15.

Lu Han's POV

I Can't decide whether to tell May about everything i know, I mean, I'm still confused on everything. I can't even think straight.

Since May was already feeling better, i called her up to meet me at a park. I'm going to spend this day with her and confirm my affection towards her. I wanna know what my feelings for her truly are.

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"Hi, Lu Han Oppa ~" She greeted me with a smile.

"U-hm .. Annyeong ." I greeted her back shyly. Damn, Why am I stuttering? "Let's Go?" 

While walking towards the park, I held out a deep sigh and interlaced her fingers to me. My face suddenly blushed and i can see her face is, too. People were looking at us and started to say some things like." Aww such a cute couple " or " They look Good together ".

When we got to the Park, May started to run off to the slide. I can't help not to notice that she's really cute. Super super cute :">

"Looks like you're having a good time?" I smirked as i placed my other arm around her shoulders. Instead of answering me, May just chuckled. Her eyes widened when she saw a swing. She sat down to the swing and started to swing herself back and forth. I can't believe she had an heart failure a year ago, She's so hyper.

I was just staring at her while she was playing with the little kids that was also on the playground. I imagined her being my wife, being the mother of my children. I know she will be a good mother, she gets along with kids very well.

I then looked up to the sky as i sighed. "Is this what you wanted, Nicole?"

"You knew that i will be sad that you're not around anymore that's why you asked fate to let me meet May. You really love me, do you? I miss you so much. I wish i can turn back time just what like Himchan hyung wished. Nicole Kim .. I really really love you :) But i think .. No. I feel, It's time to let you go. Your memories will always be in my heart and your smiles will always be remembered. Thank you for changing me into a better person. Thank you for everything you had done to me. Even though you always like to punch me and abuse me in your own little way, I will still love you. And .. Thank you for allowing your heart to be transfered to the girl now i know that I love. Park May, She may look exactly like you, But the two of you are different persons. I could even pin point all your differences. Once again, Thank you .. and Goodbye .. Mama Bear ~" I said as i was talking to the wind. I can feel that tears were already flowing out from my eyes. I know Nicole will not let me hanging all by myself. She knew that i will be needing someone as she was leaving. That's why she let May enter to my life.

As i continued on crying, I felt a bare hand patting my back. I looked up and saw ..

Park May.

"I'm not asking you to stop crying. Let it all out." she said as she sat beside me. Let it all out? That was the same step Nicole taught me for forgiving my father. I can't help my feelings anymore and i body just hugged her. I embraced her tightly like i don't want to let go.

"This is the same Hug you gave to me when you first saw me at the Night club." she said. I then looked at her eyes, And then .. i tilt my head as i gave her a slow kiss. My heart started to beat fast and flip flops inside my tummy can be felt.

Now i know what my feelings for May are, I love her. Not because she looks like Nicole and she got Nicole's heart. I love Park May because she's simply herself. 

I will confess to her, To be my girlfriend. To be mine. ;""> Just wait until i make this girl fully mine.

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Chapter completed by: Kaiyaiiyaii. :)