AN: hiya! Thanks for reading and subscribing (if you have your amazing!) This is an older SuLay I wrote a while back. For the two who are waiting on the Sulay sequel, you can have this mess until i finish? ^,^ enjoy~

Joonmyun sat at the end of his king sized bed with tears dropping of his chin. He sniffled and wiped his face while leaning forward slightly, clutching at the duvet tightly, feeling breakfast creeping its way up his throat. He hiccuped a sob loudly and slapped his palm over his mouth trying to hush his sobs as he squeezed his eyes closed.

"Joonmyun? Please open the door? Baby what's wrong?" Joonmyun kept sobbing into his palm while his husband kept knocking on the door worriedly

"Joonmyun ….. Baby please" he whispered broken heartedly.

Joonmyun bit his palm, trying to hide his cries as his husband sighed on the other side of the locked bedroom door. In a whispered voice Yixing tried to help the older man.

"I'm here ok .. I'm always here .. Just-just please Joonmyun .. Tell me what's wrong so I can help you ……. Il stay out here and wait until your ready"

Joonmyun kept sobbing quietly with his mouth covered by both his palms now, he immediately stopped and bolted towards the joined bathroom, leaning over the toilet bowl, hurling breakfast out violently while sobs racked off the bathroom walls harshly as the tears flowed out twice as fast

Suddenly there was loud banging on the closed bathroom door. "JOONMYUN?! Baby!! What's going on! Open the door!!" Yixing was shouting out.

"Please!!" He whimpered with his forehead pressed against the door. Joonmyun kept heaving breakfast out, more and more chunks of bacon and toast flying out angrily. "Joonmyun!! Damnit!!" He could hear his husbands feet running away from the door urgently.

He sat on the cold tiles with his left cheek resting on the warm toilet seat, letting his cries out and tears fall 'this can't be happening to me!' Was all that was floating around in his mind. He knew they weren't ready. They were both too young, too focused on their careers, way too busy for this. He never thought to even ask his husband if he wanted this, ever.

He jumped when he felt warm hands rubbing his back "J-Joonmyun? Baby .. Why didn't you let me in .. What's going on??" Once Joonmyun's mind re