It was a busy day at YG more recordings, more concert practices. Same old thing. I personally wasn’t feeling it. It’s been awhile since we had a break. When we do have one, it’s so that we can perform at award shows. Not that I don't like making our fans happy but all the that's been happening to me this past year hasn't been that easy to deal with.

At least now for the most part the netz have stopped  trying to figure out who my “Girlfriend” is and just wait till I’m comfortable telling them. Jokes on them I don't ing have one.

“Earth to daesung”
“Hyung,”
“oppa”

What the… did you just call me oppa TOP?

“See I told you it would work. “Says seungri laughing.

“Daedae what's been up with you?”

“Yea Dae usually you're all about practicing, what gives?” asks Youngbae

Man it's just that we've almost been on tour for a whole year. I don't know maybe I’m just 
burned out from all the stuff that's been going on this year.

“Hyung you still on that ?”

Ri if you don't shut the up. I'm going to turn you into a human pretzel.

“Ri what did I tell you about bringing that up?”

“Sorry hyung but I thought you were over that.”

I am but, it's like when you started crying because of  the way that drama ended and the guy couldn't be with the one girl he truly loved.

“What Ri you started crying?” youngbae yells

“No!!! Wait hyung is lying. Hyung that was supposed to be a secret.”

Whatever. But anyway no I’m fine I’m just tired.

“Well it's a good thing our tour is almost over. We only have a week left untill or final in Seoul

"Yea just this week of practice no schedules just hard work, then we can finally take a break” chimes TOP

Speak for yourself I have an interview tomorrow. 

As we continue to practice, the mood gets lighter and for the most part we did well. We just need to fix a few things and will put on a show that Korea won't forget.

The guy’s head out and ask if I want to go with them. I tell them no, and instead I said I’m going to prepare for my interview. 

I wake up to banging noises and yells.
God they're so loud as I thought to myself.

I quickly hop out of bed and take a shower, and go over again what the interview will be like.

What's with these interviews lately?  There always the same ole . Ask about my love life, and more useless things. I swear if they ask about the damn kiss, I might just walk out. How many interviews do I have to do before they figure out nothing has changed. Oh yea I forgot I'm going to release my debut solo track from my album The Rise and Fall of KD.

Enough of thinking about the interview. I will either look romantic or simply pathetic.

“Dae, you ready?” I hear Youngbae calling out.

Give me a sec hyung.

“So you nervous about today?”

Aniyo.

“What if things don't turn out the way you want?”

Hyung how much worse could things get?  I’m practically confessing my feelings to a girl that already has a boyfriend.

“Oh yea, about that I don’t think you should go ahead with that. I honestly don't think that's a good idea.”

But it's okay if you and Jiyong hyung do it? Relax Tae it’s not like they’re going to figure out who the song is about.

“That's completely different we didn’t confess to girls that already were involved with someone else.  If you feel safe about it then go for it, just be read for Yg hyung to scold you“

Neh, true but this is the only way I’ll be able to completely get this off my chest and mind.

“Damn Dae you like her that much?”

I dont think like is the word. Love is.

“Sigh… Well good or bad we will be by your side. Fighting!!”

Thanks hyung

It's time for me to go. I guess you can check the internet after the interview is over to see if Netz start going crazy.

“Will do. Good luck.”

I need more than luck. I only told Youngbae hyung what song I'm going to debut. God knows I couldn't tell Yg hyung he would start interrogating me about who it's about.  I doubt I would have been able to even release the song. I have enough problems to worry about. Glad he gave me the green light to do this solo album on my own. 

~ Interview ~

“Hello everyone today we have a very special guest with us. Our special guest is none other than Big Bangs Daesung.” (Crowd stands and cheers.)

“Now how are you feeling today Daesung-sii “

I'm feeling pretty good.

“Glad to hear. So I hear you have a surprise for everyone today?”

Yes today I will be releasing a song from my debut solo album.

(Crowd stands up and starts to scream and applaud)

“Really Daesung-sii, I can’t wait to hear the song.”

Neh, I know it’s been asked by V.I.P’s that I have a solo debut in Korea, so Yg hyung and I discussed it and decided it’s been 10 years since Big Bang debuted and the time is right to finally release a solo in Korea.

“I’m so excited, and I’m sure everyone here is excited as well. Do you know when we can expect to have the full album released?”

It will be sometime during the late part of summer closer to our anniversary.

“Well this was sure a big surprise. I know everyone here wants to hear the song already, but before that however we must discuss some topics. Are you ready?”

Neh.

“Ok well to start things off. What kind of music are you currently listening to?”

Can’t say I’ve been listening to music. Been busy touring you know.

“Do you consider yourself the best singer in YG?”

Ehh Neh

“If you are what body parts are you most confident in?”

Ha-ha my abs and well I'll let the other be a secret. (Crowd oohs)

“What do you find the most attractive about a women?”

I find a women’s smile and laugh to be pretty attractive.

“Who in the entertainment community is your ideal type?”

Ha-ha well like I said I like women who have beautiful eye smiles and that enjoy laughing. I’ll leave it at that.

“Well everyone you heard it. Every girl out there if you have an eye smile and enjoy laughing you might just be lucky enough to be Daesung's ideal type.”

“Speaking of eye smiles your eye smile is known to be one of the best out there when it comes to idols. Is it your smile that makes so many fans love you so much? Your voice, your charm, muscles, kindness… Tell us what you think is the most attractive thing about you.”

Idk to be honest I wish I knew. I guess I would have to say my smile.

‘Okay to finish things, is there any secret you would like to share with the viewers?”

 It wouldn’t be a secret if I told now would it, but since its partly why im here. I use to have feelings for someone.

“Is the girl your talking about an Idol or how about the girl that you were caught kissing with?”

 ….

“Have you told her? If not will you when you see her? “

 I would tell her but, there’s circumstances prohibiting me from telling her.

“I see well I hope things work out for you.”

“And now for the moment we all been waiting for. It’s time to hear Daesung’s first song from his album.”(Cheers erupt)

(The music start to play)

Mm mm mm mm

“Tell me is it really hard to see,

Seeing you with him is killing me.

Go ahead and kiss him on the lips,

Even if it's painful for me to see.

Why can't you be with me?

Why did I ever look when you came my way?

Seeing that smile, made me want to stay

Before I think of you again,

I just want this to end

This can’t be how the story ends

I know I've been selfish in my thought-less ways.

But this is best way I can explain

I’m sorry if I hurt you OH baby 

Baby please just let me be.

Feeling like a fool 

Got to stop thinking of you

Oh what the hell do i do?

Mmmmm

I see your eye-smile, lips

Every kiss and every breath.

That Night still got me dying

I’m tired of trying

Because your eye-smile, lips

Every kiss and every breath

That Night still got me dying

I’m tired of trying,

To get over you

Baby I lied to mysel so much 

I finally realized enough is enough 

Can I see you once again?

Please tell me this isn't the end.

feel's like im drowing in the rain

Why must I be the one to cry

watching you guys gaze into each others eyes

In my mind it was you and I

Just staring at me with that smile

But sadly now, 

its clearly time to say goodbye

I know I've been selfish in my stupid ways.

But this is best way I can explain

I’m sorry if I hurt you OH baby 

Baby please just let me be.

Feeling like a fool 

Got to stop thinking of you

Oh what the hell do i do?

Mmmmm

I see your eye-smile, lips

Every kiss and every breath.

That Night still got me dying

I’m tired of trying

Because your eye-smile, lips

Every kiss and every breath

That Night still got me dying

I’m tired of trying,

I'm moving on best wish's to you”

(The song stops playing and all you can hear is the audiences sniffles and cry’s)

(The interviewer wipes her tears away) Daesung that was so beautiful. Did you write that from experience or what?

Neh I did. I won’t go into much detail, but I had feelings for a girl and I didn’t know that I felt this way about her. When I understood that I liked her I kissed her. Unfortunately though I never actually told her how I felt and now it’s too late. So writing this song is my way of setting myself free from the feelings I have.

“I’m so sorry you had to go through that to write such a beautiful song. I’m sure she’ll see this when this is broadcasted. Is there anything you want to say to her?”

All I want to say is sorry for not being honest with my feelings, and I wish her the best with her future relationships. I’m now free.

“Well I hope she hears this song. Thanks you again for sharing this wonderful song with us Daesung-sii.”

Snsd’s dorm

“Are you going to stare out that window the whole day?”

Tiffany looked out the window of the car’s just passing by and the leaves blowing in the wind. She was in her own world, not hearing a sound not noticing that Taeyeon was staring at her asking her questions.

None of the member’s know what’s been going on with her the past few weeks. In honesty she herself doesn’t know. Maybe it was frequent flying from one place to another. They weren’t promoting or anything they were pretty much on vacation till there next comeback.

“It’s such a boring day” sighs Yuri, while flipping through the channels.

The girls just nod in agreement. “Why don’t we go to the mall or go out.” Says Hyoyeon while staring at their empty fridge.” You would think since there’s eight of us, someone would remember to go grocery shopping.”

“Tiffany I told you, to go shopping this week.”

“You might as well not even bother talking to her Sunny. I think she’s in her own world again.”

“Well it’s boring anyway we all might as well go out to eat and go shopping after words.” Suggests Yoona.

HOLD THAT THOUGHT DISPATCHA\ ALERT. I REPEAT DISPATCH ALERT!!

Tiffany hearing the loud voice of Sooyoung is finally brought back to reality.

“What are you talking about Soo” Taeyeon interjects looking puzzled.

“Our favorite Idol is back in the headlines again.” The tallest one out of them says with a cheeky smile.

Yoona just shakes her head knowing instantly, who the tallest one out the group is talking about. “He just can’t seem to stay out the headlines these days” Yuri looks up from the T.v in amusement. “What did he do this time? Is he actually dating a Japanese model?”

“Move out the way Yuri, let me type it on here”

Sooyoung starts to type. The article pops up on the T.V.

DAESUNG'S SONG'S SHOCKING REVELATION!!

SONG ABOUT GIRL !!

WON’T SAY WHO IT’S ABOUT!!

To watch the song portion of the broadcast click link.

“What are you waiting for click the link” screams Hyoyeon

Sooyoung clicks it and the music starts to play. Tiffany hearing the song. She perks up and looks at the T.V. She looks at it and has a light smile on her face as she sees Daesung’s expressions as he listens to his own song.

“Omo this song is too sad I’m going to cry” “shhh unnie, be quiet.” Seohyun says while grabbing some tissues and passing them around to the others.

The song ends with.

I'm tired of trying

I'm moving on best wishes to you”

For the whole interview watch the airing later this week.

“OMO I totally forgot about Dae’s solo. What a beautiful song to debut with” muffles Taeyeon while wiping her tears away.

“Why didn’t he tell us he was going to debut” Hyoyeon asks while looking around at everyone’s expression. “He did unnie, remember it was almost a year ago that he told us when we all went out to dinner.”

“Oh yea I remember that night, He told everyone that he was planning to debut sometime this year.” “The only one who didn’t know about it was Fany, because she wanted to go on a date with khun oppa” Sooyoung says while rolling her eyes.

Yoona walks over to Fany to comfort her “Don’t listen to her Fany, you and khun oppa are happy even though we may not be that found of him as long as your happy That’s all that matters.”

“Think on the bright side, if you ever bump into each other again you don’t have to worry about him jumping down your throat anymore. “He’s now free” so he says”

With enough of hearing the members remarks Tiffany suddenly gets up and walks in the direction of her room.

Tiffany Pov

I plop on my bed thinking about the song Daesung just released. To everyone else this song is just about a random girl but to me, it’s loud and clear that he was talking about me. I jump up and go to my dresser and get the note he handed to me at the Mama’s. He said he was jealous of always hearing and seeing things about Khun and I. Why he’s Daesung of Big Bang. And I’m Tiffany of Snsd. It wouldn’t have ever worked out the rivalries of our companies wouldn’t have allowed it to. Hearing him say

I see your eye-smile, lips

Every kiss and every breath.

That Night still got me dying

I’m tired of trying

Is he really done trying, and is he really free now.

I couldn’t imagine not seeing him anymore. Big Bang were having their tour finale in a few days. Rumor has it that after their concert, they won’t appear together as a whole unit until they all have completed their military duties. Why was it every time we saw each other things ended up so bad?

I ask myself, since when did you start having feelings for Daesung. I growled at the thought of such a question, but the truth is I’ve had feelings since the beginning. All the way back when we had our filming but I honestly didn’t think he liked me, I honestly though that he was dating Jiyoung. Sure he would deny it that they were just text messages nothing more, but idols always had to lie about things to protect their image..

When I saw him at running man he was a different Daesung.He had this look about him like he wanted to get back at me for not coming to his dinner. He basically spilled out that he wanted to become close to not just Snsd but with me. He was so mad that I accused him of being a player.

I sighed and grabbed my phone that kept lighting up because of notifications from my Instagram. It was a picture of Daesung and I during the filming of running man. The caption said “Daefany > Khunfany `. I sighed again. That’s right I have a boyfriend.

1k views thanks to all of you reading. yes this is how I imagined Daesung would have sung eyes, nose, lips by taeyang. lyrics are original took me 3 days to come up with that. hope you all enjoyed this chapter dont be shy to comment.