Hyukjae sighed as they went back to their dorm. Of course he is happy. Right now, he is holding their trophy and Shindong, Kyuhyun,
Sungmin, Jongwoon and Jungsoo are all drunk dead in the common room after their celebration. Still, the thought that he saw
Donghae being dragged by his tall, handsome boyfriend left something deep in his heart.

How lucky could this Siwon be? He's tall and handsome and seemingly rich and the best part is he has Donghae. And the best part
of the best part is that he can easily take him away. He looked down. Donghae didn't even got the chance to celebrate with them.
How could this man be so selfish?! But as far as he can remember, Donghae doesn't really look that upset when Siwon just dragged
him right after he dance. He just resisted for a while and then wrapped his arm around his lover with a sweet smile.

He silently wish he could stop the two from going away. He silently wish he could just push Siwon away from Donghae just so he
can stay a little more longer with him. But how could he do that? He saw Donghae's eyes twinkling brightly right before they
completely exit from the back stage.

Tsch. What is he feeling? He seemed greedier now that he knows Donghae have known him for a long time. What has gotten into him?
He never thought of hating someone but he just can't stop himself from hating Siwon. Why does he even have to exist in 2008?
Why does Siwon have to exist in 2008 when he and Donghae could have been close.

"Hyukjae ah... you're complicated." he said as he lay down on his bed. He tried closing his eyes but he hears the ticking of his
clock. It's very quiet that night that he feels like the sound of the clock is deafening him. He stared at it for a long time.

"Yah... if you want to make noise make sure you'll bring me to 2010 and be with him when I wake up."

As if the clock can talk back, Hyukjae continuously stared at it until he has fallen asleep.

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Wish we could have another chance to do it again.
I'd like to see you.
You wouldn't believe me if I feel like we've known each
other for a long time and that I think I'm becoming happier
because of your strange existence in my life.
Eunhyuk shii, Hyukjae ah...do you think it's sane if I say
I think I already like you?

Donghae closed his eyes when he finished writing. What is he thinking? He said he doesn't want to expect anything but what is
this? This is blant confession! He scratched his head and crumpled the paper before throwing it in the dustbin.
He knows he cannot write it on his paper because Hyukjae might be awkward towards him. He might not want to be friends with
him anymore. He wouldn't want that. He took another paper and stared at it for a long time.

Since when did he started liking this person? It's definitely not during the dance battle. He just admired his skills in dancing
during that time. He didn't like Hyukjae at that time.
Since when did he feel it? Was it when Eunhyuk said he's a beautiful person? Was it when Eunhyuk apologise
after realising they were in different time? Was it when they started becoming friends? Was it when he received Eunhyuk's letter
encouraging him to continue his life? Or was it now when he realised that Eunhyuk had existed in his past as Lee Hyukjae? He
doesn't know but he admits the fact that he started liking the Eunhyuk that he knows even before discovering he is Lee Hyukjae.
That silly monkey! Why the hell did he use petnames? Now he's also confusing himself.

He cannot figure out. It's difficult to understand but he sure feels different even if they are just exchanging letters. Even
if he doesn't knew Eunhyuk is Hyukjae, it always felt right to answer his letters. It always felt great to hear from the latter.
It always feels real even if they are with great distance.

"Donghae ah, Lee Donghae... you're in trouble." he said as he scratched his head.

28 November 2010

Eunhyuk shii
I mean... Hyukjae

I hope you receive this letter after the dance battle.
Actually, I lied to you. I knew that you would win that time
it's just that I don't want you to be too confident.
You didn't tell me your real name is Hyukjae, if you told me so
I would have known who you are. I could have told you that we've
danced together and that I actually know you.
I could have told you that I remember your face.
What you told me before was true
You are a good looking person.
I've never seen such a handsome monkey^^
I wish we were able to talk more at that time.
It's a weird feeling realising that I knew you all along.
Who would have thought we would be dancing together?
You and the past me...
Thanks for encouraging me back then.
I was really nervous I thought my heart will leap out of my chest,
Thanks to you I felt a lot better.
Wish we could have another chance to do it again.
I hope you wouldn't mind if I say this but
I'd  really like to see you again.
Like that when we first met.
In the practice room before the competition.

Donghae

"I'd like that." Hyukjae said while lying on his bed. His freed a gentle smile. Is it possible that Donghae feels the same?
Can they really be together? Is it really ok? because...
"I'd like to see you again...and be with you if I can. Donghae ah..." his eyes slowly dropping and completely closed as he
hugged his pillow along with Donghae's letter. He moved his head a bit and found the best position in his bed.

He'd like to meet him again because he feels like Donghae is the person he would want to be with even if time won't permit. He'd
like to meet him again, because it feels so right to have this person by side.

10 December 2008

Donghae ah

Let's meet each other. On Christmas Eve of 2010.
Let's promise to meet each other in the school gazeebo.
Let's try it again. Shall we?
I'd really want to see you.
If we are successful this time...

Is he ready? Maybe, he's never been this definite, more sure of anything. Hyukjae thought for a while whether to continue what
he has written. He closed his eyes and breathe deeply. "I'm going to do it. Wait for me, Donghae ah..."
His hand started shaking before he could write the words he wants to say. He needed to pause for a long while before he could
get enough courage.
This is it, Hyukjae ah... be man enough to take the risk. "Hwaiting!"

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Donghae's eyes widened as he read Hyukjae's recent letter. He liked the last words... so much that he hugged the letter close
to him. He was glad that Hyukjae was more courageous than him. His eyes started having some water as he smile. He didn't expect
to read those words but he liked it and now he can be sure of what he feels as well. He is in love with this person. He is in
love with Hyukjae. He looked at the letter and smiled widely.

"I'm going to meet you soon... Hyukjae ah."

He looked at the letter again and re-read his favourite lines. The lines before Hyukjae signed his name...

If we are successful this time...
I don't really know how to say this but~
I'll say it anyway
Donghae ah, please don't laugh at me when you read this.
I hope you can feel my utmost sincerity while writing this~
I'd like to be with you and go out with you
if you will permit me.

I sincerely like you, Donghae ah...

Hyukjae

*Author's note: I'm getting tired of this :((
I'm thinking whether I should just quit writing this
fanfic...
I in writing Eunhae :((
*Done ranting, sorry, I'm really upset with myself