Yoong POV

 

 

 

I open my eyes as I can see bright light.

 

 

I feel someone squeezing my hand.

 

 

And someone calling my name.

 

 

 

Is this a dream?

 

 

 

"Yoong? Yoong? Can you hear me?"

 

 

As I open my eyes and clear my vision, I can see clearly whose there.

 

 

My friends, Jessica, Jung family, my family and Yul.

 

 

 

I guess this is not a dream.

 

 

"Yoong you're awake"

 

 

"Thank god you're awake"

 

 

 

I let out a smile and give Jessica a warm hug.

 

 

"We worried about you man"

 

 

"Thx"

 

 

~~~~

 

 

"The doctor said he just too much thinking. Maybe stress out. Nothing worst happen"

 

 

Yul nod. 

 

 

"I know you worried about him Yul. Don't worry. He a strong boy"

 

 

"I know sir. It just. He likes a brother to me"

 

 

Mr. Im patted his shoulder and smile.

 

 

He knows how worried he is.

 

 

 

Yoong have been friend with him for about 12 years now.

 

 

They're like a brother.

 

 

"Mr. Im"

 

 

"Yes Yul?"

 

 

"Can you do me a favor"

 

 

"For what?"

 

 

"To keep this a secret? From the Jung's family? Including Jessica?"

 

 

Yul POV 

 

 

As I walk back in to Yoong's room, everyone is smiling.

 

 

I guess they're having fun when we were gone.

 

 

"Hey Yul."

 

 

"Hey man. How's your head?"

 

 

"Still empty"

 

 

I chuckled.

 

 

Still the same Yoong I know.

 

 

I tried to join the conversation all the time.

 

 

I need to stay happy.

 

 

But I think Krystal and Taeng notice my face.

 

 

I let out a smile and get out from the room.

 

 

I can't face him right now.

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Jessica POV

 

 

"Are you sure you're okay?" I ask him worried.

 

 

"I'm okay guys. Don't have to worry about me"

 

 

I chuckled.

 

 

 

Well I'm just worried about him.

 

 

"So~~~we will have our next sleep over!" Said Sunny exited.

 

 

 

"Ya! Yoong have Jessica already! Let them stay together. Don't distract them" 

 

 

I rolled my eyes at the Kim Choding.

 

 

"Okay. Let's have sleep over again! Mrs. Im. Is it alright if we sleep over tonight"

 

 

"It will be fantastic"

 

 

I smile and stare at Yoong.

 

 

 

I guess he staring at me all the time.

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

"Are you sure nothing happen Yul?"

 

 

 

Yul lower his head.

 

 

He knew nothing was okay.

 

 

Mr. Im lie to him about Yoong's condition.

 

 

 

And he left just to ask the doctor.

 

 

And now here he is.

 

 

Taeng follow him.

 

 

"Yul?"

 

 

"I don't know what should I do Taeng. It's all over now"

 

 

"What do you mean over? Yul? Yul! TELL ME!!!"

 

 

Yul let Taeng shook his whole body.

 

 

He feel weak after he knew everything.

 

 

"I cared for Jessica okay Yul? And when I heard everything about Yoong I'm scared! Now tell me everything!!!!"

 

 

"It's not just an ordinary effect Taeng"

 

 

"What?"

 

 

"It mean he only have 4 month to live"

 

 

"W-w-what?"

 

 

 

Yul just stay quiet. He didn't  know what he should answer.

 

 

"Yul! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY 4 MONTH?!!! TELL ME!!!!!"

 

 

 

"His tumor has grown all over his body. It has broke everything inside him. Doctor could only do chemo"

 

 

Tears were released for both of them.

 

 

It was hard for both of them.

 

 

And the worst part is, how they keep this from the young girl?

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

3 days later~~~~

 

 

"Thank you for the sleep over guys"

 

 

"No problem Yoong. Ohh we should go now. See you two!"

 

 

I wave at them before going back in with Jessica.

 

 

 

She decide to stay for awhile since she want to make me accompany.

 

 

"Come sit on my bed"

 

 

She sit beside me while her head is on my shoulder.

 

 

Our hand still holding each other.

 

 

 Jessica Jung. Have you ever thing that the one you love will leave you? Like forever?

 

 

If yes how do you survive? 

 

 

Will you live happily like what the person want you to?

 

 

 

Will you live like a normal people?

 

 

Will you do what I ask you to before I die?

 

 

Will you....

 

 

Will you...hate me

 

 

If I lied to you?

 

 

 

"Yoong"

 

 

"Mm?"

 

 

"It just the start. You don't have to worry that much"

 

 

I'm worried about you Jessica Jung.

 

 

"Thank you for being there for me Jessica Jung"

 

 

"Why you say thank you?"

 

 

Maybe this is it.

 

 

"I should go to London for treatment"

 

 

"W-what?"

 

 

"Listen to me Jessica Jung. It just a treatment. I will back and we will be together"

 

 

"But why?"

 

 

Because I can't seeing you cried because of me.

 

 

 

I don't want you to loose hope for living.

 

 

I want you to stay happy.

 

 

Live your life like normal people.

 

 

Finish your collage and work and......have children.

 

 

I want you to be happy.

 

 

"It just a treatment. Don't worry"

 

 

Than our gaze met.

 

 

Those eyes tells me how worried she is.

 

 

I can't make her worried.

 

 

 

I should make her happy.

 

 

 

"Could you. At least give me our last kiss?"

 

 

I smiled and capture her lips.

 

 

And the kiss getting hotter and hotter.

 

 

Because we don't want my parents to know, we decide to go to my room.

 

 

We both smirk at each other and we finished what we just start.

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Jessica's diary+POV

 

 

 

Yoong left 3 days after our first night.

 

 

 

He didn't forget to say I love you to me.

 

 

I didn't answer his call.

 

 

I'm afraid of goodbye.

 

 

Even thought I know he will b k but still.

 

 

I'm afraid of goodbye.

 

 

I can't face him anymore.

 

 

 

I'm scared. I'm scared that if I say goodbye, he won't comeback.

 

 

 

I'm afraid.

 

 

"Unnie dinner time!"

 

 

 

Maybe I should let go of the worst.

 

 

He will back.

 

 

You don't have to worry because he always here with you.

 

 

The star. It always remains me of him.

 

 

You just need to wait Jessica Jung.

 

 

~~~~~ 

 

 

 

Yoong POV

 

 

 

I stare out the window hotel.

 

 

How are you Jessica Jung?

 

 

Are you mad at me? If yes what should I do to make you forgive me?

 

 

Maybe sorry won't be the perfect word for you to forgive me.

 

 

Because I know.....

 

 

 

I know 'sorry' won't get me back to your side.

 

 

I stare at the star and smile. 

 

 

After 4 month, you won't see me again Jessica Jung.

 

 

But you can see me as a star. I guess you're looking at the sat right now.

 

 

I'm sorry Jessica Jung. I'm sorry.

 

 

If I have a chance to change everything I would love to.

 

 

Because this past view month, are not enough for me to be with you.

 

 

I want it like forever. But I know...forever never exist

 

 

"Hey man"

 

 

"Hey Yul"

 

 

"You worried of her?"

 

 

 

I nod.

 

 

I miss her. I miss her so much.

 

 

"Don't worry Yoong. She will be alright"

 

 

I let out a smile.

 

 

"I wish I could help you"

 

 

"No. It's my destiny anyway. I'm happy Yul. I'm happy that I can make her happy"

 

 

I patted his shoulder before going back to my room.