Jessica POV

 

 

I walk downstairs and find my friend is playing in the back yard.

 

 

I chuckled.

 

 

Than someone give me a peck of kiss on my cheek.

 

 

 

"Good morning"

 

 

 

I giggled.

 

 

"Good morning to you too Im Yoong"

 

 

He smile.

 

 

 

We sit on the bench in the back yard while holding hands.

 

 

I don't know how I met him.

 

 

 

He so perfect and gentleman to be hurt.

 

 

But why he choose me to be the one who hurt him?

 

 

 

"Let's have some fun."

 

 

 

"What? Do you think we're a kid?"

 

 

"Look at them. They're playing tom and jerry"

 

 

 

I laugh.

 

 

I massage my head in his shoulder and close my eyes.

 

 

 

How I wish I could massage myself like this forever.

 

 

"You know I love you right?"

 

 

"I know Yoong"

 

 

 

5 month later~~~~

 

 

"We're finally graduate!!!! Wohoo!!!"

 

 

I smile as Yoong lift me up and he walk around like a merry go round.

 

 

"Hahahaha Yoong stop!"

 

 

 

"I'm so happy for us. For you for me. For all of us!!!"

 

 

"Me too Yoong"

 

 

 

He kiss me and I kiss him back.

 

 

 

Yes we're finally graduate.

 

 

 

Finally we're graduate from high school!!!

 

 

It's really a tough day to graduate.

 

 

We have a lot of test and than finally we're graduate.

 

 

We just need to wait for the dance ball tonight!

 

 

"Woahhh!!! Everyone let's jump!!!"

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

"Unnie. You look beautiful"

 

 

 

"I am?"

 

 

 

"Yes!"

 

 

I smile at my little sister.

 

 

 

I'm wearing white dress for the dance ball.

 

 

Hope Yoong will like it.

 

 

"My daughter has grown up"

 

 

 

"Hahahha dad it's only a dance ball"

 

 

"I know but time feel so fast"

 

 

 

I smile at my dad and give him a hug.

 

 

Than I went to my mother.

 

 

 

One of my fear.

 

 

 

Yes my mother always be my fear.

 

 

She always worried about me and I'm worried about her too.

 

 

We rarely talk with each other.

 

 

 

She makes me even more scared.

 

 

"Mom"

 

 

"You look...beautiful"

 

 

"Thank you mom"

 

 

I have her a hug and she hug me back.

 

 

I can hear her tears.

 

 

"Don't worry mom. I'm okay. You don't have to worried about me. There's Yoong for me in the dance ball"

 

 

"I know Sooyeon. I know"

 

 

 

Ding Dong.

 

 

"That must be Yoong"

 

 

I grab my oxygen cylinder and my bag and went to the front door.

 

 

I saw my father is talking with Yoong but I can't see him because my father block him.

 

 

 

"Ohh Sooyeon you finish?"

 

 

As my father walk towards me, I can see him.

 

 

Wearing tux and a bouquet of flower in his hand.

 

 

"You look beautiful"

 

 

"You look handsome"

 

 

 

We both smile.

 

 

"Ohh umm this is for you"

 

 

He handed me the flowers and I take it.

 

 

Hmm the flowers smell nice.

 

 

 

"I will take that and put it in your room. Now go unnie"

 

 

I chuckled and Krystal act.

 

 

 

He take my hand and hold it until we reach his car.

 

 

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Yoong POV

 

 

"Yoong"

 

 

"Yes?"

 

 

"What's this?"

 

 

 

She how me a cup of medicine she found under the car chair.

 

 

That's my medicine.

 

 

 

"Ohh that's my medicine. Thx for finding it"

 

 

I take it and put it inside my tux.

 

 

I let out a smile at her and hold her hand.

 

 

"Tonight. Will be the best day of my life."

 

 

"Today. I Jessica Jung Sooyeon will write Im Yoong in my diary"

 

 

W-what?

 

 

"W-what?"

 

 

 

"You hear me. I will write you on my diary."

 

 

I smile.

 

 

I finally did it!

 

 

She finally write me!!!

 

 

"You must be happy right?"

 

 

"How can I not be happy?"

 

 

She smile and I smile back.

 

 

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"Woahhh!!! It's party time guys!!!"

 

 

Everyone in the big room dance like there's no tomorrow.

 

 

Shouting dancing and smiling.

 

 

They have so much fun.

 

 

"Hey Taeng. Don't you think Yul act alittle weird this day?"

 

 

"Yeah. I think that too"

 

 

"Should we ask him about that?"

 

 

"Maybe. Later"

 

 

 

Tiffany POV 

 

 

"Everyone seems to have a lot of fun here right?"

 

 

"Should I answer that again Tiff?" Said Hyoyeon alittle annoyed.

 

 

I chuckled and take a sit beside Taeng.

 

 

"So Yul. We haven't seen you for awhile. What's wrong with you?" I ask.

 

 

 

"Yeah. It's seems weird to see you act like that." Said Sooyoung join.

 

 

 

"Yeah tell us what happen"

 

 

I can see he's a bit surprise with the sudden question.

 

 

His eyes show me how worried he is.

 

 

Worried? Why he worried?

 

 

Is there something he hide from us?

 

 

"Maybe you guys should know"

 

 

"What? What do we need to know?"

 

 

Why I feel nervous right now?

 

 

"You guys didn't know Yoong a cancer patient right?"

 

 

 

"WHAT?!!!"

 

 

 

"His in stadium 4 right now. The doctor can do anything but chemo. We just need to wait for the worst"

 

 

 

Worst?

 

 

What did he mean by worst?

 

 

 

"What did you mean by worst?"

 

 

"H-h-h-he might die"

 

 

"Hi guys!"

 

 

We look at the two couple that just came.

 

 

I can feel the awkward feeling.

 

 

Hope Yoong didn't notice it.

 

 

"Hey. It's time to go home guys!"

 

 

"Ahh yeah right"

 

 

He will die.

 

 

Did Jessica knew about this?

 

 

 

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On Hyoyeon sight~~~~

 

 

He will die and that mean....he will leave us.

 

 

How can this happen?

 

 

Cancer?

 

 

He never tell us about that.

 

 

 

When I heard about it, I can feel sadness around me.

 

 

They knew if Yoong die, Jessica will suffer.

 

 

And there's no way we can do.

 

 

Cause it has gone worst.

 

 

Soosun sight~~~~

 

 

"Yoong never tell us about it. How can he keep it from us?"

 

 

"Should we tell Jessica about this?"

 

 

"I believe there's a reason why he won't tell us. And probably he didn't tell Jessica too"

 

 

"So?"

 

 

"We need to talk about this with Yul tomorrow. You don't want Jessica to be suffer right?"

 

 

"Yeah. If we ask Yul, maybe there's still hope"

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

Jessica POV

 

 

 

"I believe your mother will shock to see you" 

 

 

"Nehh. Don't worry about my mother" I smile.

 

 

After the party we decide to go to our favorite place.

 

 

Just like always. Looking up to the sky and staring at the stars.

 

 

"Hey Yoong."

 

 

"Yes?"

 

 

"I want you to be the one who speech at my funeral one day. How is that?"

 

 

No answer.

 

 

 

"Yoong?"

 

 

He get up and stare at me. 

 

 

I touch his face smoothly and smile.

 

 

"Why you're so positive that one day you will die?"

 

 

"Because that's the fact! There's no doctor who can help me and I would die!"

 

 

"What if there is"

 

 

 

Eh? What do he mean? 

 

 

"What do you mean?"

 

 

 

"What if there's a doctor who can make you live like other people do? Will you take it?"

 

 

 

Why does he sound so serious?

 

 

 

I mean. I didn't really take this conversation so serious.

 

 

 

"Will you take it? If that for me"

 

 

 

"For you?"

 

 

 

He nod.

 

 

For him? 

 

 

"I will take it. Just for you"

 

 

"Than there's a hope for you Jessica Jung. So don't ever loose hope okay?"

 

 

I nod.

 

 

"Good"

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

Jessica Diary

 

 

What is wrong with him?

 

 

Why does it feel he wanted to leave me?

 

 

And what does he mean there's a doctor that can help me?

 

 

I mean. I'm in stadium 4. No one can help me.

 

 

And I'm positive that I will die soon enough.

 

 

And in some point I will blow up like a grenade.

 

 

But he told me don't loose hope.

 

 

If it for him I will do anything to live like normal people do.

 

 

 

I will take that offer and live with him till we die.

 

 

Im Yoong. He is the guy who makes me happy and give me hope to live.

 

 

He want me to feel happiness and love.

 

 

Maybe that's why he don't want me to loose hope.

 

 

Yeah. 

 

 

Thank you Yoong. Is there anything I can do for you I will but I just couldn't.

 

 

Believe me. 

 

 

After he came to my life, I feel so happy and free.

 

 

 

It's like there's something that makes us connected.

 

 

I love him. I love him so much.

 

 

That I don't want to die and leave him.

 

 

Maybe that's why he doesn't want me to loose hope.

 

 

He want me to live because I still have hope.

 

 

He said that because he want to live with me very long time.

 

 

Today's July 24 2014. The day where I found my hope.