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Couple more days before the baby is born and I felt Cana sad because it was too soon, over before I even know it although I said am not goanna back off on my decisionI couldn’t help but to have my doubtit not an easy thing you know giving up on your child you own flush and blood but I felt so sad like I wasn’t ready to let him go not just yet,,, life .   

I was at work when I got a phone call- -

`~you got the wrong number so don’t call me no more`~

'' yabosayo "

"ahh jj what up " I rolled my eyes

"Nothing am at work what you want siwon hyung am busy"

" I missed you "

" how it passable for you to miss me we ate breakfast together "

"what am not a loud to miss you " ` I knew he was pouting `

"your such a child ," I laugh .

"don’t call me that "

"whatever "

"so want to have dinner with me "

" umm do I get my ice-cream"==

"sure " `smile`

"`sigh` sure why not if I didn’t say yes you  would call every 3 minute to ask  I didn't need the headache and be said  a frrrrrrrreeeeeee meal yay"

" sometime I swear your only my friend for the free meals "

"of course hhhhhhh"

" what ever see you later "

"ok bye "

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 At dinner

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"slow done jae I don’t want you to chock " I knew he was worried about me .

"am hungry . and it not my fault you know that am eating for two " stuffing more food in my mouth .

" hhh I know that but I don’t want you to get a stomachache"

"no worries I won't "

"ok if you say so "

"so how is work "

""

"hhh how come "

"siwon hyung am an assistant of another assistant who work for another assiatant so my work "

"it can't be that bad "

"will it is ,ok baby do you want to eat more " `kick` I geuss that a yes"

"hhh " siwon laugh

"what are laughing at"

"you " `smile`

"why did I say something funny"

" no but you're talking to the baby and that just funny "

"no it not I read that babies in their mother womb can still hear you ,you know  beside me and the baby have a mother baby understand mint " `I said proudly `

`smile` "you call yourself a mother " I blushed at what he said

"so " `looking a way `

"nothing" I can see him giggle a little .

"so I can tell that your starting to love the baby now ha"

"no am not " not making an eye contact with him .

"if you say so , but  jae I can tell that you love him so why don’t you keep him"

" I don’t love him" `lie`

"hhh silly , you know that love is everything "`smiling softly at me`

"`teary` love is not enough" I said in a low voice .

"how can you say that " holding my hand.

"because it true `sniff`  can we not talk about this "pulling my hand away.

"ok am sorry I didn't mean to upset you"

"it ok really " smiling at him  

 Me and siwon were close friend now sure I don’t tell him everything   but we have an add relationship he was person that I can count on now he wasn’t `yunho` I knew that perfectly but somehow I saw yunho in him he was funny sweet and he cared for me just like` yunho` he also was in muter , childish, stupid but I liked him just fine he was my new best friend hhhhh , but I wish if he was `yunho` .

----------------------- After dinner ----------------

"ok ok were going stop acting like a kid " `I pouted`

"don’t call me that siwon hyung you know that am all grown up "

" ya right " five minute latter we were at the ice-cream shop

"I want a vanilla one "`I whine `

"but jae you ate 2 already you goanna get tummy each"

"but the baby want one" it always work when I use the baby card

"but ,,, jae it not good eating that much ice-cream so no" and I started to cry

"you `sob` said I can have all the ice-cream `sob` I want "

" I know but …" `frowning his eye brow `

And I start to cry harder " BUT I WANT MY ICE-CREAM" `hi I know I was being childish but I was pregnant don’t blame me blame the hormones`

Suddenly an old man shout "ya Mr. buy your wife the ice-cream all ready"

A another lady shouted "how could you make her cry buy the ice-cream don’t you see that she's pregnant "

"how could you be so insensitive " more and more shouting at poor siwon I almost fell bad for him but I really want my ice-cream hhh `god am bad`

"I bought two already " he said in sad face

"but she pregnant with your child "

"ya he made me pregnant , and he didn’t even asked me to marry him and now am carrying his child he `sob` doesn't want to buy me `sob` ice-cream" I said dramatically hhh hhh I loved missing with him deserve him right not buy me ice-cream .

"shame on you young man "

"kids these days tuk tuk"

"ok , ok all buy you the ice-cream "`sigh`

"ya say it nicely " the old man said

"ya siwon-hyung say it nicely " `smirking at him`

" jae joong , honey , the apple of my eyes , would you please let me buy you ice-cream"

"`sigh` ok since you asked o so very nicely " I tried so hard not to laugh but as soon as we were out of the shop I burst out laughing  

"ya that was not funny , not funny at all "

"yes it was "laughing even harder

"for you maybe "

"yes for me it was hhhhhhhhhhhh , come on let go play in the park a litter " and I dragged him with me

I sat on the swing and he was behind me giving me a bush, I couldn’t help but to wonder

Would it be like this if yunho was here.

Would he be the one how I play tricked on in the ice-cream shop.

Would he be the one how buy me all the food I feel like eating and then tell me to slow down so I won't shock in it .

Would he be the one how people shout at buy your wife the dam Ice-cream .

"jae , are you all right "

"huh "

"what wrong way are you crying "

Am crying , I touched my face and to my surprise I was crying "am fine " I said in a low voice .

"but if your fine way are yo…"

I cut him of " am fine siwon hyung it just you know hormones "`laughing nervously`

"but jae you know that you can tell be anything right "wiping my tears away

I thought `if only you were yunho`

"siwon hyung " softly

"can I have a hug "

"sure " pulling me gently in to a hug .

I don’t know why but I started to sob in to his arm , he was so warm but gave different kind of warm  not as yunho warm in yunho' arm I would milt . how I wish to melt in his amr  "it hurt "

"what hurt "

I pulled myself a way "here " pointing in to my heart

"who hurt you jae tell me and I swear to kick his "

"hhh hhh `wiping my tears` some day ill tell you "

"promise "

"sure `smile ` can you take me home am so tired "

"of course "  I was so tired so I just fell asleep in siwan car on my why home.

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Siwon pove

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It was 8 month and 2 days since I meet Jae. I and he Cana grow together in time and we become so close,

It was a normal friend relation but I don’t know why but along the way I got selfish , I want him to smile only at me , to look only at me , to be comfort only by me , only me

Am so selfish ha ,, or is it ok for me to feel this way toured him.

I don’t know why but I think I fell in love with him , he's sweet, funny , childish , cute , beautiful as much as the word means.

To me it felt like he was my child , I want to protect him , I want to heal his heart  I knew he was Brocken and I want to help him but the pieces to gather  it not bad right me wanting to be there for him is it ? I wish it he would let me.

But as much as I want, it not goanna happen, I knew his heart belong to someone else, someone that he cherish so much. Some one that he keep deep down in his heart although he said his fain

He's all right

But I know better, I know that he love this person so much that makes his heartache.

I turned a round only to see him asleep, I couldn’t help but to smile `just like a baby`

"jae ,, jae were home " he opened his eyes slowly `cute` only to close theme back again `I guess I'll carry you in ha.

Hhh it a amazinghow light was " how is it passable to be this light when you're pregnant hhh "

I walk in to his house to his bed room and I put him lightly on the bed and cover him with the blanket suddenly he mumbled "yunho"

`Yunho` I wonder whose that , and I saw a little tear escapehis eyes

"yunho"

`yunho`, he's the one who hurt you `crossing his cheek ` , He's the one who hold your heart this `yunho ha .

" jae `wiping his tear` I know am not this yunho but I hope that you know ,, I'll be right here when you need me "

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