BAE SEUL GI POV

i woke up and it was morning 

what happened yesterday?

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.............jaemin....no, i mean siwon-ssi..........

i got out of bed 

my legs dangling from the edge of the bed

i clutch my heart, as the pain i felt yesterday i can feel once again

i guess the that yesterday waas too much for me so i fainted

i sighed 

i walked downstairs with heavysteps as what boa unnie and siwon-ssi were telling me yesterday started coming back to me 

my first love....first boyfriend...the first boy that made my heart skip a beat every time i looked into his eyes, and made me smile automatically whenever i looked at him..... ended not only killing my family but the girls' as well

the guilty feeling stopped me from opening my bedroom door, i collapse on the floor as tears start trickling

i'm so sorry...i'm so sorry

my hands over my face, i start bawling..the pain in my heart i can not explain...this pain...please mom dad make it stop....please

the door bursts open and find 9 worried figures glancing at me with sad eyes

yunho oppa graps me in his arm ...it made me feel safe 

"oppa, make the girls leave," i whispered

"girls would you mind leaving?" he asked without a second thought

"but oppa..." ri in stammered

"just please....,"

they left unwillingly and i was left with 5 guys all staring at me 

"can i ask you guys something?"

there was silence

"what would you do if i said i wanted to move out...by myself?"

"WHAT?!!!!" came the shrills from 5 muscular guys

"i just feel like i should start going my own way..," wishing they would by that lie

"is that honestly why you want to move out?" jaejoong oppa asked

i stay silent and they continue asking me questions which made me spill

"I JUST HATE THIS GUILT, ITS MY FAULT THOSE GIRLS' FAMILIES DIED....My fault........" 

the door bursts open and i see boa unnie with an fury expression 

*SLAP*

i hold my burning face as tears start to once again appear

"HOW DARE YOU!" she yells, jaejoong oppa holds her back from attacking me 

while yunho oppa crouches next to me comforting me

"HOW CAN YOU THINK OF RUNNING AWAY BECAUSE YOU FEEL GUILTY....IF YOU FEEL GUILTY YOU SHOULD TRY TO BE BETTER TO US, INSTEAD OF RUNNING AWAY!" she was crying and yelling at the same time 

she fell to the floor crying in jaejoong oppa's arms i ended up crying again in yunho oppa's arms

the rest of the girls' in their boyfriends' all crying 

feeling pain.........

that day was a sad but reuniting day....as our bond became closer

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srry for the disappointing and short chapter 

nxt chapter will be better...i hope 

so please anticipate