BAE SEUL GI POV

i look at the 4 graves sadly

as i miss them dearly

"mom....dad....erc.....jason...i miss you guys so much," i say with one tear drop falling on my cheeks

i try my best to smile as i promised my dad that i would always smile no matter what situation i was put in

i look around as i was alone

and just stare at my family's grave

FLASHBACK

"honey, we'll be back soon, be careful sweetie," my mom shouted lovingly

the 4 left to a doctor's appointment for my brothers' and i was home alone

i the tv and sat in a comfortable position and started eating dinner

after i ate dinner i put the dishes away and ate ice cream

i was watching tv and looked at the clock and seen it has already been 5 hours since they left the house and i started to get worried 

until i got a phone call

"mom?"

no reply was heard

"mom?"

i then heard multiple screams on the other side of the phone

i started getting worried as my family would never play a prank on me that would scare me 

"mom? dad? jason? eric?'

still no reply only screams

i ran outside in desperation

wanting to see my family and telling me it was all a joke to scare me

but i see our family's car and i see my dad's back as he tries opening the window

as the car was moving

they were tied

all of them with blood dripping with damage to their faces and bodies

i scream as i see them run into a truck

i run to them as a crowd was already forming around the 2 smashed cars

i scream

as i see 4 dead bodies hanging out of the car

"MOM! DAD! GUYS! WAKE UP!"

even with the screaming they did no wake

ambulance sirens were heard 5 minutes away 

and they came rushing in the dark night

and carried their bodies away

they wouldn't let me in the ambulance until i told them that i was their daughter/sister

i was bawling as i was holding my mom's blood red hands

they were dead

i was sure

the impact was too strong and the damage they had already made it worse

i didn't want it to be true but if i don't accept it, i might just go crazy

we arrived at the hospital which seemed like it took for a decade

as 4 rolling beds were being rolled into the emergency room

only after a couple of minutes did the doctor come out 

he looked down

i knew what he was going to stay

"i'm srry to say, but will(dad), eric(younger brother), and juliet(mom) are dead,"

i stare at him as i realize he hasn't said jason's name

i got a little bit of hope

"jason(youngest brother) wants to talk to you,"

he guided me to the room

and i ran up to my baby brother

and started tearing as i was horrified by the way my brother looked

"n...noona," he started having a hard time breathing

"yeah, what is it?"

"d..don't trust him, h........."

there was a long pause

"don't trust who?" urging him to continue

"h...he used you d.....don't trust him,"

"TRUST WHO?" i said starting to lose my patience

i wanted to know

"jason, w...who did this to you guys, who?"

"t...the one you love most, s.................."

he was gone

he was so close in telling me who did this to them

s...so close

i collapsed on the floor

from everything

from shock, horror, from the world

i felt alone

and wondered why there were no calls from him

i needed him by my side the most

oppa.......

FEW DAYS LATER

i was home alone

still crying

still feeling lonely

i was looking through my family's albums 

smiling and crying getting flashbacks from memories

i heard a knock on the door

i ignored it

but they kept knocking and eventually a man's voice said," come out, its the police!"

i opened the door

and indeed saw 3 police officers 

i saw them peering over my shoulders looking into the house

"come in please,"

and led them into the livingroom

"s..sorry for the mess, i was just going through pictures," i said trying my best not to tear

"i am sorry dear,but your thoughts about the murder are correct, and i am sorry to inform you that we are still not able to find the murderers,"

"oh" was the only reply that came out of my mouth

" a...and a boy my the name of Jae Min has passed away, do you know him?" an officer asked

"w...what?!" i said completely shocked

oppa.....

"n...no,"

"he was found dead in his apartment,"

i was shocked

and fell to the floor

"oh, careful sweetie,"

"h...he was my boyfriend, i wasn't able to contact him for a few days,"

"i am sorry,"

 looked at them but i couldn't tell them i was okay

END OF FLASHBACK

i teared

i looked at the fifth grave next to my brother

and it read JAE MIN

i touched his name

i miss you oppa

i miss you mom, dad, eric and jason

why did you guys leave me in this world 

why didn't you take me with you