Double update for you guys... i feel like writing a lot today..

hope you enjoy it. ^___^

I walk away from him immediately heading to my car, and go back to my own apartment. Yes, I already have my own apartment since two years ago but I rarely stay there. Only when I need to be alone, like right now I stayed there.

I come inside not bother to turn on the light and go straight to my bed. I cried. It hurt. Why can’t he sees my feeling? Why can’t he wait? Why do I even have to fall in love with that blind leader who can see anything right? Why??

I cry almost... I don’t know, 1 hour maybe? Now I just sit on my couch staring blankly at the movie. I’m not watching it. I just sit there. It already 2 am. Suddenly my phone buzzing. There is incoming text. Its jiyong hyung.

Dragon >> Seungri

Maknae are you okay? Why were you mad at me before? I’m sorry okay. Is there something wrong?

Panda >> Jiyong

I’m okay hyung, I just tired and need some rest. Sorry about earlier.

Dragon >> Seungri

It’s okay Seungri-ah. Where are now? You’re not at the dorm when we get there

Panda >> jiyong

I’m at my apartment hyung. I need sometime alone. But I’m okay hyung.

Dragon >> Seungri

I’m on my way there. Wait for me okay

Panda >> Jiyong

No, it okay hyung, really. I just need some rest

Jiyong hyung not answering my text after that. Thank GOD he understand and leave me alone. I have to gather myself and be my usual self. We have our last comeback stage on inkigayo in two days.

Not long, I listen someone at the door. Opening my front door. I know that jiyong hyung, he’s the only person who now my password.

“Seungri-ah... are you okay? I’m worried... I won’t disturb you if you want to be alone. I just need to make sure that you’re okay”

“Hyuuung... I’ve told you I’m okay. You need to leave me alone for once” I said weakly. You’re my reason why I need to be alone hyung.

“You know I can’t Seungri-ah... I won’t disturb you I’ll just sit here” Jiyong hyung said sitting on the other couch.

We stay silent. Then jiyong hyung stood up, walking toward the fridge he take out something, I hear some crash sound in the kitchen. I don’t know what is he doing, but I don’t care. I need to be alone. Need to calm myself, gather myself together. I need to stay away from him.

Then he comeback to the living room, bringing something on the tray and put it on the coffee table in front of me. He cook ramen and he take out some wine from the fridge.

“I think we should just eat something... don’t you feel hungry Seungri-ah?”

“No hyung... I don’t” I answer shortly.

He stay sea