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Later that night

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I woke up in the middle of the night with a sharp pin in my stomach I felt like I was going to die I barely made it to the living room down stairs walking was like hell for me , I got down satires and I grape the phone and dialed siwon number .

"yaposayo "

"siwon aggggghhhhhh hel  ahh help m hh me please ahhh it ahh time aggghhhhhhhh " I couldn’t control it any more I sat on the floor screaming my lungs out thinking I was goanna die .

" jae hulled on I ll be right there " 10 hell full monument he was here

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At the hospital

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Ahhhhhhhhh  it hurt "a  tears roll down my pale whit face . " when the hell this baby is coming "..ahhhhhhhhhh  I screamed  in pain.

`tears`" JUNG YUNHO I HEAT YOU FOR DONG THIS TO ME" 

 "Don’t worry jae I promise it would be over soon just try to relax" siwon said trying to calmed down `didn’t work`

" YOU SIWON DON’T FUKING TELL ME TO ING RELAX IT ING HURT," `poor him I bet he didn’t see that one coming `

`Crying` yunho I need you.

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A few hours later  

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Wahhh wahhh I heard a baby cry " good gob jae it a healthy baby boy " siwon said "here" he tried to give him to me but I shook my head no

"Come on jae don’t be like this I know you want to see him after all it your baby"

"No" I kept saying, he sat next to be and squeeze my hand a little

"Jae don’t you want see him, holed him, feel him, you give birth to him he's your miracle, so what stopping you?"

`Tears poor down my eyes` "am scared" `sob`

"of what "

"`Sob` am scared of loving him" `silly ha `

"Pabo, you already love him"

"no I don’t " `no mater how hard I tried I knew it was a lie`

" if you didn’t you won't be crying right now so here " and he just put him in my arms

" `sigh` siwan why are you doing this to me " closing my eyes not looking at him

" because am not just your doctor jae , am your friend too , so as your friend look at him , or do you want to regret this for the rest of your life , I know you would `"

I knew he was right so I did it I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him.

 " he's beautiful ` sob` he's so tiny `sob` and `sob`look his hand arw so small hhh omo `sob` hes just , he's just perfect `sob` " but sion just smiled.

and I knew I knew the moment I saw him that I could do this , I could do it I can do this, no  I want do this , it the last thing , the last good thing that yunho gave to me , and am goanna cherishes him am goanna love him and am goanna   , protect him from everything even yunho ,Speciallye   yunho this baby was main and main alone no one else

"I want keep him `sob` siwon I want keep `sob 'him " he smiled at me

" I ll help you "

"really"

" of course were friends aren't we  and what is friends for ha "

"thank you siwon , but I can't rise   him here not in this place not in this village , I want him to have a differently for me I want him to have an actual shot in something I want go to Seoul will you help me please " holding my son close to my heart .

"of course `smile ` actually I was planning to go there see I got this job and I'll  be more than happy if you come along "

"Thank you ` sob` so much "

"So what this litter guy name?"

"umm I really haven’t thought of anything I wasn’t planning to keep him you know " `laughing nervously `

"oh I see "

"will there is this name ?" I wasn't really sure 

"Tell me" 

"What do you think of moon bin" I asked `nervously `  

" I think it great "

"really" 

"really" 

"ok thane hello their moon bin, am the one who was giving you all the ice-cream hhh , you might not believe me but I have dreamed about you my whole life , your my dream baby so welcome to the world Jung Kim moon bin " 

I felt like the world has given me something to be grateful for, and that's was him my preaches child. And he was the best thing that ever happened to me.why because he was so perfect.

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