That night was weird. We laid in bed, snuggled up together but I couldn't fall asleep. I was scared and I couldn't decide if I wanted to curl up into JR more or run as far away from him as possible. I understood that he punished me for what I did, but what did our baby ever do to him? I decided that I had to get away from JR for just a little while to clear my head, then we could go back to normal. The only place I could think of  to go to was Baekho's, because Minhyun's lover, Aron, was close friends with JR and would surely tell him where I was in case he came wanting to find me.

I waited until JR woke up and went through his morning routine. When I heard the front door close, signaling that JR left, I got up and took a shower, then quickly packed a bag that would last me a few days. I left the house and walked to Baekho's. He didn't live that close, and I was nervous because it was still kind of dark because it was barely 6:00 A.M., but I couldn't work up the nerve to call him because I wasn't sure how mad he was at me yet.

When I got there, I knocked on the door a few times. Baekho answered the door, rubbing his eyes from tiredness and only wearing a pair of boxers. I could tell that I'd just roused him from his sleep and that certainly wasn't going to put me in his good graces. Baekho LOVED his sleep.

He glared at me, but when he saw the bag in my hand, he opened the door wider so I could go in. He closed the door then took my bag from me and went to go put it into his room. I sat in his living room, and he came and sat next to me. "Ren, what are you doing here?"

"I need to get away from JR for a few days. Please? He...he threatened our baby and I'm scared that he's going to do it again. He can punish me all he wants, but this baby didn't do anything. What if he kills our child?" I put a hand on my stomach and looked down at my lap. Baekho rubbed my back gently and nodded. "Stay as long as you need to. But here's the thing, don't contact him while you're here and don't tell him you're here. You know that he'll come and get you." I nodded, and sighed. "I didn't intend to. We need to talk though. I'm sorry for the other day. I didn't mean to yell, I just got mad when you said those things about JR. Yeah, he hits me, and maybe he shouldn't do that while I'm pregnant, but we love each other."

"He shouldn't hit you period, pregnant or not. How can he do that to you? You're smaller than him and younger, it doesn't make any sense for him to hit you. He can get his points across without raising a hand against you." I ignored what he said because my brain was telling me to listen, but my heart didn't want to hear it. "I deserve it. I misbehave and he's just trying to fix me."

 I hopped up and pulled my hair back into a messy bun on my head. "Do you want me to make you breakfast, Hyung? I can make you an omlette and some toast and bacon. After all, I'm really thankful that you're letting me stay here." I laughed at nothing in particular, but it was mostly to mask the whimper that was about to come out of my mouth. I wanted to cry, because I felt really weak and sad.

I had to hide at a friend''s house from my own boyfriend, and yet, even though I knew somewhere in my head that the fact that JR threatening our baby should be enough for me to leave him, my heart cracked at the very thought of being seperated from him. Baekho stood and hugged me. "Pabo Ren, I'm not trying to hurt your feelings. I just...I love you Ren. I don't want to see you getting hurt because of some guy who can't see how much damage he's causing."

I squeezed him tight and just enjoyed the hug. He pulled away from me and I smiled at him. He smiled back and traced my lips with his thumb. "That's the expression I like to see on your face." I blushed and went into the kitchen and made breakfast for both of us. We ate, joking around and having a good time and I couldn't help but be happy that we were fine again.

Somehow though, luck was on my side and four days later, JR still hadn't found out where I was. He called my phone repeatedly but I didn't pick up and eventually just turned it off. But i couldn't help but feel like this couldn't last forever.

And I was right. On the fifth day at noon, Minhyun came over and he brought Aron with him. I couldn't find a moment to tell Minhyun to convince Aron not to tell JR if JR asked him where I was. I couldn't find a moment to seperate them though, they were constantly together, holding hands or making out. I decided that I should go back to JR myself. It would be better if he didn't come to find me, and I missed him. I packed my bag that night and left, ignoring Baekho's protests.

I walked into my home and couldn't help but feel uncomfortable at the eeiry silence and the almost oppressive darkness. There were no lights on except for the kitchen light and I slowly walked towards the kitchen. "JR?" He was sitting at the kitchen table and when he saw me, he sighed. "Ren. Where have you been?" He stood up and walked towards me slowly, as if trying not to scare me off. I put my bag down and hugged him back when he wrapped his arms around me. "I went to Baekho's. I was scared, JR. You could have hurt our baby." He kissed my forehead and mumbled something I couldn't hear.

"Ren, I wasn't thinking straight. I didn't mean to hurt the baby. You just made me so angry with you, and you don't listen to me sometimes. If you're good, then I won't hurt our baby. Don't you get how simple that is?" He pulled out of our embrace and helf my face between my hands. "Didn't I tell you not to go to Baekho's?" I moved my face out of his hands and turned away from him. "You did but, he's my best friend and I'm not going to just let you hurt our baby." I loved JR, and I wanted to be good for him, but I wasn't just going to standby and let him hurt our kid.  He wrapped arms around me from behind and placed his palms over my stomach. I could feel my heart rate speeding up from fear, but I tried not to show it. I grabbed his wrists quickly and tried to pry his hands off of my stomach. He growled and removed his hands and I thought I'd won until he pushed me to the ground roughly. I turned quickly so that i landed on my back. I hit my head pretty hard, and I felt dizzy but at least I hadn't landed on my stomach. He put his foot on my stomach and I tried to move but he stepped harder so I stopped moving so he wouldn't crush me.

He glared at me and shook his head. "Ren all these other people that you think you need are unnecessary. You don't need Baekho or Minhyun. You don't need anyone but me. Just me Ren. Only look at me! You don't even need this stupid baby. It's all you care about! You go on and on about it.It's becoming a problem and I don't like problematic things. So what do you think we should do about it, Ren? Should we get rid of the problem?" I looked up at him with pleading eyes. "JR, please don't do this." He shook his head, and for a moment he looked really sad. "I always wanted a family, Ren. I wanted people I could love like my parents never loved me. But it can't happen. Not when it's with you. I love you so much. Too much. I don't want to share you and I'm scared every day that you're going to leave me. How do I know that you won't just behave until the kid is born then run off with the baby?" I looked at JR and felt sad for him. He'd had such a rough childhood. At least when my parents were alive, they loved me a lot and cared for me a great deal. But his parents, all though alive and kicking, were rude and didn't care about him. They treated him like trash and nothing he ever did was good enough. I'd been trying hard thinking i could fill that gap, but in the end I couldn't and he still felt the pain from his parents careless attitude towards him. "JR, I'll be better. I promise, please don't do this."

He shook his head again and tears slid down his cheeks, then all I felt was pain in my abdomen for the next few minutes, then I passed out.

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Soooooo. This Chapter was kind of intense, but worry not, there is always the dawn after the darkness or however that saying goes. Anyway, comments will once again be appreciated and thanks so much for all the wonderful comments! Seriously guys, don't panic at the ending. When things are at their worst they can ongly get better, right? well, bye. I'll try to update later on tonight, because i don't like seeing this ugly chapter as the most recent one.