Minho pov:

"Manager hyung, you asked for me?" This morning Onew hyung told me that manager hyung wants to see me when we get to the studio.

"deh," This doesn't sound good, manager hyung only uses that tone when he is serious.

"what's wrong hyung?" I took a seat next to him and asked

"I've noticed this for a while already, you haven't been performing your best lately," He removed his glasses and looked at me

"eh?" Not performing my best?

"yes minho, i know fans are starting to notice as well. Once, fine, they probably find it cute. Twice, that's fine as well, they will still find it cute, but Minho, your mistakes are so obvious every single promotion. Not only that, you've been zoning out when you are on shows. I noticed about 2 weeks ago, Minho, do you need to talk about anything in particular?" He puts his hand on my shoulder

"a-ani.." Yes, I have been slacking off lately....

"Is it the girl? The one in Japan?" I was so surprised that he suddenly mentioned the incident again.

Talking about the incident...I really do thank Manager hyung to push the rumours away.

"no hyung...no"  I didn't want him to find out more about Hiro and I

"Minho, I don't want to see this anymore, araseo?"

"deh hyung, i'll do my best!" I nodded at him and reassured him

He left me because I told him I want some time to think.

Thinking back about my performances lately, it really has been pretty bad.

Has the fans noticed?

I took my phone out and went onto my fanclub sites to read the messages.

Minho oppa are you alright?? I am so worried!! You must be working too hard! You are not flaming anymore T.T I miss seeing you flame on stage.

-minhoney

OPPPAAAaaa! Are you sick?? You had mistakes again >.< I hope you will feel better soon and you always seem so depressed now! I'll only be happy if i see you smile again

-flameflame

I dropped my phone on the seat next to me.

How can I not be flaming? I am the flaming charisma of SHINee. This is not going well.  Appa and umma must have noticed my mistakes on TV as well. How can they be proud of me when I am like this? Even worse..Hiro is seeing me like this as well...she must be disappointed.

Hiro.

"Is it the girl? The one in Japan?" Manager hyung's question came into my mind again.

Is she the reason that I am not flaming anymore?

Can someone please tell me what I can do?

Where is Hiro?! I need her!!!!

wait...she's in China..with kyuhyun hyung

Thoughts of Kyuhyun hyung and Hiro hanging out together form in my mind

~imagination~

"Hiro, be my girlfriend!"

"eh? o-oppa?"

"Please be my girlfriend, I'll take care of you unlike Minho,"

"deh, oppa saranghaeyo"

~end of imagination~

Noo Noo, hyung wouldn't do that!!

I ran into the stairs and started running up.

I sped up and ran until I reached the top

I fell onto the floor, panting and drenched from sweat and tears.

The sky didn't help.

It started raining and I looked up the sky.

"Why are you doing this to me!?" I cried out and laid on the wet ground.

Water drips from my face. It could be rain, sweat or tears.

I don't care. I don't care if I get sick. I don't care if I die here.

Rather, I want to die.