Foreword : When your soon-to-be-boyfriend  show his closeness to his girl bestfriend, what can a girl do? Jealous of course...

Seo Joohyun’s POV

Feb 18th

You may not know, but actually because of Yonghwa Oppa, I got close to Shinhye Eonni. Seriously. I forget the exact date, but we did make a kakaotalk group. Who are the members? Just Yonghwa Oppa and his dongsaengs, Shinhye Eonni, and me. What did we talk there? Just some stuffs between friends. This may seem really immature, but we used to change the group name based on what happened. Like if someone is having a birthday, then we changed its name to ‘saengil chukhae’. Or when ‘The Heirs’ aired, we changed the name to ‘The Heirs, fighting!’ etc. But for a while now, the group chat was inactive. I mean, we did not use the group chat anymore. We could chat personally, why we need that group, right? I mean, I am friend with Minhyuk and Jungshin, so of course I could chat them comfortably.  Jonghyun Oppa? I am not that really close to him – not to the level of my closeness with CN maknaes – but we are close enough to message each other if we have something to talk about. Shinye Eonni? I don’t really have any matter to talk to her to be honest, but we still keep in touch and we met outside sometimes. And Yonghwa Oppa? Of course I really can messagae or call or videocall him personally, since we are (still) in ‘some’ relationship. Moreover, it is not like we have a lot of things to talk about, and we rarely hang out together, so what is the use of that groupchat anymore?

I think it was already almost a year since our last chat there. But suddenly, this morning, Yonghwa Oppa changed the group name to “Saengil Chukhae uri chingu Shinhye~” And he also send one of Shinhye picture with a blessing. Why did he do hat? Can’t he just message her personally? I was contemplating to chat too or not, since I already congratulate her personally earlier this morning. I decided to wait my brother in law to chat. And sometime afterthat, the group back to active and flooded with blessing dan jokes, then I decided to say ‘cuhkhae Eonni’ again.

I was really jealous today. Why did he do that? I mean, he didn’t do it on my birthday and BIL’s birthday. Why on Shinhye Eonni birthday? Okay, he did message me on my birthday, he did gave me a simple gift, but I don’t know why I feel jealous and insecure over this. Insecure? Yes!  Really! Neomu neomu insecure. Then I remembered our-Eonni and I- conversation sometimes ago.

Flashback

It already been a really long time since I met Shinhye eonni personally. Today, she came to watch my musical. Because of Yoghwa oppa-Shinhye Eonni- and my relationship shouldn’t be revealed to public*you know how netizen would react -.-*, I cant post any picture we took together backstage. After the musical, I have 4 hours before my next schedule, and Shinhye Eonni didn’t have any schedule, so we decided to grab a meal together. Just like another celebrity friends, we went to a private restaurant where many celebrities would gather. We talked a lot about this and that stuffs, including my relationship with Yonghwa Oppa. But, suddenly Shinhye Eonni said

“Seohyun ah, actually I have something that I didn’t tell you yet.”

“What is that Eonni?”

“But please don’t misunderstand a thing.  Aish, I am afraid you will act differently after you know this. But I rellay can’t hide this from you althought it is just a joke.”

From there, I felt something is off. I know it is about Yong Oppa, but I don’t know what is that. Weirdly, I am afraid to hear, but really want to know what is it actually, I tried to calm my self and act as normal as I do.

“What is it Eonni? Ne, I wouldn’t. Just tell me~”

“Jinjja? It is really nothing to be honest.”

“Ne. Jinjjayo.”

Then she browsed her phone, I think she search on her kakaotalk. Before she could find what she search, the food we ordered came. After we said thanks to the waitress, Shinhye Eonni gave her phone to me.

“Please promise me you wouldn’t feel anything.”

I just nodded and read the message. My intuition is true, It was Yonghwa Oppa and Sinhye onni personal chat. Oh, Eonni saved Yonghwa Oppa’s number as Kang Shinwoo. How long time ago was that Kang Shinwoo..ckck. By the why, why not Lee Shin?

Me : Ya! Don’t be like that.

Kang Shinwoo : Why? Why can’t I? :p

Me : Ah forget that. By the way, my omma asked why you are not visiting her again. LOL. Why omma say that? Who are you... ckck. Oh yeah, Geunsuk Oppa visiting uri house sometime ago because he visited his relative who lived in the same appartement with us.

Kang Shinwo : Ahjumma ga? Jinjja? Hahaha... I already became her son, huh?

Me : Ya! Don’t you dare to be her son! Her love just for me and my brother, you know

Kang Shinwoo : How if I proposed to you? I marry you? I can became her son too right? :p

Me : Ya! What are you talking about? You are dead if Seohyun read this message.

Kang Shinwoo : She wouldn’t angry if you don’t show this chat to her. Hahaha

Me : Stop this joke, please

Kangshinwoo : Arasseo. Shinhye ah, I must go now.

As soon as I finished reding it, I dont know what to say. I just gave back Eonni’s handphone to her without talking anything, just a small forced smile. I felt Eonni was staring at me.

“Eonni, lets eat. The food are already cold.”

“Sehyun ah...”

“Ne?” I answered still without see at her eyes.

“Look at me.”

“Why Eonni?”

“Look, you are acting differently. Aish. I regret doing this. Why I let you see them when I knew you would act like this?”

“Anieyo Eonni, it is just that... I don’t know what should I say or what should I do. I am fine, jinjjayo.”

“Ani, you are not fine at all. Okay, firstly, I am sorry. I apologized. But you must know that it just his usual joke. You know how much he likes you.”

“Ne...” I just smiled, still the forced one.

“Don’t hold any grudge, it is just really his joke.”

“Ne...”

“Aish... why I... lets eat first.”

Then we eat and never talk about it again. I know that it was his joke, but somehow it really burdened me. It added my insecurities.

Flashback end

I don’t know what should I do after this. I can’t really ask Yonghwa Oppa what are his reasons, because I don’t feel like I have the right to do so. Who am I? I am not his girlfriend. What relationship did we have? We are a lover but we didn’t date officially. This ‘some’ relationship is the worst kind relationship. He can run anytime when he want, and I can’t really hold him. Ah.. I’m frustrated...

Note : Hi all ** should I write another chapter? I actually just want to write till here, I just want to point out Seohyun’s jealousness toward Shinhye. But in the end, I feel like there is no yongseo interaction while I am actually craving for their interaction sooo much!. Ah... I wrote this before my exam, so I would stop till here for now. Do you want me to continue this story with yongseo or stop here? I wait for your comments yeoreobun. Thankyou for reading... :)