"I suggest you to do the chemo. We can't do anything else beside chemo" 

 

 

 

I sigh.

 

 

 

"Can't we just wait for me to die?"

 

 

 

"Sooyeon"

 

 

 

"That's the fact. I will die. So don't worry about the chemo. I'm done with my life"

 

 

 

That's what happen in the hospital.

 

 

 

I ran to the Namsan Tower. 

 

 

 

I need to refresh my mind.

 

 

 

My life are not worthy anymore. Yoong never comeback.

 

 

 

And it useless to wait for him if I can't live any longer.

 

 

 

I miss you Yoong. Where are you?

 

 

 

Krystal POV

 

 

 

"Where's unnie?!!!"

 

 

 

"Soojung come down. We're searching for her right now"

 

 

 

"Find her please dad! I don't want anything bad happen to her"

 

 

 

"We will find her Soojung. You don't have to worried"

 

 

 

I Han up my phone and stare out the window.

 

 

 

"Unnie you make me worried"

 

 

 

Maybe I should call Tiffany unnie.

 

 

 

She need to know about this.

 

 

 

"Soojung-ahh"

 

 

 

"Unnie. Jessica unnie. She's missing"

 

 

 

"What?"

 

 

 

~~~~

 

 

 

Someone POV

 

 

 

As I open my eyes I can see light.

 

 

 

Am I dead already?

 

 

 

Yes. This must be heaven. But.

 

 

 

Why does it feel like in
 hospital?

 

 

 

"Son. You're awake"

 

 

 

Wait.

 

 

 

That voice.

 

 

 

"You're alive"

 

 

 

W-what?!

 

 

 

If I alive than......Jessica.

 

 

 

Yul POV

 

 

 

"Maybe we should tell her" I suggest.

 

 

 

"And let her suffer?"

 

 

 

"SHES ALREADY SUFFER TAENG!"

 

 

 

"Shut your mouth Choi Sooyoung!"

 

 

 

"Guys stop"

 

 

 

I separate both of them and make them calm.

 

 

 

"This is all my fault. I should tell her everything before we went to London"

 

 

 

"And let her cry? I can't see her like that Yul!" Said Tiffany.

 

 

 

"Than what? Waiting for her to know everything why Yoong didn't comeback for this ing 3 YEARS?!!!" I shout at them all.

 

 

"Don't talk to her like that"

 

 

 

"What? I can't talk to her like that?! I'm just saying the fact!"

 

 

 

"Yoong's dead is not the fact Yul!!!"

 

 

 

"It is the fact! That's why he didn't comeback to Korea for 3 YEARS!!!"

 

 

 

"W-what?"

 

 

 

We turn around and to my shock Jessica is there.

 

 

 

What is she doing here?

 

 

 

How did she get in....

 

 

 

Ohh right. This is their apartment. Where anyone can come in.

 

 

 

"What do you say Yul? Y-Yoong h-he what?"

 

 

 

"Sica it's not wh-"

 

 

 

"Tell me!"

 

 

 

I lower my head. I can't stand seeing her like that.

 

 

 

It makes me hurt. For not make her happy like Yoong want me to.

 

 

 

"Sica. I-I'm sorry" 

 

 

 

"YOU ALL LIED TO ME!!!! WHY?!!! 

 

 

 

"Jessica"

 

 

 

I sigh. 

 

 

 

I shouldn't say that.

 

 

 

I'm sorry Yoong.

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

Taeng POV 

 

 

 

"She won't eat. I'm worried for her Taeng"

 

 

 

This won't work.

 

 

 

She won't eat for 2 days.

 

 

 

Sica I'm worried for you.

 

 

 

"Take her time. We wait downstairs if you need anything just called us, Sica"

 

 

 

We both walk downstairs and shook our head.

 

 

 

What should we do now?

 

 

 

"Maybe I can comfort her" said Yul.

 

 

 

"No. It would make this even worst"

 

 

 

"No. Trust me. I have this" said him while show us an envelop.

 

 

 

Is that from Yoong?

 

 

 

Jessica POV

 

 

 

They lied to me. He lied to me.

 

 

 

W-why?

 

 

 

This past 2 days I keep crying. 

 

 

 

I have wait for 3 years and this is what I got?

 

 

 

Why? Why you should leave me Yoong?

 

 

 

Why don't you tell me you will die?

 

 

 

Why?!

 

 

 

I took the photo frame on the desk beside me.

 

 

 

It's a picture of the two of us.

 

 

 

I thought you never lied to me Yoong.

 

 

 

I thought our love will last till our death.

 

 

 

I thought we promise to die together.

 

 

 

That time. We have a lot of fun even thought we picnic in your backyard.

 

 

 

But I'm happy. I'm happy because of you.

 

 

 

"Jessica"

 

 

 

I stayed quiet. I don't have feeling to talk with anyone now.

 

 

 

"I-I know I made mistake for not telling you and I'm sorry"

 

 

 

I keep listening to him.

 

 

 

Sorry won't get him back to me.

 

 

 

"I know 'sorry' won't get him back and....I don't need you to forgive me because I know you can't"

 

 

 

"I don't need you to forgive me but......I want you to read this. As long as you read this I'm glad"

 

 

 

I stare at the envelope that he push it in from the hole.

 

 

 

"Maybe you will have the courage to live happy like you did with him. I hope you won't mad. And I just wanted you to know that......he really love you"

 

 

 

As he said the last word, my tears get even more like rain now.

 

 

 

Maybe I can full one bucket.

 

 

 

"I-i-I know that" I whisper between my tears.

 

 

 

I love you too Im Yoong.