after this chapter, it will be the last one.

thank you for staying this whole time hehe

"I am not thinking about that...., I don't think you in that way..."  Seungwan answers, finally. "I never think of you in that way."

"Then why are you so insecure? Why can't you trust me? I hurt you a lot, I know, but I want to try. It is like you don't even want to try; you keep thinking I am the old Chanyeol. You can say to me about everything, Seungwan-ah. If you don't trust me, if you feel insecure, don't just smile as if there is nothing. I can't read your mind; even if I can sense it, you need to tell it. Tell me, have I not told you everything?"

Seungwan looks up. "You never told me you knew her."

"Jung Soojung? I have said it to you; she's the representative."

"But you tried to keep it. I remembered that Sehun couldn't tell me about it."

"I want to be the one who told you, and I told you. I told you about it way long ago."

Seungwan seems not to remember, and he sighs. "I told you we had new representative and she was a woman. Beautiful, but not really my type."  She finally remembers. Yes, he has said that to her, and it is a long time ago, before she even got shaken by Baekhyun's statement. "So why now you can't tell me what you have been feeling?"

She turns to somewhere else and gulps. "I am afraid you would leave me if I am too insecure. I am afraid you would think that I don't trust you."

"It would be better if you told me. Now I am really thinking about those you said to me."  He sighs again, and ruffles his hair, "now what will we do?"

"What do you mean?"  She asks.

He shakes his head, "let's have a break. Let's evaluate. Maybe we take the steps too far. Maybe both of us aren't ready to be together because clearly you don't trust me and I can't even know what you want even though you have signaled it. Maybe we need to be friends, just friends, and then we will see what the time will bring us then."

"You are the dumbest person I have ever met."  Jongdae says that but in low, scary tone. However, Chanyeol just brushes it off. And he really looks like he can't sleep last night. "So, you and her are over?"

"No. Not really. Kinda over, but not literally over."

"That's the most confusing answer I might have heard."

"Do you think it is a bad idea?"

"Anything you do regarding to your love life is a bad idea in my mind."  Jongdas answers and Chanyeol rolls his eyes. "I am saying the truth. You and Sulli thing, and now you and Seungwan."

"So I should go back to her? It's not even a day after I said we needed a break first,"  he states and Jongdae shakes his head, "what does your heart tell you, Chanyeol-ah? That's the most important thing. I know you are stubborn in this situation, but this stubborness you hold into, don't let it go so easily because of me, or Sooyoung, or your parents, or Seungwan, or I can say your pitiness for her. Think clearly. If you think you want her, then pursue her."

"I want her."

"Then pursue her."

"But if it keeps going like this...., I tried my best to mend my mistakes, but it seems like she never trusts me. How can I be in that kind of relationship? No matter what I do, I can't make her trusts me. It's better that we just become friends if the condition keeps going like that."

"So..., you don't blame yourself for this condition?"

"You think I have thick heart?"  Chanyeol shoots back, "I know it happens because of me. I rejected her, I betrayed her...., but I want to make it better. However, if it's only me who tried and she didn't even try, what is the purpose of this relationship? Should we live in the fear? Should I live in the worriness that whatever I do, it seems that I can't even make anything better? Should she live in fear that she will lose me to another girl someday? Is that what I want to live for the rest of my life? Is that what I want for both of us?"

"No, that is a messed up life,"  Jongdae answers, "you are right. I know you are right, that's why I ask her what your heart wants."

Chanyeol sighs, "I love her, I really do..., but I can't be like that. And it tortures her if she keeps worrying and being afraid of something that only appears in her imagination. We need to re-evaluate this. I need to re-evaluate, and she needs to do the same. Maybe we will be more mature regarding to our relationship."

"So you do admit you were in rush when you said you loved her then?"

"I hate to say it, but you are right. You were right when you said that time I was too fast. I thought you were jealous--"

"I might be, but I also said that because I really felt it was too rushed."  Jongdae says, "I just hope everything will be fine with you two. No matter what your relationship will be, I will support you both. Although, if you ask me, I want you to be with her again. My sacrifice will be wasted if you don't go back with her."

Chanyeol smiles. "So your feeling for her is over? Done?"

"Done for good. At least, our representative can take some of my attention, more than I thought she would be,"  he answers and laughs, "and she is really a good girl. I have to say thank you to Kim Joonmyeon-sshi, though. He is the one who told me about her origin. If I didn't know, I might still despise her and she was still with that Byun Baekhyun-sshi, trying to destroy your relationship with Seungwan."

Seungwan still can't believe she is dumped, for three times, by Chanyeol.

Why is she so weak for this guy?

Why is she the one who got dumped in the end?

Is it really her fault for not trusting him?

She is just afraid to lose him, that's all. But he is an