Rope? sleeping pills? Or maybe he should just drown himself in the bath tub? Donghae thought it would be easier if he will just
close his eyes and die just like that but even killing oneself is also a dilemma. He saw the bleach in the store room and
thought maybe this is better. His tears fell as he lie down on the blue couch of his apartment.

"It's better than feeling anymore physical pain..."

or so he thought. He doesn't know that his tummy will feel like burning if he drinks bleach. He
doesn't know he'll have convulsion and he probably doesn't know it's more painful than hanging his neck on the rope. Its as if
your stomach is being scraped by sharp objects that you'd wish you didn't even take half of what you've drank.

He put it down as another set of tears fall. Maybe falling asleep will be better than any kind of dying. He doesn't want to feel
pain anymore. He was about to popped
some sleeping pills in his mouth when he heard the mailbox bell. He looked at his door and saw a white thing peeping from the
mail box.

"Sungmin hyung..." he said.

Finally. He thought. He dropped the handful pills and run towards the mailbox. A small glimpse of hope that someone still cares
for him means a lot.

It was a letter. It is Sungmin hyung! he thought. Is he going to meet him? Is
he going to do some chops and kick to Siwon? Is he going to tell him that everything is going to be ok? He took the letter. It
doesn't matter what Sungmin will say, just the thought that his hyung has answered him means a lot to him.

He crossed his eyesbrows. What's this?

'To Mr. Lee Donghae'
It says outside the white envelope. Since when did his hyung became this formal to him? He saw the address and is quite sure it
is the same address from Sungmin's dorm. Nevermind. He thought. He opened the envelope and read.

3 April 2008

Dear Donghae shii
Firstly, I'm sorry to have disappointed you that I am not Sungmin shii.
I've been wondering why these letters of yours keep on coming to me,
I'm sorry to say but it seems like you've been sending it to the wrong address.
Although come to think of it, the address that you've written is exactly the address to my dorm.
Secondly, I am hoping it's not yet too late for you to read my message, please hold on and be strong.
I may not be in the position to stop you from doing what you want
but please don't do anything that may harm you.
I also apologise that I've read your letters
and that is the reason why I am writing to you.
It's not yet the end of the world, Donghae shii.
I'm quite sure you'll be able to stand up after this fall.
Please be strong.

Eunhyuk

He felt stupid. Lee Donghae. So the reason why Sungmin hasn't been replying to him is because he got the wrong address? Stupid.
He suddenly feel like laughing to himself. Thanks to a certain Eunhyuk he felt a bit better...ridiculously. He wiped his tears
and throw the pills he was almost about to take. He doesn't know why but it just feel good that even a random someone was concern
of his well-being. True, he should be upset that this Eunhyuk read his letters to Sungmin but he couldn't really blame the
person since he got the wrong address. He shook his head again and read the letter. His eyes are still wet of tears and his
face is still swollen due to crying but right now a gentle smile was planted on his lips.

He took the picture of him and Sungmin and copied the address very well. He just felt a lot better that he didn't even thought
of comparing the numbers and letters and didn't even realise that it is still the same.

04 April 2010

Dear Sungmin

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Hyukjae was secretly anxious as he is waiting for a reply. If he doesn't receive anything until the end of the week, he will
assume that Donghae has already ended his life and that his letter was no longer of any use. He doesn't like the thought. He's
not a samaritan but because he was able to read those letters he feels responsible for anything Donghae may do to himself.
He sighed heavily. How can he ever sleep soundly for the rest of his life if it happens?

2 white envelopes came out from the mail slot. He already thought it was a return address of his letter but no. A wide smile and
a sigh of relief.
It was for Sungmin again, which means it's from Donghae. He blew air and felt happy. Never in his life did he felt this anxious
and overly relief because of a wrong sent letter. He blew for a while and opened the first letter.

04 April 2010

Dear Sungmin

Something magical happened to me.
Siwon broke up with me... that's not the magical part
In fact, it is so painful, I should have known that breaking up
with him is like letting go of the whole world, like there's
no oxygent at all.
Don't worry...
I felt better although the heartache is still here.
I wanted to end my life and I almost do it until I received a letter.
It was ridiculous and crazy but I felt a lot better that way.
The person who sent me a letter told me that I've been writing your
address wrongly that's why you haven't been replying.
I was so embarassed but I'm quite thankful that it happened.
I felt stupid while reading it but it felt great right after.
He said he hoped his letter didn't come late and that I should be strong.
It just felt so good that someone was still concern about me.
At first, I thought you're too busy and doesn't want to write back or something
but now that I understand, I cannot blame you.
That letter saved my life.
If I happen to kill myself before reading it, I'm quite sure I'm going to regret it.
Hyung, should I write back and thank him?
I'm quite embarassed in doing so.

Please don't worry about me anymore,
I'm quite sure I'll try my best to move on.
Maybe I was just overwhelmed with the painful thought of
our breakup, I'm sure I can cope with it soon.

Anyway, hope you're doing fine, wish to see you soon.

Lee Donghae

Hyukjae doesn't realised how big his smile is. To the point that his gums are being too exposed.

"Yah... Why are you smiling so widely? Dangkkoma is quite having the creeps because of it." Jongwoon asked while letting his
turtle walk on his chest. Hyukjae looked at him and bit his lips to try lessening the smile but he just can't. He shook his
head and just walked towards his room.
He finally remembered that there are two letters. He looked at the other one and another smile grew in his lips.

To Eunhyuk shii.

He lied on his bed and started reading.

20 April 2010

Dear Eunhyuk shii

I didn't realise that I've been sending to the wrong address.
I'm sorry that I've been disturbing your peaceful days because of it.
However, I'd like to thank you for replying back to my letters.
To tell you the truth I was about to pop in some pills in my mouth when I got your letter.
Indeed I'm disappointed that it is you who has sent me a letter but I'm still thankful with what you told me.
Honestly, I felt a lot better right after I realised my mistake.
I'd like to tell you in this letter that I'm fine and I really want to thank you for being concern.

Lee Donghae

Hyukjae didn't know why he felt really happy reading Donghae's letter. He must have felt great because he was able to help save
someone's life. So this is how it feels to help someone especially who's on the verge of killing himself. He read Donghae's
message again and again and didn't realise that he's been reading it for more than ten times that day.

"Do you think I should reply to this?" Hyukjae asked Shindong. He's the closest room mate he has since they also go to the same
school and are classmate at some class.

"Well, it's up to you. I mean. It's quite rude if you don't reply, right? Although it seems like he's not expecting for your
reply anymore."

Hyukjae nodded and looked at the letter once again. He thought maybe he shouldn't really reply anymore but he never felt so
much connection with anyone before. Furthermore, he has no one in Seoul other than his room mates. He sighed. Just once more,
it wouldn't really be a big deal if Donghae shii doesn't reply to him at all. He'll just tell him that he's glad he was able to
help.

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Donghae was reading and writing some things about school. He tried to think less about
Siwon. It did helped that he is waiting for Sungmin's reply...and probably from that stranger who replied on his letters. He thought
its better than be stuck in looking back to the times he shared with Siwon, it's better because it doesn't hurt him to look forward
to something that won't be as painful as what happened to him recently. He was about to turn to another page of his book when he
heard the bell from his mailbox.

His lips stretched a bit for a smile. Must be from Sungmin hyung. He's already expecting a very funny and humiliating message
about his stupidity from last time. He stood up and took the letter but pouted a bit with wonder in his eyes.

"Eunhyuk shii?" so he did reply.

01 May 2008

Dear Donghae shii

I know you're not expecting any letter from me anymore but I just can't help not to write back.
I just want you to know that I am really happy that you didn't hurt yourself.
I feel really relief.
Were you able to hear from Sungmin shii?
I bet not... I just received your letter for him yesterday.
It's quite weird, don't you think? You got the address correctly
But I'm quite sure there is no Sungmin living in our dorm.
Maybe you should check on him again.
I'm really happy to hear that you're fine.
I hope you can stand on your feet soon.

Eunhyuk

Now it is starting to get weird. Did Sungmin hyung gave him a wrong address? But...why would he do that? Just then he heard the
bell again and saw another letter.

01 May 2010

Donghae ah...
I keep on wondering why my favourite dongsaeng haven't been writing to me.
Are you that busy?
I heard from a friend that you broke up with Siwon.
Are you ok?
I miss you, Donghae ah...
I wish I can see you soon.
Sorry if I've been busy these days.
Write back to me if you have time.
My address is still the same.
See you soon!

Minimin

Is it coincidental that he received 2 different letters from different people with the same address? Donghae crossed his
eyebrows and shook his head as he look at both letters. Is it possible that this Eunhyuk is hiding Sungmin's letters? But why
the hell would he do that? And... no Sungmin in his dorm? That's probably the crappiest excuse.

*Author's note: nothing... hihihi^^ hope you're all
fine with the update. Btw, I appreciate you guys
hanging around reading this and giving me credit because of my past
fics, seriously, Thanks!
I'm quite pressured though. But yeah, I'll try my best to make
your reading time worthwhile^^ 
Goodnight!