Top pov:

It been a week and three days already and we only have four days left and ever since we been here and every one look like will like , I still haven’t found a way to apologize to Jinki , I mean I know am wrong and am sorry but the thought alone is killing me .

The thought of him saying I love you to that guy is too much `sigh` , but am his best friend I should be happy for him right 

`sigh`  fin ill try to be any way . 

---At the breakfast table---

I saw jinki talking to jae joong about something he looked happy enough , thought , maybe it my chance to apologize to him and I had the plan .

"good morning "

"morning" , the moment he saw me his face change he looked  sad , `my fault` . 

"hi jinki " `little smile`

"…" `inhale`

"will I need to tell you something "

"if it not about work I don’t want to hear it ok"

"umm `lie, top lie` `smile` it is "

"ok , what is it " `trying so hard not to cry`

" will , I need you at the pool house to see something it important "

"right know "

"no not now but tonight ok , it really important"

"fain, whatever" he got up ready to leave god I want nothing more than to wrap him up into my arm ,but , I didn’t want my to be kick so early in the morning hhh. 

"way so happy , he's still mad at you , you know " jae said

"I know but tonight am goanna change that `smile` ". 

Jae pov :

For some reason top look really happy `wired` since jinki is still mad like a volcano at him . 

I will never understand him `sigh` 

I was having a lovely breakfast date with my son , cause I work a lot lately I haven’t had the time to just hang out  with him ,I miss my baby.  

"umma  , can we stay here forever "

"hhh , no hone we can't I have work , you have school remember `smile"

"`pot ` but I like it here it snowing every day "

"it snow in Seoul two "

"ya but not all the time , if we lived here it would be charismas every day `smile ` that way I'll get present all the time"

"hhh hhh hhh hhh ,is that so , hhh cut but sorry we can't , no here finish out your breakfast so we can go have a look around maybe go skiing ok "

"really `sparkly eyes` "

"really "

"can yunjae come two "

"sure it would be fun "

"yaay " and he started to eat again .

"umm, umma I have something to ask you "

"sure , what is it angle "

"will it about appa"

"appa" `nerves smile` "

"ne , will I was wandering can two people have the same name"

"huh"

"yunjae appa have the same name as my appa , isn’t that funny hhh"

"ya , it, it f-funny " ."say honey did you tell anyone about this " please say no , please.

"no `smile`"

"good `thank gad` , baby , angle I need you to promise me something"

"ok "

"don’t tell anyone about this ok , no one you understand me babe"

"ok"

"good , now finish your food so we can go skiing "

"ok"

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"ahhhhhhhhh stop ,stop ,stop" jae screamed his lunge out .

"hhh come on jae don’t be like this , it not as bad as it seem"

"yes it is "

"come-on it fun "

"you call sliding downthat Giantmountainfun "

Yunho just laugh at jae childish "it pearly a hell baby "

"`pout` it not look at it , it huge "

"come on baby you can do this " but jae still pouting and pouting`

The kids start to laugh at jae babinest witch made him pout even more , Yunho couldn’t help himself anymore so he leaned on and kiss his pouty pinky lips a way , jae nearly had a heart attack .

"ya" `blush`

"hhh umma you look like a tomato hhh" moon bin giggle witch mad him blush even more .

"ya it all your fault look the kid are making fun of me now "

"no one is making fun of you , right guys "

"right "and the all giggled , making jae storm back to the hotel yelling how he's not talking to any of them ever again.

"ya jae joong-ah wait up " `laughing a pit `

"you know I thing your umma is pretty ,I wish my dad would marry you umma this way we could be brothers forever " `smile` yunjae said happily .

"umm , I don’t know , I mean my umma said that appa will be back one day for us "`pout`

"but I want us to be brother `pout`"

"will ok , since your appa and my appa have the same name `ops` I didn’t mean to say that I"

"what you can tell me I won't tell it would be our little secret "

"will ok ," he start whispering in his ear his little secret.

"o , that really cool "

"but you can't tell anyone ok , promise"

"`smile` I won't tell , I promise"

"ya kid come on hurry up " Yunho yelled , the kid just skip their way in to their parent .     

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 Siwon pov :

It been almost two weeks already since the last time I saw jae joong and moon bin , I miss them .

Maybe it won't be that bad once the comeback , `sigh`   , I just hop jae joong won't avoided me or worse hate me for it .

`smile` but there is one good thing come from this , hangkyung `smile ` he's like nothing and no one I ever known before , sweet ,caring , gentle ,crazy `smile` I really don’t know how to descript him `smile` he always mange to make me smile and laugh and just be happy whenever I am with him .

I really like him and itbothered me – because I liked him too  much more than I should have . 

 `sigh` Love sure complicates the human brain .

hey y (crack crack crack crack)
tonight, you know (crack crack crack crack)
I'm a strong baby (crack crack crack crack)
put on my jacket and then.. (let’s go) 

what the hell is that , I looked around an it was my dam phone

"hello "

"hi"

"oh hangkyung-ah ,  umm did you change  my ring tune "

"maybe"

"hhh ya maybe, so what can I do for you "

"will want hang out "

"umm I don’t know , I mean you bobble make me go and do something weird again like last time "

"`pout 'do not , biased , I made dinner and I hate eating a lone please"

"`sigh` fain but no karaoke "

"dun"

"ok ill be right there"

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Yunho pov:

Last night was the final day of the shot , we worked extremely hard on it , and because some of the design are jae's for me , it made theme more special.

And today I got to spend the day with my favorite person's in the hull world it made me feel like the luckiest man a live . 

I needed some papers that I asked jae to do for me they were important so I went to knock on his door to get theme . 

"ya just a minute " he open the door with only a towel rapt a round his waist and one word for it  

Wow  

"nervous laugh` your not room services " he said with a shay Expressionon his face.

"wow jae if I knew you'll be half I would knock on your door a long time a go "

"shut up "`blush`

"so y as much as I want to pull that towel and take you right know , I need that file I asked you to do for me , you did bring it with you right" dam it was so hard toFocuswith him looking like this

Towel around his tine waist .

A tattoo on his chest dam that hot .

His wet hair , dam I might have a hard on if I stood here any longer

"ya sure just a moment let me `blush` but something on"

"ok" he walked back to the bathroom and dam he had another tattoo on his back , dam jae what kind of bad thing you been up too all this time . 

I wonder where else he have tattoos `evil mind`

I can tell his bath door was open because I can see him throwing his towel on the floor , I might have a heart attack right now.

Dam jae are you trying to kill me . 

"sorry it toke long `smile` " he was only wearing a black hoody sweatshirt and boxer on `nose bleed` dam . 

"no it fain , can I `breath yunho breath` can I just get the file "

"ya sure "

"so were is moon bin , I don’t see him any were "

"he's a sleep "

"oh ,`smile` he's really a very cute and smart kid "

"ya"

"he look a lot like you "

"na he look more like his appa "

"appa?"

"ya `smile` he was my miracle , if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be able to live another day"

"you love him a lot , I can tell "

"I do , I love him very much , I do anything for him anything to protect him " he said it with a really sad desperation in his eyes

"I can understand that , there not a ting I won't do for my kid two "

"will here it is "

"thanks " I got the file and I was about to leave when he said .

" I  , I , about moon bin he's your .. your.."

"my what , `smile`"

"nothing "

"come on tell me "

"it nothing really , good night yunho"

"night jae " there's something he want to tell me , but I guess he will when he's ready . 

------jae pov------

`sigh` breathe jae joong breath   god I can't believe I almost told him  `sigh`

`looking at sleeping moon bin` I hope he can understand baby , your appa is good people but , am not sure how will he feel about this , but I can't keep this a secret any more it will eat me alive .

I picked up the phone trying to call the only person who can help me make the right dictation  `siwon hyung ` but after what happened am not sure that he would still want to talk  to me but , I can at least try .. 

----siwon pov ---

I was a bout to go out to have dinner with hankyung `smile` he's nice person and I think of him as a very good friend . 

hey y (crack crack crack crack)
tonight, you know (crack crack crack crack)
I'm a strong baby (crack crack crack crack)
put on my jacket and then.. (let’s go

hhh I really cant get use to that ring ton , I picked up

"hi , I'll be there in ten so way are you calling "

"hi ,hyung it- it me "

I cant believe it jae , I haven’t thought about him in awhile , I miss him I miss is voice

"hi"

"I know that you don’t really want to here from me right know but "

"that not true "

"huh "

"I always want to hear from you jae and you know that "

"I know but after what happen I would think am the last Pearson earth you want to hear from "

"not true , I love hearing your voice "

"…"

"so tell me what wrong "

"everything "

"it can't be that bad can it "

"I don’t know it could be "

"what wrong jae "

"moon bin appa "

"You mean yunho-shii"

"How."

"I just know, what the matter Jae"

"I almost told him "

"oh I see , why didn’t you "

"I don’t know "

"you always say that jae you need to learn to know "

"sorry"

"so what you want from me "

"not sure I just needed to hear you voice "

"hhh ok jae I get it , but I really can't make that diction for you , you need to make it yourself , so later on you won't regret it ,ok"

"ok, you shouldn’t be nice to me like this, it make me feel bad , hyung "

"hhh you shouldn’t feel bad about anything jae ,but jae I really need an answer from you , and don’t tell me you don’t know because whatever it is ill be there for you , I love you jae "

"I "

"not now jae , well talk after you get back ok "

"but what if you didn’t like my answer , hyung"

"even if I didn’t like it I'll still be there for you ok"

"ok"

"see you soon ne"

"ne"

After he hang up I couldn’t help but to feel each in my heart , I want him to choice me , but if he didn’t `sigh` I guess I'll cross that bridge when i come to it .

 --- at top and jinki end ---

It was finally nine clock and top was more than happy to go meet up with jinki , his heart was racing and over all he looked like he might have a heart attack any sic , top spent almost all day fixing it . there was a table on the corner of the pool and hundreds of candles every were , he want to make this special for him , he want to melt jinki's heart a way , this was his chance maybe the last one . and now it show time .    

"oh jinki you finally here " `smile`

"what is all this" he was really surprise of the view , very thing in here looked perfect.

"you like it "

"I , `small smile` what is all of this "

"will , do you like it "

"it very beautiful top , what is  this for "

"for you"

"me "

"yes , this is my way of saying sorry , is it working"

"a little "

"it better than nothing, come set "

"no , I think ill `sigh` way are really doing this "

"I told you as a sorry"

"way , I would think for someone who is so un-important to you , this is the last thing you'll be doing "

"that not true, your very important to me , you’re the most important person in my life "

"`teary` I don’t believe you " he was simply still hurting a lot so  he begun to walk away , so top ran to him and hold him by the wrist

"please just hear me out "

"no ," and he pushed him away making top fall in the pool

Splash ….

"omo " and win after him , since he didn’t want top to drawn seeing that he cant swim .

`cough , cough` "are you ok "

"`cough, cough` other from almost drowning to death yes pitchy  "

"am sorry am so sorry I didn’t mean `sob` am sorry "

"hi , hi I'm ok so don’t cry please " giving the beautiful boy a hug. After awhile they broke a part .

"am sorry two jinki , I was stupid "

"ya you were " `tear`

"am sorry "

"you should be "

"I , I just I don’t know what came over me, I , one moment I saw you and I thought wow , angle do exist , and then I heard you and that guy and you told him you loved him and I just lost it, and I know I was being an , but I love you so much that I can't stand the idea of you with someone else, call me selfish but I want you all , all to myself , see I love you , jinki-ah am in love with you , I love you to the point my heart stop beating , and my soul .. "

He never really got to finish , his lips were surprise by a another salty kiss .

"I love you two , I ,I sob` love you two "

"but that guy"

"my cousin he 's my cousin dam it "

"oh"

"doesn't matter , I cantt believe you love me I "

Kiss "did that feel real "

"`nod`"

"than you better believe it , jinki, your main and main alone you hear me , and your defiantly not allude to say I love you to anybody else"

"`nod` top"

"yes`"

"shut up and kiss me "

"`smile` as you wish "

And the kiss , finally after all the drama and hardship , they were here , in each other arm and it felt god .

--- hankyung home after diner ---

Him and hankyung were sitting watching some movie witch siwon didn’t care less about since he was off in his one world , and hankyung can see that there was something off about the man next to him

But , he was afraid of asking knowing that the answer will probably hurt him , but he needed to do it any way . 

"what wrong"

"huh"

"you seem off"

"oh sorry , I was thinking about somebody"

"who"

"my best friend, see am in love with him `smile"

Hurt "I see"

"but he love someone else"

"if that true maybe you shouldn’t love him anymore"

"I cant do that"

"why not"

"because , If you love someone truly deeply madly and from your heart and soul you can never forget that person and you cannot love anybody else the same way and nobody can take place of that someone special , and to me , to me that him " `smile` 

And as he thought it really hurt , being in love with someone who was madly in love with someone else .  

That night , for the first time in his life , hankyung cried himself out of pain ,tell he feel a sleep . 

Yunho end ------

I wonder what jae is doing right know hopefully naughty thing while thinking of me `ert Yunho up`

I got to my bed with yunjae sleeping next to me and I couldn’t help not to smile , I would really do anything for him , that is what love is all about right.

"I started working at some paper I still have left to finish , and I want to do them right know , so I opened the some files tell I got the file that jae give me , went on the paper tell one paper coat my eye the paper that said

~ birth certificate~.

Mother name : Kim jae joong .  father name : Jung Yunho

Baby name " moon bin .  date : September \6 \ 2006

Baby state : healthy baby boy

Full name : Jung Kim moon bin .

Doctor name : choi siwon .

What , my eyes were about to pop out of my skull , what the hell is the mean I ,need to now , and I needed to know it right now .

I picked up the phone trying to call jae but no answer , I went out of my room walking to his and I saw him by the elevator . 

"jae tell me is this true is it true " showing him the paper.

"how did you get this " pitting his lip

"tell me what is this jae "

"nothing it " I can clearly see the crystal tears form in his eye , and I knew it was true , but how is it even possible.

"is it "I yelled

"no , no it not `sob` it not true " . and he ran in to the elevator , as I fallow

"tell me" . he try to leave a gin but I cornered him , closing the door behind me .

"no were to run jae so spill it "

Pam .  

we heard some laud Pam in the elevator before the light went off and everything went