After Zeze came into the room, Kyungsoo greeted her then walked out. He closed the door behind him but I knew he was still standing outside. “Sorry I took so long, I had to get my CD’s and take care of some stuff.” she said in a huff. “It’s OK.” I shrugged. I didn’t want to waste any time. I didn’t want to stall. I just wanted to tell her the truth. “I need to talk to you about something.” I said quickly. Her smile shrank but didn’t disappear.

“What is it?” She asked, walking towards me. I spoke before she could get too close. “Well, you see, I am in a relationship.” I blurted out. “I noticed you were dropping some signs for me, so I wanted to clear the air before any misunderstandings happen.” I said, trying to find the best words to use. I didn’t want to sound conceited, and I didn’t want to hurt her feelings.

She froze, staring at me with wide eyes. “B-but, I thought you liked me.” She said in confusion. “You see, I would always see you around school, or across the hall in dance class. I saw how passionate and driven you were and I immediately developed feelings for you. And when I asked to sit with you last week, I didn’t do it because of Kyungsoo’s singing. I did it because I finally mustered up the courage to approach you.” She said in a shaky voice. I didn’t want her to cry. I wouldn’t be able to handle it.

I was speechless. “Are you just saying that you’re in a relationship so you won’t have to answer my feelings? Am I not pretty enough? Or is it because I’m a foreigner and you only like cute Korean girls?” She asked while looking down at her shoes. Her thick hair fell in front of her face so I couldn’t see if she was crying or not. “No! I swear that’s not it! You are beautiful! It’s just..” I trailed off, not sure if I should say it or not. “What? It’s just what?” She distressfully asked, in hopes I would finish the sentence.  Just tell the truth. “I’m gay.” I finally admitted. The whole place fell silent and she looked back up at me with wide eyes.

She clenched her fists that were fallen at her sides. I saw tears fall from her big crystal blue eyes. “You could’ve just said I’m not your type!” She yelled then turned around to leave the room. I tackled her before she reached the door; I did not want our conversation to end like that. She kept trying to push me away but I held on tight. I had to explain, I couldn’t just leave it at that. “I swear! Zeze I’m not lying! You're really an amazing girl but I already like someone!” I desperately tried to make her understand. She stopped struggling and turned around to face me.

She calmed down and kept looking at me with tears still running down her cheeks, waiting for me to finish. Thank goodness she’s finally willing to hear me out. “You have to understand that the person I’m with, well, I like him a lot. I don’t think I would be able to go on without him. You are beautiful and you could get any guy you want, but I have eyes for someone else.” I said, still holding her arms in case she tried to make a run for it again. Her glare pierced me so strongly I could almost feel it. Her crying eyes and sad expression made me feel weak. “You're not lying.” She said under hear breath, like she was admitting the tough truth.

I nodded to back in confirmation. She let her head fall and it was complete silence all around. I thought she was going to leave, so I was startled when she unexpectedly put both her hands on my chest and gripped my shirt tight. She looked up at me and I saw frustration and anger in her eyes. She looked like she was in literal pain; I feared she would hit me.

She suddenly stood on her toes and brought her face up to mine in attempt to kiss me. I was confused at first, but I comprehended the situation just in time to stumble back away from her. “Whoa! What are you trying to do? I just said I don’t see you in that sort of way!” I exclaimed. I was in stunned by what she just did. “But you said I'm beautiful! You said that I could get any guy I wanted!” She yelled back like it was justification for her actions. She came towards me and I knew she was going to try it again. I jerked away from her and harshly fell to the floor in the process.

She got on top of me and leaned in for a kiss, but I was holding her back. She gave up, but didn’t get off of me. Her tears multiplied. She was in total hysteria. “WHO IS IT?! WHO IS IT THAT YOU LIKE SO MUCH, YOU WON’T EVEN LET ME TOUCH YOU!?” She screamed the question out with her sobbing, cracking voice. I stayed quiet. I couldn’t answer the question. She got even angrier at my silence. “JUST TELL ME!” She cried. I looked away and said nothing.

Kyungsoo’s P.O.V

I was sitting outside the room with my back against the door and my face in my knees. I could hear every word they were saying. I could hear Kai telling her that he didn’t like her and that he was already in a relationship. I heard it all. I listened as Kai stopped his words which made her beg him to further explain. “I’m gay” I heard him say. My eyes widened in surprise and I lifted my head up. What? You just admitted that to her? Wow, Kai was really serious about telling her the truth. I couldn’t help but feel a little happy that Kai would do something like that for me. It showed me that he was dead serious about me, and that I wasn’t just a fling to him.

It was completely silent after his confession so I wondered what Zeze’s reaction was. I heard her yell something again. “You could’ve just said I'm not your type!” Hearing her words made me want to hit her so badly. You still think he’s lying?! She wasn’t taking it easy. Her voice was shaky and unstable. I heard rustling noises from inside and I tried to guess what was going on. I stopped trying when I heard Kai speak again. He kept trying to make her understand and I just wondered when she would finally get it through her head. I didn’t want her feelings to get hurt, but I wanted my boyfriend back.

Minutes later, I heard Kai speak again. “Whoa! What are you trying to do? I just said I don’t see you in that sort of way!” I panicked when I heard him ask her what she was ‘trying to do’ in his yelling voice. What are you trying to do? A million possible scenarios ran through my head. That girl better not touch him. Only I can touch him. I was knocked out of my worried thoughts by a sudden loud thud. It sounded like something was dropped or someone fell on the floor.

Did she faint? Did she push him on the floor? I heard her start to scream again. She was definitely crying. She sounded angry and sad. All I could think of was one thing: ‘That girl better not touch him!’  I kept repeating it in my head, getting more worried each time.

She began asking him who he was in a relationship with but he was keeping a tight lip. I knew why he wasn’t telling her, because he knew how I didn’t like to tell people about us. It was because of me. “JUST TELL ME!” She screeched, but no reply came. That’s it. I stood up and barged in. I couldn’t take it anymore. I saw her on top of Kai and just lost it. I ran up and pushed her with all my strength, knocking her off of him. “Me! It’s me! I’m his boyfriend and you can’t have him!” I yelled, answering the question she had been asking Kai.

They were both staring at me in total shock. I knelt beside Kai and hugged him tightly. “You are mine, remember?” I whispered in his ear. He hugged back and gave a tiny nod in response. “K-kyungsoo? You are the one Kai likes?” She asked in her shaky voice. “Yes! It’s me!” I said with an attitude, snapping my head towards her and glaring at her with all the contempt I could muster up. I knew she didn’t mean any harm, but I couldn’t help but speak to her in a nasty tone. It was on instinct. She was still on the floor, frozen in shock. “I-I’m sorry Kyungsoo,” She croaked then cleared . “I greatly respect you and I treasure your friendship, but my feelings for Kai are too strong.” She weakly admitted then started to cry again.

All the sympathy I once had for her, if I had any to begin with, vanished. I looked at her in disgust. “What about my feelings for him? You think your feelings for him are strong, Imagine how I feel!” I yelled. I was getting angry at her now. I walked up to her. “I like him so much that when he touches me, I get the chills. Every time He hugs me, my heart threatens to beat out of my chest and after he kisses me, my lungs burn and my head won’t stop spinning. Your little unrequited crush doesn’t even compare to my affection for him and all the palm sweating, face reddening, pulse racing and chest tightening that happens to me, just from being around him. So don’t you dare try to tell me that you have ‘strong feelings’ for Kai.” I had already knelt down and I was getting in her face. She was trying to escape in a backwards crawl, but I didn’t stop moving towards her.

I grabbed her by the shirt and looked her in the eye. “You will never lay your hands on him again. Do you understand?” I muttered with hate in my voice. My face was just inches away from hers and I was glad we were on the floor. If we had been standing up, I wouldn’t be as threatening because she was around the same height as me. She looked at me with her huge scared blue eyes and nodded until it looked like her head might fall off. I let go of her shirt and her upper body fell to the floor.

She got up and took off, but before leaving the room, she turned around to face us and deeply bowed. “I'm sorry, I know it doesn’t mean anything, but I really am. I still treasure your friendship and I hope you can forgive me someday.” She blurted quickly then ran out and shut the door behind her. I was considering what she said. Maybe someday, but not anytime soon.

I looked back at Kai to see his jaw fallen open and his eyed widened in utter shock. I was definitely not one for violence, but at that moment it seemed like I had the intent to kill. I looked at him and imagined if he actually liked her back. What if he liked her instead of me? The thought of it made my chest ache and my stomach burn. I ran up and launched myself at the beautiful boy. I was so far gone; it was to the point where I couldn’t even imagine my life without him. I hugged him with all my might, trying to push all the thoughts of him leaving me out of my head. “What do you do to me?” I asked him, digging my face in his neck. He hugged me back and caressed my hair.

For a while we just stayed like that. He was swaying me in his arms, trying to preserve my silent hysteria. Being in his embrace made me feel so safe, it helped me calm down. I took my face from his neck and looked at him in distress. I couldn’t bring myself to say the desperate words aloud, so I just begged with my eyes and let my heart scream it: Please don’t leave me.

He looked back at me as if all was understood. “You're mine and I'm yours. Don’t ever forget it.” He said, comforting me. Always reminding me of what we said to one another the day when he first confessed to me. I just nodded because I couldn’t bring myself to speak.

Never letting go of me, he kissed me sweetly and my whole body relaxed. I just wanted to stay like that, forever in his arms. This is all your fault. He confessed to me and made me like him so much, it hurt. I couldn’t believe I already liked him so much, just the thought of him with that girl made me go berserk and lash out on her. What do you do to me? I had never felt like that before. I think I'm falling for you.