Donghae sobbed once more as he sat on his chair inside his room, weeping. His eyes are swollen due to countless days of crying.
His face has been a lot thinner and he seems to be on the verge of breaking down. He breathe in and saw a piece of paper. He
took it and started writing.

23 March 2010

Dear Sungmin...

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Hyukjae placed his luggage in the centre of the common room. He has transferred to his new dorm. He sighed. It was quiet. He
didn't know being in such a dorm would be boring him from his very first day. Not quite though.

He looked back when he heard something dropping from the slit of the mail slot outside. He crossed his brows and picked it up. Too
early for him to receive his very first mail in his new dorm. His eyebrows crossed shortly.

"Lee Sungmin?" he wondered. Must be one of his roommates. Nobody is around and that time and he is assuming all of his housemates
are either out or sleeping since its midday. He placed the letter on the table near the door and went inside his assigned
room.

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"Stop bothering me, Hae. There's no way I'm going back with you. After what you've done. You still have the guts to face me?"
Siwon said swaying Donghae's arms off of his. The latter one
almost fall from the strength the former gave when he swayed his arms off, what has he done? He doesn't know. Donghae was lying
on his bed as he recalled those
bitter words. His mouth curled down and his eyes closed tightly as he started crying again. What has he done that made Siwon
push him away? He stood up and check his mail box outside. He sighed.

"Why is hyung not replying?" he wondered. He went inside the room and looked at his photo with him and Sungmin with arms around
each other's shoulder. His best friend. He knows he can always rely on Sungmin but why is he not replying to his letter? Is it
possible that there's no one else who is interested in letter writing anymore?  But Sungmin loves writing a letter. He has sent
Donghae a lot of letters when he stayed in Japan even with email and sms being too easy to use these days. He still preferred
writing him a letter. He looked at the back and saw the address.

"Hyung, I really need you now." he said voice is quite low and lonely. He sighed again and started writing another
letter.

28 March 2010

Dear Sungmin...

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Hyukjae looked back when he saw another letter on the floor. The second one this week. He picked it up and looked at the side.
He saw the letter he first picked up still unopened.

He has settled in his new dorm and are quite friends with his housemates. "Shindong ah... do we have a Sungmin in our dorm?"

He thought his question is ridiculous as there are only 4 of them inside. Him, the fat and funny Shindong, the turtle loving,
weird Jongwoon and the endless talkies Jungsoo.

"Yah...are you working on your gag? You know that there's no Sungmin here." Shindong said and continuously munch on his chips.

"Do you think its for the one who stayed here before I came?" Hyukjae said.

Jungsoo shook his head. "Impossible. His name is Jaejoong. Besides, that person is the most techiest person I've ever seen. I
don't think he'd bother writing such letter. You should have seen him when he was here. I can barely distinguish his face from
the computer screen."

Hyukjae just nodded and looked at the letters again. He decided to place the second letter beside the first one.

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It's been another week and Sungmin still have not reply to Donghae. He was at his lowest now. He didn't expect to see Siwon
with another man quickly after breaking up with him. The man mysterious enough to be called Heenim. What's making him even more
upset is that Sungmin hasn't replied to him. The only person he could rely on for some emotional support. He felt so alone; with
Siwon dumping him like a nobody and not knowing why the man he loves seemingly hates him alot without any reason at all and
with Sungmin seemingly so busy with his happy life and him alone in his apartment. He felt
like ending everything now. Nobody loves him. Nobody cares for his existence at all. He looked up and a tear fell from his eyes.

He has given everything for Siwon and now he is here alone and in deep pain. How could Siwon do it after being with him for 4
years? Is 4 years too long for him to stay with Donghae? Is he not worth more than 4 years of being cherished? He swear he has
never laid eyes on anyone else but him, but why is he accusing him of cheating...him? He was never dishonest, he never even
tried looking at others. He only has his heart for Siwon, so why? Why is he being accused of cheating. And now Siwon is with
another person... how long have they been together? Is it possible that Siwon is the one cheating and is just putting the
blame on him? But why would he do that?

He was crying and sobbing loudly as he reached out for a piece of paper. Before he end his life, at least he should write and say
his goodbye to his best friend, Sungmin.

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Hyukjae has decided to catch the postman and return the letters to the sender and when the third letter dropped on the dorm's
floor, he immediately jumped out of the couch and opened the door. He knows it would take at least 45 seconds before someone
reaches the lift so he is quite sure he can catch the postman. However, when he went out, there's no one there but his shadow.

He sighed and take the letters. "What am I going to do with you?" he asked himself, eyes on the letters. He went inside his
room and open them one by one.

23 March 2010

Dear Sungmin,
I'm writing this letter while I'm in tears.
I haven't been this unstable with my emotions until today.
Siwon broke up with me. He said I cheated on him. I swear I didn't.
I've only have my heart for him and still, he insisted that I am seeing
someone else. I don't know why.
Hyung, I'm so down right now.
I've spent 4 years loving him more than anything in the world and now I was left with this pain.
What am I going to do?
I wish I can see you now, I know you're busy but I hope you'll find time to read this and help me.

Lee Donghae

Hyukjae crossed his eyebrows and now understand why this Lee Donghae keeps on sending messages.
It's quite a pity that he is sending it at the wrong address. He wish he could be of help but who is he? And what can he
actually do? He read this private message and it already mean intrusion of once privacy. He sighed. It's not like a certain
Sungmin exists in this dorm. He opened the next letter.

28 March 2010

Dear Sungmin

It came to my mind that you really are busy.
Sorry if I'm bothering you.
I just want to let out my emotions and share it with you.
You are my bestfriend and I know that I'm being selfish taking so much of your time letting you read my letter.
However, I really need to let this out so you can just ignore my letter if you want to.
I cannot make it, Min. I've loved him too much that I cannot let him go like that.
You know what he said?
He said he can't believe I cheated on him.
He said he's been wasting his time for someone like me.
We both know that I left my parents to go with him.
I left university and entered a Poly instead just to be with him.
How am I suppose to go back to my family?
They've cut our ties when they find out about us.
Where am I suppose to go?
I thought 4 years is enough to prove that I can keep him for the rest of my life but...
he threw me like a piece of trash not even valuable for someone else to keep.
And the painful thing is that he accused me of cheating...

If you are still reading this, thanks.
I really appreciate that even if we're far from each other, I can still rely on you on this.
If not, it's ok.
I understand that you're busy with your studies as well.
I hope you can drop by and see you soon. I miss you.

Lee Donghae

How painful is it to actually break up with someone whom you've trusted with all your heart? Hyukjae wondered. As a person with
no experience in love, all he could think of is how a person could actually waste time crying over a bastard who didn't even
care for him at all. He felt sympathy for Donghae but then, he's also stupid. Did this person even force him to turn his back
on his family? Did this person even ask him to leave university and go to poly? Tsch. On the otherhand, whoever this bastard is
that break this Lee Donghae's heart after doing these things for him has no right to breathe another set of oxygen. Heartless.

"If I have someone to do those things for me, I'm going to keep him indefinitely. I'll make sure he gets the right treatment
from me and make sure he's the only one in my heart."

Well too much for being carried away. He scratched his hair shortly and chuckled. He didn't see himself being too carried away
because of what he read. He opened the last letter. His eyes widened and dropped the letter unconsciously. He swallowed shortly
and immediately searched for a paper and pen.

03 April 2010

Dear Sungmin,

As you are reading this letter, you might need to rush in to my place.
I've decided to end everything.
This pain.
I cannot take it anymore.
Please ask my mom and dad for forgiveness,
I cannot dare face them...not anymore.
Thanks for being my friend.
For so many years,
I've considered you as my brother and you never disappoint me for always being there.
Thanks.

Lee Donghae

"No..." Hyukjae said as he folded his paper. "I hope this one is not too late." he hurriedly placed the paper in a white
envelope and copied Donghae's address.

He sent the letter in an express mailbox and crossed his fingers hoping it's not too late for Donghae to read his letter.

*Author's note: hello!! hope you'll have fun with my first eunhae
please give me a break on this. I'm not a eunhae writer
I'm not too confident ~,~ hihihihihi^^
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