Hey... its a double update guys.. have you read the previous chapter? i do this to make for my absence a few days.

enjoy reading. and again, your comment always motivate me to writes more.

thank you...

I’ve been a week here staying at my friend’s house in LA. Robert is one of my close friends here in LA. He live here with his wife Diana and his daughter Sarah. We’ve been close for a few years now, I even spent my Christmas here once. When I suddenly arrive is his door step with a messed up look, he didn’t ask much. He just say I can stay here for as long as I need and he’ll be there for me if I want to talk. But I don’t want to talk about it. There’s nothing to talk about. It was just me being stupid and delusional.

Three days after I got here, I called my parents. YG seems haven’t call her yet about me missing. I think they want to make sure I’m save first before letting my parents now. I told them that I’m okay but I need some time away from everyone. I told them where I am but I asked them not to say anything to YG or my member. My mother understand and just asked me to take care of myself.

I have fun here, Sarah help me take him out of my mind. Her smile help me forget my anger. Since Robert run his family company together with his brother, he ask a few days off to stay with me. I’m very grateful with their kindness.

Even if I leave, I still follow news about BigBang. I read that their on their break until the release on their new single next month. I haven’t heard anything about jiyong hyung or my other hyung in person. I turn off my cell phone and stop updating my SNS account. My fans starting to feel anxious and looking for me, I feel sorry for them but I need to do this. I want to hurt him back, and the only way I know how is by hurting BigBang, the next most important for him thing after his music. I know I’m being unfair, I just hope my other hyung would understand my feeling.

Its already on early September, I need to go somewhere else. I can't keep burdening Robert even if I know he didn’t mind. I plan on going to Singapore. I already book my flight. I bid my farewell to Robert family and say my greatest thanks for them for taking care of me.

Now, I’m sitting on waiting room waiting for my flight. I though I would give my other hyungs a call. I don’t want them to worry about me more. I use airport public phone.

“Hello...”

“Hello... hyung?”

“Seungri?? OH MY GOD SEUNGRII.... where have you been?” how can you just took off like that and not saying anything?? Are you okay??” Youngbae hyung scream on the phone. He sound really worried.

“I’m fine hyung... I’m sorry... I just really need sometime alone...”

“GOD Seungri... we’ve been looking for you everywhere... we haven’t even told your parent about you...”

“Its okay hyung... I talk to them already. Don’t worry...”

“What do you mean don’t worry? Where are you? Are you coming home now? This number... its LA right?”

“Yes hyung, I’ve been staying here for more than two weeks now”.

“WHAT??? What are you doing there? Get back here Seungri-ah... what happen?? Why you leave?”.

“Is Jiyong hyung not saying anything to you?”.

“No. Nothing. So, it’s really is because of him, right? What have he done to you?” now Youngbae hyung sounds angry.

“Well... you better ask him hyung. I don’t have answer for that...”

“Whatever the reason Seungri-ah... just come back first will you? We are worried about you...”

“No hyung... I need more time... until...”

“Until what Seungri?”

“Until... I feel better...” Until he’s wedding is over, I don't know...

“Seungri-ah... we have to promote our new song... don’t you remember? All other schedule have been cancel because you leave, but we have to promote our last single...”

“Oh, yeah I remember...”

“Good! Then come back quickly. We have to promote Lets not fall in Love together”.

“Oh my God... How can I be so stupid...? Of course he already give me a hint... The song...”.

“What are you talking about Seungri-ah..?”.

“The song... why am I not realize it earlier...