It was one of the times we would see each other after one of us went oversea. We didn’t go anywhere, he just drove me home. At the parking lot of my apartment...

“Oppa, wanna say hi to my parents?”

“Next time may be. I don’t feel well.” Yea, his face seemed tired.

“Are you sick somewhere, Oppa? You didn’t talk much today.” I put my palm on his forehead.

He put my hand down, “No, I am not. Don’t worry.”

I caught something different,“Oppa, there is something wrong, right?”

“Hyun ah,” His voice seemed desperate.

“Ne?”

Silent.

“Oppa? What’s wrong?”

“Let’s just be friends.” Hurts, my heart hurt so much.

“Why Oppa? Are you not comfortable with me anymore?” I was crying inside.

No answer.

“You don’t love me anymore, do you?” I exclaimed.

He answered in a light speed, “Ani. I still love you. I do, I really do.”

“So, why do you want to break up? I don’t understand you at all.”

“I changed, Hyun, I don’t know how to handle myself. Keunyang... I can’t. I need time. I think I need to love myself more. I just want to be alone.”

“Oppa...”

“Sorry...”

“Oppa, I can help you. We can do it. Why should we break up? Can’t we just go out like always while we try to seek the answer of your problem? Is it easier if there is someone beside you?” I tried to grab his hands. But he put my hands down immediately.

“Mianhae...”

Silent.

“You are really serious, aren’t you?”

“I’ve said.”

“Okay then, I will wait. I will give you time. But, come back, soon, ne?” My voice cracked.

“Ani, Hyun, don’t wait for me. Really. I don’t want to make you suffer. I can’t guarantee I will still love you when I am better. So, let’s stop here.” What does he mean? I thought.

“Are you saying that you are seeing another girl?” I was shocked myself that I asked that question.

“Ani...”

“So what do you mean? You said you still love me, you said you are not seeing another girl, so why should we break up? Ah molla. Arasseoyo Oppa, do whatever you want.” I cried.

“Hyun...”