I could imagine how I looked infront of the strangers walking by. A bumbling, crying loser who wandered the streets. Every few minutes when I though I'd stop crying-I'd cry some more. It was embarassing but my emotions have taken a complete hold of me. I'm angry but mostly sad with a hint of guilt, why did I ever leave? I should've stayed. That may have had a better outcome than me being a complete wreck. Love really does , it's one of those things thay you can't live with or without it, which made it even more. As I gradually composed myself while sniffing my tears away, I arrived back at my apartment that was now empty. I was relieved to be honest, I didn't want their day to get ruined by a depressed cloud of sadness that was Seo Hee. I swung the keys onto the table and noticed my surrondings. *They must've cleaned some more, I should repay them back when I get the chance* I though. I then, as if by instinct, went to grab some food that I hoped would be lying innocently in the fridge. I had missed the days when I indulged in the comfort of food. Then I saw the note,

'Whatever happens, happens. Don't let it get you down, just find a new path.' They were right, wait a minute. They're right! As if my whole world had turned upside down and now held a resolve that I never thought I would find. I especialy didn't expect to find it on a post-it note on some left overfood.

" If that's how it's going to be then let it be!" I proclaimed as if I was in a musical. I grabbed the phone and waited for a answer,

"Ah, Seo Hee wha." I interrupted,

"Mr Han. If possible, I would like to be a model and if not a model then I'd like to be a concept visualiser or the person that does all the graphics and art. Anything." I pleaded. I didn't hear anything for a while,

"Seo Hee. Are you sure your not just saying things because of your current state?" He had a concerned tone in his voice. What I was concerned with is how does he know about my 'current state'? But I couldn't things like that bother me anymore.  

"Please sir. You won't have to worry about me. I won't be a bother. I promise." He paused for a while once again. Then finally he let out a sigh and agreed.

"You surprisingly did sell well." He said. He then notified me to arrive promptly tomorrow in the morning. It was obvious I wouldn't get my job back as a teacher. Well, not for now anyway. It was a pleasant surprise-this feeling inside. It was a feeling of bliss and probably the start of a new chapter. It was refreshing and clear. If I see them tomorrow I'll just be civil, if Luhan must get married to Natalie then I shouldn't get in the way anymore. I know my place now and if worst comes to worst and I'm forever alone, then I'll be happy and forever alone. I should be use to this way of thinkig, I mean I've though this all my life, but, when Luhan came into it-everything had changed. I though I would actually be someone's something, maybe even someones mother in the future. It's strange, I thought I'd never get over and inevitably, I won't, but I think the idea that I have embraced this fact has lifted a unbearable load of my shoulders. Then there was something else that I had to do. I left my apartment and knocked on the door next to mine and waited for a response. I heard the clicking of the door open and bellowed,

"Hi, Im Seo Hee I'll be your neighbour from now on. Please take care of me." I bowe. Taemin had a look bewilderment and confusion.

"Is this some sort of joke?" He questioned me quizzically and I simply replied,

"If you ever need anything, my home is open to you." I left his presence and headed back to my apartment grabbing my wallet then rushing out once again.

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I eargerly arrived back to my apartment with bags full of pampering items. Hey, I deserved a pampering session. However, to my surprise I saw Natalie standing outside my apartment door, her arms were folded and her leg was tapping against the tattered carpet but when she sensed my presenceshe stopped. Her eyes glared at me and she came charging. It's funny because usually, I'd like to sock her in the nose but as of right now, I didn't care.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" She asked.

"Coming home so I can relax? Would you like to join me?" She let out  a dry chuckle and before she could continue,

"Look I don't care about you and Luhan. Trust me, I have other things to be stressing over. Regardless of how I feel, I really wish the best for you two. Take care of him you hear me."  I patted her on the back and scurried off to my room.

"Besides, don't you have a bachelorette party to be going to." I mentioned just before I closed the door. I ran the bath and prepared for a night of relaxation and indulgence.

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I woke up, fresh and early and already set foot in the luxurious building. It would be a lie for me to say I wasn't a tincy bit excited to see Luhan, if he was even there. It must've been his stag night last night and I wouldn't be surprised if he was tired and half asleep. I then saw Mi Hee gliding towards me,

"I am here to you to your shoot." She linked her arm with mine then rushed me over.

"Don't I have to see Mr H." She interrupted,

"It's a bit heated in there so he told me to just get you ready." She replied and I followed her. She stopped at the elevator and while she told me about how the food here was so overpriced the lift open. Just like the first time my heart raced, my cheeks flushed and I felt a sweat coming on.

"What are you doing here?" Luhan asked as he looked up from his phone and our eyes met. It felt like that moment in a cheesy drama. He then shoved me into the lift and pressed a random button. I tried to escape but the doors closed before I could even make a attempt.

"Was I not clear yesterday? Do you need something?" He asked me questions as if I was looking for something. I was offended yet I didn't have the heart to make a comment.

"Luhan, I understand. You don't love me anymore, you can't humiliate your father and the company. I admire you for that and it's one of the reasons I fell for you, your selfless. Before you say anything futher, I still love you and I always will but I've accepted that." The elevator doors had opened right on time but as what I expected, Natalie was on the other side.

"Morning Natalie." I said while walking past her and prayed I was on right floor. There are really too many floors in this building.

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"what the he." I couldn't bare to hear her voice so early in the morning.

"Look. Nothing happened so just stop talking. I had to listen to you all night yesterday because your friends left you." I replied. I drowned out her response and focused on her and the things she said. This world is difficult and even though I may not be with her like I-we planned. I hope the man she's with in the future isn't so complicated. He should be simple, funny and a good cook. A guy that will buy her women stuff without hesitation and take her out for moonlit walks. A guy that will fulfil her wishes and dreams. It's funny really, I'm already loathe the guy and I don't know who he is. I really wish he was me.

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