[CONTENTID1]Chapter 18[/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2]Author's pov:

Luhan went up for air after kissing Xiumin. "Let's go somewhere only we will know." Luhan smiled and Xiumin also returned the smile. He hit Luhan on his arm playfully and started to rub circles on his arm. "And where is that?" He giggled and intertwined his hand with his. "You'll see when we get there." Luhan pulled Xiumin along side him. He opened the door and quickly exiting before anyone could hear them go out. 

It was as if soft piano music was playing in their ears when they held each other's hands. They felt relax. As if they could dance in the halls without a care. "Can you trust me?" Luhan whispered in Xiumin's ear. Xiumin closed his eyes and leaned close to Luhan's face. "Yeah." He said brushing his lips against Luhan's. He connected their lips. Their lips brushed against each other softly and everything stopped in time for them. Their beating hearts were in perfect harmony. Their hands stopped still and only each other's breathing could be heard. They both pulled away from each other and put their foreheads together. "I love you." Luhan said, kissing Xiumin's forehead and Xiumin counts help but let out the words that have been in his mouth so much. "I love you too." 

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Luhan's pov:

The way he smiled. The way he looked at things. His way of thinking. It all mesmerized me. Even when you see sadness in his eyes you could tell that it isn't going to stay like that. Every time he laughs, it makes my heart jump out too. His voice sends shivers down my spine and electricity to go all over my body. Everything about his existence makes me feel better. Just looking at him I can't help but to feel warmth all over my body. There is something special in Xiumin that I never saw before. Maybe it is the way he looks at me with his sparkling eyes that get me weak in the knees. Maybe it is the feeling of his hand brushing against mine that makes me lose track of time.

His soft smile that shines my day makes me think that I don't deserve someone as beautiful of a human being like him to be in my life. I don't deserve him after all. I never did anything to deserve anything like him to come to my life. All I have ever done to him was bully him and by how he used to look. I know it was wrong. I knew that sense the beginning. He used to remind me of myself when I was younger. So pure and innocent that no one could ever get in my way in life. He might be innocent but that doesn't mean he is stupid. Of course not. He is anything but that. Even if he is like that, he is smart, caring, sweet, beautiful in every way possible. 

Hold his hand makes me forget every single one of my problems. When I stare at him everything seems fine. Everything feels so surreal right now. Looking at the cloud above with Xiumin lying next to me is pure heaven. His head was on my chest and has his hand placed besides my hip. The blossom trees were pink and white. They were so pretty, like always. The sun was out but it wasn't as bright as the other days. 

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath in and out. I looked at Xiumin's way and saw him staring at me. I brushed my thumb against his cheek. His skin was so soft against my hand. He leaned in and snuggled into me even more if it was possible. I wanted to tell him a million things but only a few words were right to describe how I feel for what I had to say. I shifted so that I was facing him while still hugging him on the blanket laid out. Here goes nothing. 

"I have been thinking about all the things I want to tell you and honestly, I don't know how to say it at all so here goes nothing. First of all, I never meant to hurt you in any way, shape or form. I know I did and I know that I still may in the future but I have learned to love you from the beginning. The way you smiled lightened up my day even if you didn't notice. You remembered me of my past self maybe that's why. So carefree and happy. I thought that it wasn't fair for me at all that you could be like that. Everything about you was perfect. From the way you talked to the way you looked at things." I paused and stared at his eyes lovingly. 

"I have always loved you. I was selfish for wanting to take your innocence and kindness for myself. I wanted you to see that