Super Junior, suddenly feel a wave of sadness. I was so close. So close.. I bring my hand up to my face and wipe the tear that secretly fell. Suddenly more and more tears fall. They just keep comming. And to accompany it, a sad song plays. Yesung's "Love Really Hurts". I remember the lyrics in English and cry harder. 

I cant breathe

I've lost my direction

My memory's breaking into pieces

But you're so calm because it has nothing to do with you

Dont you even want to take away the last bit?

Sorry, really sorry

Even when I say this I feel appologetic

In a short while, we might lose everything

Love really hurts, it hurts too much

I keep smiling, yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frustrating

Please, stop it now. If only I was able to wake up from my dream

Dont forget, please dont forget

Even if its all lies, its okay

In a short while, we might lose everything

Love really hurts, it hurts too much

I keep smiling, yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frustrating

Please, stop it now. If only I was able to wake up from my dream

When Im longing for, and calling out your name

Once anxiously and timidly loving you

I want to believe

I stop breathing

I resist the tears

I keep smiling, yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frightening

Please, stop it now. If only I was able to wake up from my dream

It practically described how I felt. I love Super Junior, with all my heart, and it hurts to love them sometimes, you know? I just feel so dead right now. I feel so heavy, I feel like I will fall through my bed and through the floor any minute now. Thankfully, moms been giving me space. Only comming in to bring me small snacks, which most times I dont eat. This is probably the worst thing in the world, being depressed. God, what did I do to deserve this? *sigh*

I find myself going to my computer and going on youtube. Maybe I can look up stuff to cheer me up? No, in fact, the stuff I end up looking up are sad videos. Sad songs, and stuff about Super Juniors accident, all which adds to my sadness. I really dont know what to do anymore. Can someone please just shoot me or something?

MOM POV:

Ahh, what do I do? Its almost been 2 days! Bree is barely eating, all shes doing is laying in bed. I can hear the sad songs coming from her room. I need to think quick! What could possibly cheer her up now? She probably wont come out of her room. I somehow feel like this is all my fault. A-HA! I might just have an idea. But Im going to need some help...

A/N: I really do appologize for the lame short updates :( please forgive me! I hope you are liking it so far. comments are greatly appreciated~ Oh and if you havent heard Yesung's song - Love Really Hurts - you HAVE TO LISTEN TO IT!! (sorry i cant give you the link. my computer is GAY) >_<