" are you sure you won-- " I cut what my doctor's going to say.

" is this the highest dosage that I can take? " I asked him.

" Moonbyul… look, if you will get the sur-- "

" will the surgery ensure my life? No, right? If I get that medication I would be locked on hospital for years, but none of the things you'll do to my body will ensure my longer life span, in fact it can kill me in the process. Am I right? " I asked him again.

" but Moonbyul taking risk may lead you to have longer life span " he continued to pursue me.

" I won't waste my time on taking that risk. I will use my remaining time to be with the people I want to be with " I sternly said.

" but wouldn't be nice if you can be with them longer than your remaining time right now? " I stood up from my seat. I grabbed my medicines on his table and walked out of his office

I do want to last a little longer, but I know in myself that I can't. If I waste time staying on the hospital instead of being with Yongsun in this beautiful world I think I'll regret it. Having medications doesn't assure me that I'll be cured and in the process my body might even give up.

I'm terminally I'll, I can feel that my body is slowly giving up. I need to double the medicines that I intake, the dosage of it and I inject medicines every day that normally I take every once in a week. I need to use make up to cover up my pale face and dress up cautiously to hide the fact that my body is getting thinner and thinner. I even need to gather my strength to manage myself to get up every day and pretend that I'm okay in front of Solar.

I want her to not worry about my current state and I don't want her to spend our time being worried about me, I want her to be her normal self while we're together.

" Moonbyul... " a heard a voice as my vision became blurry.

" ya, what's going on!? " she shouted and called for some nurses around.

I can feel them carrying me to a room and placing my weak body on a soft mattress. They started to inject some things on my skin; it stings, but I have no strength to complain.

" you should have eaten " I heard YooA said as she enters the door. She went out with my doctor and left me a minute ago.

" I'm fine " I said.

" wow! That's what you call fine? " she sarcastically said and placed a hot porridge in front of me. She sat down beside me and began to blow a spoonful of what she brought.

" open up " she said. The reason why I don't eat is because my body refuse to accept anything that I try to eat, only liquid things are what my body accepts right now.

She insisted to make me eat so I just opened my mouth and nearly vomited at her when I tried to swallow the porridge. She immediately grabbed a napkin and patted my back.

" are you going to continue being like this? " I can hear the worriedness on her voice.

I know that YooA sincerely cares for me and she treats me as her unnie since I'm her only cousin on her father's side well not literally cousin since we're not blood related.

" should you try the medication that Dr. L-- " I cut her off-- there they go again with the medication and everything, can't they realize that I'm hopeless? I just want to spend my remaining life with Yongsun.

" do you really want to die without taking any actions? You can save your life unnie! " she said. I chuckl