CHAPTER 12

Kris stood infront of Hana's office, hesitating if he should knock or just come in.

He took a deep breath and chose the latter. He was about to reach for the door knob when the door opened and he came face to face with Hana, who looked as equally surprised as he was. Hana blinked her eyes and Kris stood there, expecting her lips to curve into a smile but it never did.

“Oh, Mr. Wu... do you need something?” she asked bluntly. What? Kris quietly thought to himself. He brought a hand to his neck and rubbed it. “I just...” Hana stood infront of him, quietly waiting for him to finish “...wanted to thank you for earlier... the lunch and everything”

Hana forced a small smile “No problem, sir. Anything else, Mr. Wu?”

Yeah, what's with you all of a sudden and how much faker can that smile get? Kris shook his head and looked at the folders in her hands, he pointed “Are those for me?” Hana glanced down at the folders in her hands and shook her head “No sir, they're for Mr. Jongin, he asked me to bring them to his office”

Kris slowly nodded his head. Hana looked away from him “I have to get these to Mr. Jongin, sir... I'll be right back if there's ever anything you need”

“Sure” Kris mumbled and Hana walked past him. Kris turned his head and found himself staring at the girl as she walked away and disappeared through the elevator. He felt... bothered.

Hana.

I knocked on Kai's door before entering his office and put on a bright smile as I did.

“Hey Hana” he chimed, looking up momentarily from his paper work to smile at me. I closed the door behind me and walked over to his desk then held out the folder to him. “Here are the files you asked for” I breathe out the words. Kai puts down his pen and looks up at me once again, he grabbed my wrist which caught me by surprise.

He gives me a smile as his hand slowly slides down and takes the folder. My cheeks burned and I batted my lashes; Did that just happen? “Thank you, Ms. Kim”

Kai sat back and flipped through the pages and pouted. What's wrong? He looks at me with an adorable pout, his lower lip glistening. “Is something wrong, sir?”

“Yeah...” he looked at me with puppy eyes and I fluster “No sticky notes?” and the redness of my cheeks only go deeper. Has Kris been showing them those?! I look away in embarrassment while Kai chuckles. He placed the folder to the side. “Kris is really lucky to have you, isn't he Ms. Kim?” he questions me and I only look down on my feet. I really don't want to talk about him right now.

“W-will that be all, sir?” I ask him, lifting my head. The palyful smile on his face disappears and gets replaced with a worried look “Are you okay, Hana?”

I force a smile on my face and nod my head. “Ofcourse I am, sir. If that will be all, I have to get back to my office” I quickly turn on my heel and hurry out of Kai's office to avoid anymore questions. I rush towards the open elevator and almost punched the button to my office floor.

I have no right to be hurt. I bit down on my lip to keep it from quivering and quickly wipe away the waters gathering on the edge of my eyes.

Kris.

I pick up the phone as I pause from work and wait for the other line to pick up. “Yes Mr. Wu?”

What's with the blunt voice, Ms. Kim? I clear my throat and tap the bottom of my pen on the wooden surface “Bring me some coffee will you, Ms. Kim?”

“Yes sir.” that was her only reply before placing down the phone. Minutes later, a knock on the door came and Hana entered with my request; she placed the cup down on my desk before quickly leaving. I look up from the papers and expect a note on the cup but there was none. Odd.

I sign the last pieces of paper before I grab my laptop and stare at the screen once again, still in wonder of what I should write for the charity event happening in a few days and the speech for the party in a week's time. Two speeches and my mind is speechless. Sigh. My eyes glint at the small note that Hana had written awhile ago.

Let it come from the heart, huh? I take a deep breath and rest my fingers on the keyboard.

Charity Event:

The start of this company was not easy. Life has made us face so many trials and plagues that somewhere in the middle, I remember feeling like I wanted to give up.

So far, so good. I continue to type on the key board, the words just kept coming in yet even though I wasn't half way into the finish, the important thing was that I had something written on this damned document.

Time flew.

I let out a sigh when I saw it was already eight in the evening. I asked Tao to have some drinks with me because I wanted to talk to him about something that's been bothering me. I shut down my laptop and grabbed my jacket from the back rest of the chair and put it on, buttoning it and turned off the lamp on my desk before heading for the door.

Strange. Hana didn't come to say goodbye. I notice as I close the door behind me and head for the elevator. I took out my phone and called her number to check if she's still in the building but after a few rings, the line died. I dial again and still get the same result. Sigh. I type a quick message:

Have you gone home?

- CEO Wu

I pocket my phone and ran a hand through my hair. I stepped inside the elevator and pressed for the ground floor; around passing by the 25th floor and 23rd floor, I received a reply:

Yes sir. I'll see you tomorrow.

- Hana

Tch. What? No smileys? The doors opened and I stepped out, walking past the almost empty circulation area of the building. Tao said he was already waiting at the bar for me so I hurried off and drove to where he was. As soon as I arrive, I found him by the bar and sat down next to him.

“You okay?” he asked me, ordering drinks for the two of us. A heavy sigh escaped my lips and the bartender hands us two cold bottles of beer then walks away. I leaned on the bar, tracing the mouth of the bottle with my finger. “I don't know...” I mumble and Tao laughs. I really don't know.

“Yah, is it Hana?” he asks and I scoffed to the side before taking the bottle and took a sip of the fizzy drink “Nah, she's just my PA” I tell him, setting down the bottle on the marble surface. Tao shifts in his seat so that he was facing me “Your PA?”

I nod my head. Correct.

“Who is really sweet and caring towards you?” I took another gulp of the liquid in my bottle. “She's like that towards everyone, it's in her nature” I reason out but Tao scoffs. “Are you blind or are you refusing to let her warm that arctic cold heart of yours?”

I shake my head at Tao and chuckle; he orders another bottle of beer and turned back to me “Luhan tells me that she has this habit of giving you sticky notes with sweet messages” Not this afternoon, she didn't.

“It's a habit, Tao. She does that with all the rest” Tao rolls his eyes at me “Not to me or to anyone else, just you... I asked her last time for a folder to see if what Luhan says is true and when I reached the back of the folder, there was nothing” I finish up my first bottle and ask for another one. Just me, huh?

“She's a weird girl, isn't she, Tao?” I ask him as I pick up the bottle and drank some more. Tao sighed and ran a hand through his hair “Is this what you wanted to me about, Gege?”

I look down on my bottle of beer. Partly.

“No...” I give him a smirk “I wanted to ask... how are you?”

Tao groaned in frustration “Jesus Christ Kris! I'm fine! What about you?” he returns the question with sarcasm. I'm not myself. Sigh. “Still the same... I'm still Kris 'ingrich and powerful' Wu; the mothering CEO of Wu Enterprise” Tao shakes his head and laughs at me.

I'll never fall in love. Never. Never with Kim Hana.

Hana.

The cool evening breeze kissed my cheeks as I sat at the edge of the rooftop.

I stared at the billboard, biting my lower lip to keep it from quivering as I stared at the huge poster of Kris Wu. What do I say now? How do I talk to this billboard now? Even by just seeing his photo alone, I feel like crying.

How do I talk to someone who's the reason behind why I want to break down?

What have you done to me?

I wiped the side of my face as I feel a drop roll down. I've always looked up to Kris, he's my ultimate inspiration because he showed me that it didn't matter what life throws at you, as long as you work hard, you'll succeed. I want to be like him but now... I don't even know. Kris is cold. I knew that... but I chose to overlook it.

I rode up the elevator to bring Kris some dessert. I was about to knock on his door when I heard talking on the other side. I heard Xiumin's voice. I was about to walk away and just return when my ears perked up at the mention of my name.

“I'm not falling for anyone and especially not for Kim Hana” I blink my eyes in confusion at the sound of Kris's voice. “Eh?! But why ever not?” Xiumin whines. I swallow the building lump in my throat and waited for Kris to speak.

Budump. Budump. My heart went.

“Because I'm Kris Wu, deal with it” I almost chuckled but then... “besides... she's just my PA”

My face immediately falls even though I didn't intend it to. I turn on my heel and leave, dropping the box of cake inside the trash can on my way to the elevator.

I have no right to hurt because what he said is true. But why?

Maybe because... that's all I will ever be. I've never felt this kind of hurt before. It's different from losing loved ones; it's the kind of hurt where in the only one who could make it disappear is the one who brought it. It's a suffocating kind of hurt that makes my eyes cry even when I don't want to.

It's the kind of hurt where it makes me feel like I'm a complete nothing. Maybe I'm hurting because I've opened up myself too much. Maybe it's my fault.

Kris is just my boss. He's only someone I look up to... someone who inspires me to keep on going with life and who inspires me to strive for success. So how could I be hurt with knowing he will never fall for me because I'm only his PA? Why should I be hurt in the first place anyway?

Kris and I are worlds apart. Maybe someday, I will stand on the same level as him but... I have to face it, right? I have to face the fact that I will never deserve him because I'm never gonna be enough nor am I ever gonna be worth it.

I'm just his PA, afterall.

So I see you've brought the ransom. Kekeke, last update for today. more tomorrow.

The ransome for Chapter 13: 13 comments. that should do.

thanks to myungkiddie for the upvote and thank you to all the subcribers for the comments -I mean... ransom kekek

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