Jae pov:

Ok so lately everything is so missed up and everyone is so distant from each other , except me and yunho that man hand can't stop to find its way down my `sigh`  

"Come on jae am sorry please talk to him for me"  

"No, sorry but I can't help you, you did this you fix it " he grape my arm tight. 

"Let me go top I have work to do " `trying to get a way`  

"no not tell you say yes " 

"no , let me go " I yelled. 

"no" I tried to pull away but he was so strong , the next thing I know Bothe of us on the ground with him on top of me . 

"ahh it hurt" I whined  

Pam the door opened. 

I looked up and my eye wide , yunho and Jinki , were at the door , and for some reason I felt like I was cheating on him , as for Jinki I really hoped he wouldn’t miss understand , but too late , he all ready had tears in his eyes and the fail's in his hand were all over the floor , 

And he walked a way. 

"ya get off of me " and he did . 

" did it hurt"

"of course it hurt you jerk , now let go I have to go after Jinki , gad why are you so stupid " 

Jinki pov:

I ran to my office and sat at the window edge and I let my tears fall because  It really hurt to see him like that it so un-bearable and I know I know it probably not what it look like , but it hurt `tears` 

`why did it have to be so hard ` 

The door open and I knew it jae but I just hope I am wrong I hoped that he will run after me to stop me to tell me it not what I think , to wipe my tears a way  

"Jinki-ah it not what it look like I swear `almost teary`"  

I smiled a little " I know that , but `sob` why can't he see me " 

"Come here `hug` I know truss me I know but it will get butter I promise " 

"when " `sob` 

"I don’t know Jinki I don’t know" 

Top pov:

"…"

"Don’t give me that look yunho It not like that"  

"it butter cause jae is main , main alone got it "`I roll my eye` 

"so what wrong with you lately you and jinki look will off " 

"I'm an idiot" 

"will hallelujah it about time you know" 

"shut up yunho or am telling your mom about what really happy in your room whine we were 17 " 

"You wouldn’t"

"Try me " 

"…" 

"…" 

"I hate you" `smirk `     

 So tell me what happen between you 2 ""

"Will it along story " 

I got time " " 

A week later : 

Jae pov :

"what do you mean I have to leave today come on top I have a kid you know "   

"you can bring him with you me , Jinki ,yunho are going tow so " 

"but" 

"no but it finial it very important ok not just for me it will be great opportunity for you two jae " 

"what do you mean " 

"you'll be in charge of the shot" 

"oo what" 

" you'll be in charge of the shot , I saw some of your new disains and the look absolutely breathtaking so we deseeded to use some of theme " 

`huge smile` really , your not joking are you " 

"of couarse not the look awesome truss me that way we goanna go to cold so back up a lot of warm clothes ne" 

"were are we going any way" 

"the mountain" 

"oh why" 

"because I like it there" 

`rolling eye` 

"come on go finish work Ill drive you home so you can back up some stuff than well leave" 

"`sigh` fain" 

ten minute later : Nock, nock 

"come in , oh it you "

"aha did you miss me `smile`

"you wish" and I looked back at my computer screen .

"so what you doing"

"working"

"on "

"the new collection "

"why "

"because it impotent"

"why"

"`sigh` I really don’t have time for this yunho-shii `looking straight at him` if you want something just say it and leave "

"I want a kiss " oo

"w . . what "

"a kiss you know what a kiss is don’t you "

~major blush~ of course I know what a kiss is and am not goanna give you one so go away"

"but as I remember you didn’t main giving me one last month `smirk`

"that was, I mean I was , it was `studier` 

"it was what `leaning to me tell are lips brushed on each other and I couldn’t help but to be drown to him once again all thou my mind telling me not to but my heart is a complete different story `

"Drunk I was drunk"

"Really now"

"Hum"

"Am goanna kiss you know " `nod`

Ok am weak , I like kissing him it feels like million chocolate chip milt in my mouth and I liked it , I liked it too dame much , and I wanted and I needed it sue me am only human. `sigh`  

Yunho pov:

Hhh I am the happiest man a live right now , he kissed me a gain `smile` maybe just maybe it won't be too hard to win your heart back

Jae joong-ah `smile`   

At jae apartment building : 

"ok ill wait for you here go but don’t be late our flight will leave in two hours" 

"ok"

So I kept thinking of `our` yunjae making out `sigh` I love him , I love him not `sigh` I know I still feel a lot for him ok ,ok I still love him ok , god , but the hole I forgive him thing am having a problem with.

That kiss was awesome `BLUSHING like a little teenage girl`   

At the ally I saw someone I haven’t meet I weeks. 

"hyung" `smile`

"oh hi jae joong" 

"were have you been I haven’t seen you in days, I , I missed you hyung " `hug`

He bushed me gently of him , which was surprising he never dose this , he never done this . 

"hyung , did I do something to upset you"

"No"

"Then why are you like this, I mean why are you like this to me, you never call any more, you never come to dinner with us anymore did I do something wrong" 

"Nothing is wrong, you didn’t do anything wrong so let go ok" and started to walk to his apartment got the key out of his bucket and started to UN-lock the door. 

"no "I grape his hand "something is wrong and am not letting go tell you tell me " 

"let go of me jae you of all people wouldn't want to know " 

"why not

"

"because" 

"that not an answer hyung " 

"I don’t , `sigh` please don’t bush it , I don’t want to lose you so let me deal with it than ill tell you" 

"no , I want to know dam it were friend I tell you everything so it your turn now" 

"friend " 

"yes" 

"friend" 

"YES beast friend" 

"that is just it you now what the whole problem is , were friend" 

"what , you don’t want us so be friend" I felt scare my heart ached I don’t want to lose him he's my family.

"no I don’t want to be your friend jae , `breath` the truth is I am so sick and tired of being you friend , know why " 

I shook my head `no` 

"Because I love you dam it" 

"Huh" 

"I love you ok , am in love with you , I love you so much that my heart isliterally bursting out of my cheats `walking closer to me as I walked back` I love you to the point that I go insane if I didn’t see or talk to you for a moment ` closer`  I sometime find myself without me knowing thinking of you all day long and I hate it , I heat how you make me feel `closer` I hate that you don’t see how much I love you It  make me want to cry `closer` not a second goes by that I don’t wish that I cloud hold you `teary` protect you `too close` kiss you , make love to you , I love you wither it right or wrong I don’t care I love you " 

`my back hit the wall now am trapped between him and the wall and god knows I want to run to hid but I couldn’t my feet were too heavy with every word comes out of his mouth how come I didn’t know any of this, how come I didn’t see it , I hurt him without me knowing that I did and it hurt ` 

"I want you jae the hull you I want you with me not just as a friend but as a lover, as a boyfriend, no I want you as my wife jae I want to share my life with you so no I don’t ever want to be your friend because your have no idea how beautiful you are in my eyes". 

And before I can breathe he lend on and kiss me , he kissed me , all I could do is cry my tears just fall on it own I did love him , I would be a total lie if I said that I didn't have un-known felling for him but his , this never in million years crossed my main.

He Brock the kiss and walked out of the building. I just feel on the floor not knowing what to do . 

What is this mean .

Did I just lose my only friend.

What should I do .

Hyung , what should I do. 

In the park :

Siwon sat on , and start to think of what just happened. 

Siwon pov:

I don’t know what come over me , `sigh` , am not usually like this , am not the tip of person to lose it grip like this specially not to jae `sigh`

I just , this whole thing is too much for me to take , jae , jae is ,he is just , I don’t even know any more , am not sorry thou am really glad to get it out of my chest cause it been burning for so long it was almost killing me .

but still I want to cry , I want to cry so bad .

"auggghhhh why did it have to be like this " `tear` 

I wiped out the tears that come down on my face and I closed my eyes trying to stop the others from coming down.

"it not healthy you know .

"huh" I open my eyes and looked up and I could swear that this person in front of me is an angle .

" if you want to cry just cry `smile` " I just plinked my eyes at him , and for some reason he hugged me , the comment science if a stranger huge you , you bush theme a way but .

He felt so warm, and I needed warm,

"you know you can cry in my arm I wouldn’t main "

And I just hugged him back and did what I was told.

 I cried.

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i know am beeing to dromatic in this fic but it just the way it gose i do try to make it more lively but `sigh` it hopless , any way injoy ok and for gad saik live comment to i know what you think ok 

love you guy's comment are wanted .

always keep the faith

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