I don’t know for how long we stay in that position because the next thing I know I wake up on my bed. I think I was passed out because I was too tired. I also haven’t eat anything for two days. So everything that happen really tired me out.

But Jiyong hyung is not here in my room. I rush coming out from my room look around my apartment. Is he gone home?  He’s not in the bathroom, he’s not in the living room either, he’s not anywhere in here. He really is going home. I come to the kitchen and everything is the same. No trace of last night argument. Last night fight. I guess this really is the last farewell.

Then the warm lips that I felt on my lips was just a dream. He’s gone. He kissing me was just a dream.

I open the fridge to take some cold water. My throat feels dry. But, there’s a takeout food inside with a note on it.

Heat it up and finish it.

Please take care of yourself until I come back

-G-

Right, last night I don’t get to eat the pizza he brought. I heat he porridge and eat it. He knows I can’t resist this delicious porridge from my favorite restaurant. I put the food in the microwave waiting for it to heat up and start eating.

I feel much calmer than before. Maybe he coming over does help a little. At least I get to punch him and let out all my anger.

So, this is it. My first love for years just end like this. In two days he’s going to be someone husbands. I don’t know anymore how I feel about it. I think I’ll just see it later when we meet again. He even manage to take care of my bruise knuckle before he go. I guess he’ll come back being a good leader for me later.

After I finish eating, I take a long b