Yes this is an Update - 2014

 

 

 

Tao started to almost literally run from shop to shop trying to find a great outfit for Yixing’s bachelor party that was getting held that day. He was so excited for it, it would be the first time that he would have went to a bachelor party as well.

 

None of his other friends have gotten married so Yixing and Joonmyun are the first ones, it’s weird to be this excited but he couldn’t help himself.

 

Lay decided to have his Stag Do out in the bars and clubs instead of just staying at home, it might cost more money but he didn’t mind, he didn’t get to go out to clubs and actually have fun instead of being behind the bar a lot of the time.

 

The panda needed something y but nothing that could out do Yixing of course, that wasn’t allowed. Since he was the best friend he needed to make sure that his friend stood out of all the other people there. Of course he wouldn’t let any other people jump on the groom or anything, but a little bit of fun was harmless…

 

Finally as about an hour past he found an amazing outfit in the store New Look… it was possibly a little bit over the top but that didn’t mean anything to Tao. He was going to buy it, he would tone it down somehow.

 

After all the shopping was done and he went into Starbucks to get a lovely white hot chocolate he eventually got home where the living room had banners and balloons everywhere saying ‘Bachelor’ and other forms of the word. He forgot that Joonmyun was actually having his party in the house instead of out. Maybe that was a good thing since how awkward would it be if the two parties bumped into each other?

 

The panda didn’t even want to think about that.

 

He greeted Joonmyun with a smile as he saw him trying to tidy up the place and then he walked into the kitchen, knowing full well that Yixing would be there, and wrapped his arms around the other Chinese man’s waist.

 

“Hi Xing! I got my outfit!”

 

Tao started to jump up and down taking Yixing with him before the other turned around and stopped him with a grin on his face.

 

“Oh yeah? Let’s see then.”

 

He went into the bag and brought out the clothes.

 

“They’ll look better once they are on me but I’ll show you the jist of them right now! I didn’t want to out do you so it’s a little boring for me, but still I love the clothes!”

 

Light blue jeans were in Zitao’s hand and he put them against his own legs to let Lay see all of the tight jeans. He could tell Yixing liked them with the growing smile on his face. Him and Lay both had the same fashion sense even if Tao would go a little bit further than the other, Yixing knew exactly what looked good and what didn’t.

 

Next was just a tight fitted V-neck white tank top that he was sure was going to show his abs but when he brought out his jacket/blazer that had gold ts Yixing knew that it was just so Tao.

 

“So do you like it?”

 

A furious nod was what he was answered with and Tao himself grew into a large smile as he knew Yixing loved the clothes. Now he couldn’t wait to put them on and be the fashionable Huang Zitao again… sometimes it was just outright boring being in his bar gear all the time. Especially when that was what Kris usually saw him in.

 

Well at least he had the wedding to show Kris what he can really do with his fashion. But that was quite a bit away yet.

 

He had to save up money before that… because you know. He obviously had to get something Gucci and he was sure that Yixing and Joonmyun wouldn’t mind lending him… or giving him some money to buy the clothes… they knew how much it meant to him.

 

If they said no he would just do some cute little action and make them.

 

Although he would rather not go that far….

 

Yixing had went back to cooking whatever it was that he was cooking… probably something for the friends of Joonmyun’s that were going over that night.

 

“So what guys are going to Joonmyun’s party tonight?”

 

He walked over to the dining table and sat down on it, putting his clothes back in the back that he got them from and waited for Yixing to answer as he put his head down leaning on one of hands staring at the other.

 

Yixing coughed a little before answering.

 

“Uhm Joon’s brother and his dad… I think his friend Jongup is coming over from Daegu for tonight with his boyfriend. I’ve only met the boy once but he’s nice enough. I think that’s it. Joonmyun is… someone who likes a small group of people to trust. Since I’m taking you and Kyungsoo Joonmyun didn’t really want anyone else there. More of his friends are going to the actual wedding than tonight.”

 

Tao nodded and smiled. It was always Yixing who was the more outgoing partner in the relationship. He didn’t know how or why but even with Joonmyun and Yixing were sort of opposites with Joonmyun being an introvert and Yixing being an extrovert but they were perfect for each other.

 

At least they loved each other.

 

Sighing a little out of being sleepy he got up of the chair and patted Yixing’s shoulder before leaving and going up to his room.

 

As he sat down on his bed he took a breath and just looked around. He saw the watch that Kris had gotten him sitting on the table just staring at him like ‘wear me Tao’ and the panda couldn’t help but smile at it.

 

It was still absolutely beautiful.

 

Ah Kris was just so sweet.

 

ZiTao picked it up and slowly wrapped it around his wrist again, he knew he should have just kept it on the table so it wouldn’t get lost but he wanted to wear it out tonight and possibly even show it off to whoever he met. They could all be jealous that he had someone like Kris waiting for him wherever he was.

 

The afternoon passed quite quickly considering that Zitao was just sitting on his bed thinking about random topics.

 

Okay most of it was about Kris but if it made the day go faster then so be it.

 

Finally he decided that he should put his clothes on and he quickly got dressed after he washed his face and done up his hair in a style that he liked. Also he was thinking about dying his hair at some point soon, he didn’t know why but he wanted to try a different colour… maybe blonde. Maybe he would look good blonde. He would have to ask Yixing’s opinion on that before he did so.

 

Pulling on tan shoes he started to walk back to the kitchen and he saw a lot of food that had been prepared by Yixing for Joonmyun.

 

“Mmm that looks so yummy Yixing can I have a bite?”

 

Before the other even answered he stole a cocktail stick that had ham, cheese and a pickle on it and brought it to his mouth grinning at the tutting other in the kitchen.

 

“No Panda. Those aren’t for you, go away. Shoo!”

 

Tao laughed and walked into the living room where Joonmyun was sitting down watching TV and the panda took a seat beside him and put his legs up on the others thighs, making himself as comfortable as possible with a little laugh.

 

Joonmyun smiled and put his arms over the younger’s legs and kept on watching whatever the hell that was on TV.

 

After around another episode and a half of Game of Thrones that was on Yixing had came in and pestered Tao about getting up and ready because they were about to leave any minute since Kyungsoo was about to show up.

 

As the two other males took a look at Xing they both gasped at how good he actually looked.

 

He had a white button up shirt that only had two buttons actually closed and they were leather trousers on his long and skinny legs with a pair of white converse to complete his look. Now Tao was jealous of Joonmyun in that moment for having the rights to his best friend. Because wow. He was looking fine. A wolf whistle came out of Joonmyun’s mouth as he got up and curled his arms around the others waist, kissing his neck slightly.

 

 

This was the point that Tao was glad there was a sudden knock at their door because otherwise he would have to be a block and for some reason he felt that since it was their night tonight he decided to let them have at least a little moment together before he pulled them away so he could get Yixing drunk. 

 

“Kyungsoo!”

 

Tao shouted loudly when he opened the door and threw his arms around the big eyed Korean.

 

“Tao! Where’s Lay? We need to get going!”

 

The panda laughed and started to shout for the man of the night and after a minute Yixing was kissing Joonmyun goodbye and the three of them were waving goodbye as they got in the taxi that Kyungsoo arrived in and told the driver to take them to the hottest club in Seoul to start their night off.

 

 

 

 

 

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“I love Huang Zitao and he’s a panda!”

 

Tao started giggling at Yixing while his and Kyungsoo were holding up their very, very drunk friend who was singing in the streets and Tao was just glad that they had just reached the front door to his house.

 

“Tao. Tao. Tao. I love you baby. You k-know that right?”

 

The panda nodded and laughed, he was a little drunk himself but he knew better than to engage in a conversation with the other. Kyungsoo could do so if he wanted but he knew not too. When the door opened he was sort of surprised that the house was all quite. Had they all gone already? Well that was quick.

 

“Taoooooooooooo. I love Joon you know that? But I love you more. Of course I do. You’re my baby panda.”

 

Tao laughed and hoped to god that Joonmyun really wasn’t here to hear that because Yixing would be getting a little bit of a hit in the morning because of that sentence. But he was a little bit touched as well.

 

Before the other could say anything else he put Yixing on the couch and he saw how the other just flopped on his stomach and soon enough little snores were coming out of his mouth. The boy couldn’t help but smile of course.

 

“Kyungsoo, you’re welcome to use the other couch because I’m tired and need my bed.”

 

The other smiled and went to plop himself on the couch, sleepiness overcoming him.

 

Before he even took off his shoes he noticed a note that was left on the table along with a lot of empty beer and wine bottles. He knew the wine was Joonmyun because that was all that the man drunk. He was very girly in the drinking situation. He walked over and read it chuckling to himself as the messy writing.

 

‘Hey, me and the boys went out. See you in the morning.

Never mind were back before you.

By the way. Watch out for something in your bed Taozi.

Jooooooon.’

 

Tao furrowed his eyebrows but nevertheless took his shoes off and continued to his room in a slow motion feeling quite scared now about what he would find there. But what he actually found wasn’t something that he was angry for. Because who could be when the person you’ve been wanting to see for hours is lying on your bed, hair a mess, a little bit of drool coming out of the side of his mouth and your pillow getting squeezed between his arms.

 

Tao couldn’t help but grin.

 

Kris was way too cute.

 

He brushed the hair out of his face a little and placed a small kiss on his forehead before getting on the other side of the bed and just lying down in his clothes because he was way too tired.

 

He didn't even question the reason Kris was actually in his house. 

 

 

 

 

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Tao had woken up and without even looking at the clock to see what time he had slept in till he got up and rubbed his eyes, realising that he hadn’t even taken off his eyeliner that he had put on the day before when he had gotten ready and he shuddered to himself. That was really gross.

 

Before anything he walked into the bathroom and washed his face and changed his clothes into a pair of black joggies and a black t-shirt. Then he went in to wake up the lovely Yifan who was still knocked out.

 

He pushed him a little and started to speak.

 

“Come on, Kris time to get up.”

 

The man didn’t move an inch and Tao resisted the urge to laugh out loud. He had always thought of Kris to be one of the rare morning people… but he guessed not.

 

“Get up.”

 

Finally a groan came from the blonde and Tao smiled as he saw the older man tighten his grip around Tao’s own pillow and shake his head slightly.

 

“Kris.”

 

Another groan came out and Tao decided to kick it up a notch since he realised that the little man was not going to get up without at least a little push here or there. He didn’t mind, it was incredibly cute. He put his hands on the others body and pushed him over o that Kris was now facing up towards the ceiling and finally the blondes eyes opened revealing dark eyes and they widened when they saw the panda.

 

The boy couldn’t help but smile at him.

 

“Tao!”

 

Kris shot up off of the bed as soon as he saw the boy and Tao couldn’t help but start to laugh out loud at the paranoid male trying to fix the uneven bed hair that was not going according to the others plan.

 

“Wh-What are you doing here?”

 

Tao realised that the other probably had no idea where he was… Joonmyun probably just brought him to the house because he was too drunk and just chucked him anywhere.

 

“It’s my house.”

 

A little chuckle left his mouth and he saw Kris start to realise that it wasn’t his own space he was in.

 

“And my room.”

 

A blush went over Kris’ cheeks and Tao wanted to so badly just kiss them. This was the sort of Kris that he saw in the webcam those first few times and it was way too cute. He missed this sort of Kris a little.

 

“…Hey Tao.”

 

Tao just wanted to squeeze the life out of the man, but he realised how embarrassed the other was and so pointed to the bathroom that he had just came out of.

 

“Bathroom.”

 

That little blush was back and the blonde walked over and closed the door. Zitao himself just sighed with a smile and started to look through his closet for something that Kris wouldn’t mind wearing, since he and the other were about the same height it was very convenient for the clothing problem. After he set down the clothes he started to walk out and down to the kitchen where it was empty, he figured the other two were probably still out cold.

 

Tao ran a hand through his hair and smiled when he heard someone who he assumed was Kris coming down the stairs. He heard the other take a breath and surprisingly he felt a small kiss appear on his neck and it took him a lot of power not to let out a very embarrassing sound so he closed his mouth and just smiled at the man who walked around to face him.

 

“Hey babe.”

 

Oh god.

 

When Kris says things like that in that voice of his it just makes the panda’s heart jump.

 

“Hey Kris.”

 

It took him so much not to actually stutter his words. Kris just affected him that much.

 

“I need to talk to you.”

 

Oh no. Those were the dreaded words in all the movies and dramas. The break up talk. Why would he want to break up if he had just kissed him before and called him ‘babe’? It didn’t make sense. Oh no.

 

“Zitao, our relationship is fine.”

 

The panda took a breath and all of those dangerous thoughts were swept out of his head and a smile was now back on his face. He was way too cautious about this relationship but could he help it? Kris was perfect and he wanted to keep him no matter what. He would have to tell Kris not to say things like that too him… he may have a heart attack.

 

“So what is it?”

 

“At work, a couple of days ago, I got a fantastic opportunity.”

 

Kris started to speak and Tao couldn’t help but be excited for the other man. He had to admit he was a little bit jealous of the others work but he couldn’t wait to hear what Kris is going to be able to do. It actually excited him.

 

“What is it?!”

 

Maybe Kris was telling him because Zitao was going to be a model… no wait. He couldn’t do that. He wasn’t perfect enough like Kris to be a model…

 

“Do you know the fashion designer Key?”

 

Of course he did. He usually buys his designs. And his magazines. Did it have something to do with freaking Key? Oh, the panda was so jealous right now.

 

“Yes actually. He asked me to be the main photographer for his fashion magazine.”

 

Kris smiled and Tao couldn’t even hide his grin as he thought about looking at the pictures his boyfriend had taken of Key’s clothing! His name would be in the magazine and everything it would obviously have to be framed once it came out. The panda didn’t even notice when Kris’ smile started to falter but instead grabbed the others hands in excitement.

 

“That’s absolutely amazing!”

 

Kris nodded.

 

“Yeah, it’s going to do wonders for my career. It really is a big thing.”

 

But Tao did realise that the blondes tone had changed. It sounded like he wasn’t as excited as Tao anymore. There was obviously something else.

 

“Kris… what’s wrong?”

 

Now he was worried. What if something had happened… what if it was something to do with Tao? He saw the other take a breath and suddenly the others dark eyes were staring into his own. When the other started to speak his heart also sped up.

 

“I’m going to New York for three weeks.”

 

Oh. The panda’s eyes widened.

 

That was it?

 

He must have been worried from them being apart for so long. But Tao could deal with that he thought. Well, at least it wasn’t for months and months. If it was only for a few weeks then he wouldn’t mind. As long as Kris had fun.

 

“Really? That’ll be a wonderful trip.”

 

Tao spoke happily. Maybe they should go there for a holiday next year or something… at Kris would be familiar with it after this.

 

“The trip begins on November 3^rd. For three weeks.”

 

Tao’s smiles darkened but before he thought the other would notice he pulled that smile on his face. Now he realised why Kris was talking about this so strongly. Why he wasn’t excited about telling the panda this. Why he was doing it when the two of them were alone. Tao shut his eyes for a second and tried to calm himself down.

 

“Oh…”

 

The wedding. The wedding was during that time and that meant that Kris wouldn’t be able to go. All of his plans. All of the things that he had planned out so perfectly that he had even made sure that he had memorised them in his head were abandoned now. He couldn’t help but feel so disappointed. So let down. Tao tried to clear his throat before speaking again just to clarify what he knew was true already.

 

“So… you can’t make it to the wedding?”

 

He looked down at the floor, not really wanting Kris to see the tears that were gathering in his eyes. He didn’t want to cry. He wanted to hug Kris and tell him that he didn’t mind at all that he was missing this and say that he was excited for him.

 

But he couldn’t.

 

This meant so much to him. This was Yixing’s, his best friends, wedding. This was when he was going to introduce Kris to his family and actually welcome him in hopefully forever. This was when he was going to tell Kris how he really felt and show him. But everything was crashing down on him now. He felt like he was being punched in the insides.

 

The black haired boy flinched a little when he felt hands on his shoulders and the suddenly he was pulled forward and his head was now resting on Kris. The smell of natural Kris was intoxicating and he really wanted to pull the other closer. But he could feel the tears already coming down his cheeks, another few seconds and he would be outright sobbing. Something that he did not want Kris to see.

 

“I’m sorry baby.”

 

The other whispered and Tao froze. He knew the other didn’t mean this, didn’t know this was going to happen and most of all… didn’t know what this meant for him. So he wasn’t to blame was he? His heart felt differently. But it shouldn’t. Of course Kris should take this opportunity. Tao would have too if he was in his place. It still hurt.

 

“Hey guys!”

 

Yixing’s voice suddenly appeared and Tao freaked out a little pulling hastily away from Kris and stared at Yixing with his damp eyes and trembling lips.

 

“What’s going on?”

 

The happiness in the others voice was gone once he had saw his best friends face.

 

The panda just shook his head and ran out the room. He couldn’t handle even more people know how disappointed he was. How heart broken. How much he was hurt at the moment. Unfortunately he heard someone running after him, and just when he was in the living room he felt arms pull him backwards and he was now wrapped in arms from Joonmyun. He could tell by the smell.

 

“Oh Tao, what happened?”

 

Tao shook his head and he could then feel the sobs that he was trying to hide so much. Joonmyun didn’t say anything but held the other tighter. Tao felt a kiss on the side of his forehead, Joonmyun’s speciality was calming people down and it worked a little on Tao.

 

A few minutes later he heard footsteps out in the hallway and he pulled out of Suho’s arms to follow the sound and he saw Kris about to open the entrance door to his house. He as leaving without saying anything. Maybe that was best. But he didn’t want the other to leave… not really.

 

“Yifan, you’re going already?”

 

Tao didn’t even realise that he had used the others real name, it just came out. This was really serious. He realised that his face would have looked awful, tears and puffy cheeks were definitely the face of someone beautiful. Again he felt Kris’s hands on his shoulders.

 

“I’m sorry Zitao, I’m so sorry.”

 

He sighed inside.

 

“For what? Taking the best opportunity you could have? Don’t apologise.”

 

Zitao brought out that smile again and tried to seem like he was happy again. Just like he was ten minutes ago. He wanted Kris to do this. He did. Yifan needed to do this, because this was his break in the work world. This mattered more. And he was glad that he made Kris feel better because when Kris leaned down and their lips touched, the spark was back and Zitao couldn’t help but moan into the others mouth and hold on to the other’s waist.

 

The other’s tongue pushed through into the panda’s mouth and Tao could easily say it was the best feeling in the world that he had ever experienced. The way the other was roaming about his mouth just amazing, it made him forget the whole ordeal that was happening. The others mouth was more important at that moment. Kris held onto Tao’s neck for a few moments longer and then the kiss ended with Kris bringing his lips to the boy’s nose.

 

“I’ll talk to you later okay?”

 

Kris sent a wink and left the house and Tao smiled before closing the door behind him still out of breath.

 

 

 

 

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The day was here. Kris was leaving and Tao was sitting in the taxi that was taking him to the airport where he would have to say goodbye to him for three weeks.

 

Yixing was beside him holding his hand because the both of them knew that any moment Tao could be bursting out in tears. It still hadn’t really set in but… there wasn’t anything to do about it. Kris was doing exactly what he should and Tao would just have to except that. At least he would have his family and friends to comfort him.

 

The taxi stopped and Tao was still.

 

It was like his body wasn’t going to move for anything. He could feel Yixing squeezing his hand and he could hear the other talking to the driver probably trying to convince him to stay for another minute but he couldn’t move.

 

He was about to say goodbye to Kris and he couldn’t.

 

But he didn’t have a choice did he?

 

Before he knew it Yixing had literally dragged him out of the taxi and he and the other Chinese boy were walking into the entrance of the airport where Kris would probably be waiting for his plane. They were leisurely strolling until Zitao actually realised what the time was.

 

This was five minutes before the Plane was to take off.

 

The boy ran.

 

About two minutes later he was shouting Kris’ name and then he ran into Yifan’s waiting arms, getting lifted up really high making the both of them giggle and Tao to grip onto Kris for dear life.

 

“Hello!”

 

Tao couldn’t help himself and placed his lips onto Kris’ own. He could have missed this. He was so glad he didn’t. The boy hadn’t even realised he was so late.

 

“I thought I was going to miss you.”

 

The boy whispered… he was thinking about the situation where he did miss him in his head and it was not good. It was not a pretty sight at all.

 

“I’m glad you’re here.”

 

The other kissed him again and Tao’s lips started to tingle.

 

“But babe, I really need to go.”

 

Oh.

 

He was way too late wasn’t he? He had this planned out. There were going to make out for a while and then hug for another twenty minutes. But this, this was way too short. He needed more time. His face dropped the smile but he still looked up into Kris’ eyes with the same expression as before. Love.

 

A large hand his cheek and Tao smiled at the softness.

 

“I’ll be back soon okay? And I promise when I do, I’ll make sure that you’ll be the happiest boy around, okay? Send my regards to Lay and Suho.”

 

One last kiss was given and before Tao could even give the larger man a reply the other was stupidly running to his back and following who he had just realised was the designer Kris was talking about, Key. Key was there, and he wasn’t even paying attention to him. If he told that to anyone they would probably kill him for being stupid but how could he focus on anything but the marvellous creature who had kept kissing him?

 

Before the other went out of sight he raised his hand and started to wave to the other, hoping that Yifan would turn around and when he did he got a nod and a blown kiss which just made Tao almost faint on the spot.

 

A few minutes after Kris was gone he felt a hand on his shoulder and he looked at Lay.

 

“Come on, wipe those tears and let’s go home and fix my wedding huh?”

 

The panda hadn’t even realised he was crying but he nodded nevertheless and followed his friend out, missing Kris already.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A/N (gacktx) - Sorry. Really. Shadowgami was pestering me today saying that it was almost a year since we had updated. I actually had a few pages written for a few months... but I finished it. Because I miss this story. I do. 

Shadowgami is actually asleep so she'll wake up to this update!

Enjoy, and don't be too mad! Hwaiting!