Ch 3 - First Quarter

Waxing & Waning: Two Moons
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MAMA Era

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Time for a fansign. Kyungsoo likes seeing the fans, he really does, but he’s been dreading this because of what his manager, Jaehyuk, told him when he pulled him aside the week before…

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“You need to ham it up some more for the fans.”

Kyungsoo quickly retorted, “I’ve always shunned aegyo, everyone knew this before I was even put in a group. I hate it.”

Jaehyuk huffed, clearly unsatisfied with that response. “Well, fine, but then you need more skinship with a member.”

The singer grimaced. “Why? That’s not really my style either.”

“I don’t care what your style is: this is about D.O. You’re the most standoffish, fine, we’ll work within that, focus more on a manly image in general, but D.O still needs to be approachable, at least seem like it with one member so fangirls can imagine being that ONE special person who’d unlock D.O’s affections,” the manager ranted.

Kyungsoo sighed. He knew this was part of the idol package. He chewed his lip trying to think of an appropriate alternative or some way out.

“Look, you get along with your roommates, Jongin and Chanyeol, right? I never have to break up squabbles in your room.”

This was true. He’d started getting coffees with Jongin regularly during free times since the dancer first invited him along last month. It was now just routine, and a comfortable one at that, where both assumed that time was theirs to hang out together unless something came up.  It had become the default arrangement so much so that he’d been disappointed and even mildly… irked when Jongin told him last time he couldn’t go because he had promised to meet up with Taemin and Krystal whom he  hadn’t seen in forever. Kyungsoo was jealous… jealous of Jongin having such famous buddies, that’s all. Yeah, that’s all, no big deal…

He was startled out of his daydreaming by Jaehyuk’s impatient voice. “Right?”

“Huh?”

“You’re cool with Chanyeol?”

“Chanyeol? He’s alright, for an oversized muppet who can’t appreciate more than 5 seconds of silence.”

“Okay, so Jongin it is. I want to see skinship at the next fanmeet. End of discussion,” Jaehyuk hurriedly spit out the last two sentences and ran off to grab Sehun before he sprinted after a bubble tea catering cart that just passed them, pleading with him to, “remember the diet! You’re an idol now, for goodness sake - resist the tapioca craving!”

‘Damn it,’ Kyungsoo mentally cursed.

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They’re all are up on stage now at the fanmeet. Kyungsoo wants to pretend he hasn’t been obsessing for a whole week over Jaehyuk’s instructions, because he’s not sure why he’s making such a big deal out of this. He should have just pulled Jongin aside, told him what Jaehyuk said, and then they’d both be on board with some kind of plan. Kyungsoo likes plans, thrives on plans. Why the hell doesn’t he have a plan?? And Jongin’s a total professional at this idol stuff: HE would have come up with a good plan so Kyungsoo wouldn’t hav

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9.16 If anyone's wondering when I'll be updating, I'm not positive. 7.2k words already, but it's the FINAL chapter, so still trying to polish it up.

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FrancisMinerva
#1
Chapter 38: I would love to have the power you have to transform words into feelings and to be able to transmit in the same way what this fic made me feel. What beauty! what strength! What a way to make reality conjugate with fantasy and take Us to intense levels of emotion. You seem to take us by the hand and sneak us into that very intimate and personal place of Jongin and Soo's relationship from the beginning of their relationship to its maturity, and how the phases of the moon mark the degree of drama that is brewing in each cycle. Even though much of this writing is composed of one shots, you manage to give us the feeling of reading a complete story with the benefit of having alternative endings, one that condemns us to continue suffering, although suffering was never as sublime as it is to read your story and another that reduces the agony with an outcome that we all want to have for our kids, where they finally get to be together and happy and we are happier for them. You let us into that bubble they create for themselves in the way they love, care for and admire each other. This is definitely a must read fic for anyone who loves Kaisso.
For me, this is not a story, it's a wave that drags you in and takes you to the depths of anguish and when you think you're breathing it comes back and takes you deeper into the pain, because you make magic with your words and lead us through a clandestine love story because of the great truth that shows that being gay in a Kpop culture is completely unacceptable and they have to hide because they are not granted the right to be and love who they choose, in a slave industry that treats its employees as property. You confront us with the dichotomy that kids live between what they should be versus what they want to be, the constant torment of the I can't, I shouldn't...But I want to!!! Described so sublimely that we ride in that anguish, in that debate of personal feelings of each protagonist making the reader reach to feel it deeply and also allows us to appreciate the beauty that sentence by sentence is manifested, all perfectly combined to take you to that world of events and anguished decisions.
But then it is not a love story? Definitely it is! because within all that sorrow you find yourself in an oasis of love, where language only describes the beauty, intimacy and complicity that Jongin and Soo share, the love that sustains them and that they let us see in small spaces and you make so evident the love you feel for the boys because you pour it into words and with that you manage that those who read you soak in it. You transmit it so seductively, but this you only give it after making us live an immense sorrow.
This story changed the way I see the Kaisoo and I know that whoever reads it will feel the same way.
I have not been able to decipher why I love this couple so much, but your fic has raised the level of love I feel for them to another height, I have never read a Kaisoo fic that has affected me in this way, today my life is a before and after W&W, because after having lived this story I don't think I'll get over it, you have managed to make me not be able to separate the boys from your story, every performance I see of them, brings me back to you.
This fic has marked me forever and I don't know how you are able to write like that and still be so simple. You are definitely for me, the best writer I've ever met, you have made me fall in love with your story, with the magic you have to create sentences and turn them into triggers that bare your soul, and that make the most hidden feelings of those who read your work show through.
Since W&W I love Kaisoo more, I love the writer and I love what she awakened in me. Before I was someone else, today I have in my blood your story running through my veins and although it made me cry like nothing before had made me cry, I thank you infinitely that you wrote it and that by accident or fate I came across it, definitely the best gift I could have found without looking for it. I hope you are well and that this message finds you in the best way. Because I can't conceive what was going on in your life or what you have lived through to be able to write so masterfully.
I want to say goodbye with the sentence that is tattooed in my mind because of what it represents. At the end of the letter Soo telling Jongin: I would have loved to introduce you, properly, to my father.
Definitely...I die with that sentence, because of what it sums up in it.
Thank you for writing this fic!!!
sorry if there are mistakes, English is not my native language.
noviani_bali #2
Chapter 25: Oh God, this 2016 part is just so sad 😭
Jas_Sy #3
Chapter 38: <span class='smalltext text--lighter'>Comment on <a href='/story/view/1108987/38'>Sequel + Final A/N</a></span>
Oftentimes i forget that i am reading a fanfic. It seems that all the events happened in the past (except of course for the chapter "after 5 years") were true and fully documented, as if i am reading The Kaisoo's Biography written by Kaisoo themselves!



This is a masterpiece written for the Kaisoo shipper by a true Kaisoo shipper who breathes, think, act and feels like Jongin and Kyungsoo.
mayarahmed48 #4
I'm just wondering if I can translate your story, please?
dragonface3 #5
Chapter 26: Damn, I sobbed after reading Kyungsoo’s letter in Chapter 26, like uncontrollable tears running down my face. Wow, I really felt that.
dohjoey
#6
Chapter 38: It is 2019 and i have just read this treasure. Loved this!
coincidences
#7
Okay so I'm contemplating on reading this story one of these days, but..... but.
I want to know if kaisoo will be in an openly relationship, like will they confess and be together? And will the Kaistal thing last long? Will there be a long way of kaisoo after krystal is out of the view? Please say yes. Not to the duration of kaistal though.