It’s my 9^th birthday. My childhood friend, Kevin and Jasmine came to my house to celebrate. They made a birthday cake and decorated cookies for me to eat. On that cake, there’s a cucumber in it. And it’s really delicious.

While I was eating that cupcake, suddenly Kevin announced that he and his family are going to move. They’re going to Los Angeles. That’s the reason why last summer I tried to go there to search for him, but he never be founded.

 He’s really my best friend. He always made my blanket with some way that made it easier to sleep. Because he knows that I had always have a trouble in sleeping.

After he left, I asked Jasmine to make my blanket just like what he did. But she never knows how. So, those 2 months after he went to Los Angeles had been my terrible years. I have never slept without drinking sleeping pills at my first 2 months. But after those 2 months, I had realized that I shouldn’t depend on that pills, I should try to admit that he’s gone.

I drank sleeping pills because I always thought that if he came, I could have my sleeps back. But now, he’s gone and I tried to count sheep before sleep, but it never works. The only thing that works is to use the socks that he had given on the first day of our friendship and to hum ‘I Can Wait Forever’ before I sleep.

The sock is so warm that it gives me some warm feeling. Until now, I always used it if I want to go sleep. I Can Wait Forever is our song. It’s Simple Plan’s song.

He had sung that song to me during the last moments in the airport. I always sing that song if I’m reminded of him. I didn’t love him. It’s just that… I realized that he is the only one that can feel this some empty space in my heart. And I don’t know what this feeling means. I don’t know the name of this feeling.

And right now, I’m trying to sleep. With that Orange motive socks under my blanket. I sang,

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes
Man, I wish that I could stay and I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
And I
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Until that day
There's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it
I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...