Donghae looked at Hyukjae again. He doesn't know how to feel. They were brought together because of this incident and it happened
that Hyukjae was,as well, the reason behind it? "Yah," he called in a low voice. "You've cause a lot of trouble..."

He knows he is supposed to hate Hyukjae now. He is, afterall, the reason for Siwon to break up with him. He is the reason why
he almost want to give up his life. He is the reason why Siwon gave him up and ended with Heechul. He is the very reason for
that past heartache. He chuckled again and tried to hide his short smile.

Hyukjae. He is the reason why Donghae stood up on his feet again as well. The very reason why he chose to live. If it wasn't
for his letter, he wouldn't want to live anymore. Hyukjae is the reason why he looked forward to everyday. And now, the very
reason why he is breathing. The very reason why he is smiling. The only reason why he has let his heart beat again.

How could he hate this person? Lee Hyukjae, has thought him how to love again.

"Hyukjae ah, you've ruined our lives, you silly bastard." his eyes were as gentle as he explore the sleeping man's face.
"wake up and be responsible about it. You have to take me as your responsibility." he smiled sweetly as he looked at the
person in the hospital bed.

Siwon just watched Donghae as he held Hyukjae's hand. He has been dating Heechul for a year now and yet its as if he still
feels the pain he felt when he broke up with the person in front of him the moment he saw his face again after a long time.
But he can't seem to feel Donghae having the same loneliness anymore. What happened to the Donghae who almost begged him to
stay? Where is his Donghae who said he cannot love without him? This person in front of him, he doesn't seem to reach at all.

"You wanted to change the future." Donghae whispered. "I'm going to change the past. I'll wait for you, Hyukjae ah." he pressed
his hand the way Hyukjae did when they were praying before their dance battle.

He stood up and turned to Siwon. "I never cheated on you in the past. I've always had my eyes on you. You are the very reason
why I turned my back to my family. I've always loved you." he said and looked
down shortly. "But you never believe that, just because of a silly letter."
He looked at Siwon in the eyes. That gentle, twinkling eyes doesn't sparkle for Siwon anymore, but they were still as gentle
and sincere as ever.

"But it's nobody's fault. Maybe what happened back then is just a way for us to know we don't belong to each other. I've
moved on thanks to this person." they both looked at Hyukjae's lifeless body for a while. "He was the one who saved me from
giving up my life after our break up."

Siwon looked at him and have a lot of thoughts at the back of his mind. Donghae wanted to give up his life? I've hurt him that
much? But...

"He was the one who encourage me to live a life without you. But you will never understand us, its more complicated than you
think it is. I'm sorry that you have to think of it the wrong way. You are innocent, and I cannot blame you for what you did.
But I am innocent as well. Hyukjae, he didn't know he'll cause all of these...he is innocent too."

"From the very start all he wants is for me to be happy." He smiled gently as he looked at Hyukjae again. Siwon met his
eyes, Donghae's eyes sparkle like that of a star, but those are not for him anymore.

"Right now, I already am, thanks to this person. By now, I supposed you are as well. We've made our choices; you lead me to
this choice, I won't say I'm thankful... but I'm glad I accepted it."

Donghae turned his back on Siwon and ran outside the hospital.

His former lover watched him from behind. He knows he shouldn't think about their past again and that Heechul must be waiting
for him somewhere. He knows he's quite happy with Heechul by his side as well. But he just can't stop thinking.

He can't stop thinking that maybe Donghae has been telling the truth all this time, maybe he never really cheated. Maybe he
should have believe in him in the first place. Maybe he should have stopped and listened to Hyukjae instead then he could have
understand what happened. Maybe he shouldn't have let Donghae go. Maybe if he didn't let go of this person, they are still
happy in each other's arms. Maybe Donghae's eyes can only see him. Maybe Donghae's innocent smile is still for him. Maybe
Donghae's sunshine still beams for him. His life exist for him. Just maybe.

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"It's not too late, right? Hyukjae ah... it's my turn to find you."

Donghae went to his house and started writing a letter. He doesn't receive any letter from Hyukjae for the past 2 years and
thought maybe Hyukjae is busy looking for him in the present time. Maybe he is busy finding a trace of them both.

Hyukjae ah

I found you. You had an accident.
You were the reason why Siwon and I broke up
And you felt guilty about it.
You were hit by a car while crossing the street, running after him.
Please. I don't care about anything anymore.
I want to be with you.
I don't want you to hate or hurt yourself for the matter.
I want you to save yourself. Don't do anything
That will harm you. I'll wait for you here. Let's be together for real.
I love you.

Donghae

He swallowed and hoped for the best. He needs to change the past in order for them to be together in his present. He needs to
save Hyukjae. Because this person, has already marked a place in his heart. Just like that, his letters made him fall in love
with his everything. The anticipation of meeting him is like the aching of his longing heart to be found by Hyukjae. And now
that he has found Hyukjae of 2010, he needs to be with him... he wants to be with him. Indeed he doesn't know well who Hyukjae
is, but it wouldn't matter because he knows the latter feels the same about him...or maybe even more.

*Author's note: just a short update tonight...
gonna work more on this on weekend^^
Have a good night!