A month later ------

Jae pov: 

I laid in my bed next to my son thinking of that party a month a go god it was so … `sigh` no word for it . 

Why because of a man name Jung yunho `sigh` 

Onew pov : 

I heat that stupid party I should have never gone  .

Stupid top who the hell he think he is , I can't believe I feel for this kind of a man god I want to scram `sigh`

Top pov: 

God what the hell was I thinking I should never done that to him he didn’t deserve it.

He looked so absolutely breath taken and I just `sigh` am so stupid

Am sorry Jinki-ah I don’t deserve to be loved by someone as beautiful as you. 

Siwon pov:  

I hate that party I wish if I never had gone there.

Why, because of Jung yunho.

I don’t know the man but I hate what he did to Jae joong, I feel like crying god, `sigh`.

This is so un- bearable . 

Yunho pov: 

God I love that part hhh, hhh, not only I got to meet the love of my life again but also I got to hold him,

make him blush

and above all

I kissed him. 

Jae pov:

So what happen you asked first . 

When I got to that party me and siwon hyung of course everything was so beautiful, I can't believe that Jinki did all this in 3 days it was so ,, just wow . 

When I got there must of the guest were already there, but the one I want to see the must was Jinki 

"omo Jinki-ah look at you ,you look absolutely breath taken , wow , I think I might be falling for you " `smile`  

"really" 

"Absolutely, a certain someone will be drooling over you hhh" 

`Blush`  

"so who's you're date Jinki" 

"oh sorry . This is Changmin he's my cousin , he want to come with me to meet Mickey yoochun , you know our new model  " 

"really now" Changmin just blushed. 

"ok well Jinki I want you to meet siwon my best friend " 

"hi " 

"hello" 

"so were is your dream man " 

"jae" he whined . I just laugh  

I wander what will top think once he see him hhh hell be head over heals  

"ok I'll see you guy's in a bit I got to go chick on something , hyung you mind " 

"no " 

"ok " and I left .

Jinki pov:  

I got there the only one I want to see is top , god I was so nerves I couldn't breath right , I took my cousin with me for support hhh

Little that did me . 

After I meet jae he left to do something and I went with min to look for top ,

Changmin was really thrill he lived in small town so this was like a dream come true for him , I know he liked Mickey so I told him ill introduce him to Mickey . 

Yes am a really good hyung . 

"hyung , are you sure he'll be here" 

"of course min , I promise hell be here " we walked around a bit and we saw him . 

"omo hyung look it him , it him "he started to jump around like a little kid . 

"ok come one " 

"how do I look" 

"cute" 

`pout ` hyung I don’t want to be cute" 

"hhh ok , ok you look hot " 

"hyung " 

"hum" 

"thank you so much for doing this for me " and he hugged me tight , and I hugged him back , and out of nowhere he kissed me on the cheek , 

"I love you hyung" 

"I love you two now come on " and we walked to Mickey.

Top pove: 

I was actually looking forward this party , I want to see Jinki so bad I want to , I don’t really know what I want to I just want to be with him that night. 

When I finally got there I saw jae organizing some thing's that I asked for him to do the other day I couldn’t help but to smile he looked so cute ordering people a round . 

I finally saw Jinki and I couldn't believe my eye I sewer my time had stopped that very moment he looked so dashing , he had hot hair cut his hair was blondish now , he wore tuxedo which was a round his body so perfectly ,  

He simply looked breath taking. 

I was only an inch away I was a bout call out for him the guy kissed him he freaking kiss him not only that he said : 

"I love you hyung" 

"I love you two"  

The said the L word to etch other my heart shattered  .

I couldn't think  it felt like someone just pour ice water on my head

So I did the only thing I could do . I want to drink my sorrow away . 

"hi there handsome buy a girl a drink " I looked at her and she was pretty enough not as beautiful as Jinki but after what I heard , anyone will do I guess. 

"sure why not "

Jinki pov :

 It toke me time talking to min and Mickey I can tell there will be some yoominish in the future I don’t think that even a word , hhh , still they looked so good together am so goanna let theme name one of their kids after me  .kkkk , 

After that I went to look for top , I haven’t seen him yet I was really excited to see him I wonder what will he say when I tell him that I love him , gosh my heart won't be able to take it if he said no to me , `sigh`  

After a while I saw him drinking at the par with some girl, I can feel my heart die a little but I won't let it stop me.  

Lee Jinki fighting. 

"`smile` hi top " 

"oh , what you want onew ." `onew` he never call me that not ever . 

"will I was hoping we can talk a litter in privet if you don’t mind " 

"am not in the mood to talk to your ugly face right now " `shack`  

"oh `low voice` I was I mean I want to tell you something important so `tear` please " 

"can you see am busy " 

"but ,," 

"no but onew just go away I don’t feel like talking to you right now , and what the hell did you do to yourself , not only you look ugly but stupid tow " 

`Do I revolt him that much`, I tried so hard not to let my tears fall. 

"do you know him handsome " the girl said roping her hand all over him . 

"He's no one important so never mind him " and he leaned down and kiss her right in front of me . 

I don’t  know what hurt the most I felt like I didn’t know him at all , it just hurt , it hurt to dam much .  

And I left , more like I ran out that hall , that place were my heart got broking .   

Jae pov:  

Hhh funny how thing work right , will you have no Idea 

 top asked me if I can give flower's and a gift that was specialmad for his new partner and really I didn't mind I was Cana glad the he ask me to . So I waited back stage when I heard: 

welcome Mr. Jung yunho. 

Ok first come on you got to be kidding me.

Second, god can't be the cruel to me there's got to be at least more than one Jung yunho right hhh please. 

So I walked to the stag , hoping , more like I was praying , that it won't be the same  Jung yunho that i know . 

I saw the manger  talking to the new boss , `skip`, he had his back facing me , I walked slowly with the flowers on my hand toured him  , suddenly he turn around and his eyes coat main `breathless`  

For some reason god only now why I tripe with my one feet I was about to hit the ground when I felt a pair of strong hand wrapped around me  

`Yunho` 

 I couldn't help but to be drawn to his eyes and I felt warm and funny and weak

He made me feel utterly  and I secretly `liked it` we looked like hero and u-now from `Dangerouslove` , I pet this is how hero felt being hold like this bay u-know. 

 We just kept looking in to etch other eye almost forgetting all and I mean `ALL` the people around us . 

I bushed yunho a way from me , dam that man have that effect on me , and I didn’t like it , god I don’t want to be so weak in front of him .

So I fixed my suit and gave him his flowers which now were messy 

"here " `looking away` he pull me in by the waist and whispered  in my ears  

" I rather have you " I immediatelyblushed felt like my heart will burst out of my chest .  

Good lord have mercy on my soul. 

I bushed him away and ran from that stag as fast as I could .

Yunho pov:    

Today was the day I was  goanna meet mu co-worker , `big bang faction` , I owned half of that company like a lot of other around the world , it true am one awesome business man hhh.  

No seriously to me business is  business , I wasn’t like other I don’t like mixing business with pleasure hhh will that in tell I saw my angle .  

I was so surprise to see jae joong , not in a million years I would thought that he would be working here. 

I knew god worked in a mysterious way but this was heavenly . 

Clumsy as Jae IS he trips with his own two feet hhh `so cute` luckily I catch him just in time. 

We looked like that seen from `Dangerouslove `love that movie it was the first movie me and jae saw ` this is defiantly destiny` , he looked at me right in the eye and my heart explode with many joyful thing I felt like I was on cloud .  

I was simply in yunjae haven. 

He handed me flowers and I couldn’t help but to be naughty with him so I bull him by the waist a gain and whispered in his ear 

 "I rather have you" 

I couldn’t help but to feel extremely happy with the thought that  ,

I can still make him blush.

I can still make his heart skip.

I can tell there was still hope.

Top pov: 

After Jinki left I felt like I so want to beat my own up , am sorry I made you cry my beautiful angle .

I really don’t know what got over me I saw him with that guy and I lost it `sigh` I really hope I can fix this, Jinki is too preciousto me to lose him like this . 

God I'm such a loser. 

Siwon pov: 

I was Cana bored after jae left so I went to the par to get something to drink I was really thirsty , and I wondered how thing's will turn out for Jinki and top I hoped that everything will turn ok .  

A happy ending maybe `smile` . 

But after I over hared the conversation between the two of theme I felt really bad for Jinki , I Knew he was really exceeded for this day and for thing to turn out like this `sigh`. 

I wonder if thing's will go like this for me and jae joong , I love him a lot , but I don’t think my heart will be able to handle the rejection , that why I still don’t have the courage to tell him how I felt for him  

Love sure is a complicated thing . 

After a while I went to the bathroom to wash my face up , and when I got out I saw jae rung out the hall , so I fallow him I want to make sure everything is all right , he was sitting on the fountain in the garden with his hand on his chest he looked like he was trying to calm himself down or something , he was sitting in the meddle and the water went all the way up and down it looked like the water was dancing around him which made him look really angelic , and I couldn’t help but to smile , am really lucky to love an angle like him .   

" jae joong what wrong " 

"umm , huh nothing `laugh` nothing " 

"it doesn't look like nothing to me " 

"`smile` will it is , hyung can you get me a drink am Cana thirsty " 

" sure Kim no problem " 

"hhh since when you start calling me that" 

"Since now hhh, I'll be right back ok" 

" `smile` thank you " I was breathless that smile coat me off grad and my heart start to pound on my chest and as I was walking away I kept thinking maybe it not a bad Idea after all to tell him how I really feel  about him . 

But my dream quickly died, because when I went back I saw something that chattered me completely 

 jae joong was kissing someone , jae joong had his arm a round someone nick , he's eye's were close , and that kiss was so full of passion  , but from the look in jae joong face I knew it was full of love . 

Tears fall from my eyes and I felt so weak so I ran out there because I couldn’t stand the fact the I all ready lost the battle before I even start.

Jae pov:

I was sitting on the fountain waiting for siwon hyung to come as I was looking up the sky to the star I kept thinking of us me , yunho , and moon bin , and yunjae of course.

Maybe it time for me to let it go , to forgive him to .. I don’t know but this is just only getting more complicated than it all ready is. 

Moon bin asking question about his appa a lot lately, and it getting really hard, and am really tired of lying to him, and how about yunho even thou am still really mad at him for hurting me I can't help but to think that maybe am being too selfish for keeping him away from him it his son two `sigh` this is so hard. 

 I felt someone their hand around me `smile`  

"hyung I know it you so " he just laugh. 

"I think maybe it time hyung, it time to stop lying to moon bin and tell him the truth the hull truth , and his appa two `sigh` am Cana tired you know `smile`, any way don’t you think the stars look so beautiful tonight " 

"not as beautiful as you " 

"huh" I turn my head around , his face, his eyes, his nose, his perfect jaw line, and his lips. 

God his lips. 

It toke me a sic to relays it was him so I quickly bushed him a way .

"what the hell yunho" 

"is that really a nice way to talk to your new boss " I just roll my eye at him . 

"what you want yunho-shii " 

"come on don’t be like this jae joong-na " 

"`sigh` whatever go away I don’t want to see you right know ok " looking away  

"oh really now " he pull me again to him and huge me tight "I missed you , I really missed you , not every day goes by without me missing you  

~ it hard to find a thing to say when your vulnerable and frail ~ 

and I know it hard for you to believe me I know I know that I hurt  you a lot and am really sorry  

~ The more I wish to believe in you the more painful it is ~ 

But I would love it if you at least gave me the chance to make it up to you , I know my word don’t mean much to you now but ` leaning down our nose touch`  

Please , please let me try " ` our lips touch ` 

my heart begin to skip. 

One heart beat . 

Two heart beat. 

Three heart beat . 

Four heart beat . 

Just this once I'll let it go , `and without me knowing I kissed back ` , just this once I let my heart beat all he want ,`and without me knowing I my arm around his nick` , just this once I love him , `without me knowing I closed my eyes`, just this once ill give him a chance `and withoutme knowing i melted in his arm`maybe it wont be so bad .   

Out of rhythm and out of control out of breath out of this world I kissed yunho and it  was so better sweet .

Yunho pov:

I was only asking for a chance and I never thought he would kiss me back , it only mean one thing , he's mad but he still love me . 

Yunjae love fighting .

Jinki pov :

I thing I might have to give it up , top love , maybe it just not meant to be .

Top pov:

Ahh I don’t even know how am goanna make it up to him , it just the idea of him in someone else's arm Is driving me insane. 

Siwon pov:

`sigh` all I want is a chance to be with him to hold to love to protect to kiss , but , I don’t thing that will happen not  now not ever .  

I wish …

Jae pov:

Why in the name of god did I kiss him , I know a temporally moment of insanity hhh`, but I liked it god am not supposed to like it  `sigh`

God why me hell probably think of something stupid like yunjae or something ahhhhhhh why me . `sob`  

I kissed a boy and I likes it the teas of his chocolate lip  

I myself with the blanket and I closed my eye , and all I kept thinking of is ;

Yunho

Yunho

Yunho.

( am realllllllly sorry for the late up i really am haveing a hard time wrriting lately kkk any way hop you like it pleease comment ne xoxo )

##### alwayes keep the faith####