Notes from the dead
Description
"It's really hard to convince people that depression isn't just sadness. It isn't just something that you can get rid of over night. It will stick to your spine until it completely destroys you" - Byun Haneul
Anxiety.
Insomnia.
Depression.
These are the three things that took Haneul's sanity.
No one helped her.
No one dared to understand her.
"I promised to take care of her and understand her but ... i grew tired" - Kim Jongin
"I thought she was just making things up, I didn't really take her seriously. Why am I so stupid to let her go on her own?" - Oh Sehun
"I knew. I knew how much pain she was feeling, but I didn't do anything because I was scared of her own mind" Kim Joonmyeon
"She was always smiling. She was always laughing. She hid her pain behind her bright smile" - Byun Baekhyun
"She was always vocal about herself to me. I'm the only one who knows all her tiniest secrets. She trusted me, why didn't i do anything to save her?" Kim Jongdae
"Am I too late to tell her that she's not alone? She got me. All of me" Park Chanyeol
"Why didn't I notice that she was struggling?" Kim Minseok
"Friends either make you or break you. In my case, I broke her" - Luhan
Foreword
Haneul's POV
I don't know where all of this started. Maybe when Luhan left? or maybe when i failed my exams? I don't know. Maybe i've been like this before and I just noticed it now? Everything is just too hard for me to accept. I feel like i've never done anything right in my life. I'm a burden to my family and friends. I woke up one day hating the light. That damned blinding light. I want everything pitch black. The darkness embraces me every night and I love the feeling of it. No one ever listened to me, no one. And i hate all of them for ignoring my silent shout of help.
I'll disappear now.
C H A R A C T E R S:
Byun Haneul
Baekhyun's cousin
There's more to see than just her bright smile because behind that face hides a shattered heart
Luhan
Haneul's best friend
He was the only one who really understand Haneul but without any notice, he just left.
The rest of EXO.
Byun Haneul's circle of friends.
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