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4 months later

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 God am so happy that man can do wonder to my heart even after all this time he still made me happy excited blushing and giggling to myself like a high school girl `shame on you jae joong grow up `

But I miss him he hadn’t been here lately he promise to come on this week end he didn’t I really miss him.

When I got home he was there standing on the balcony he looked sad but I thought maybe cause he's tired or something so I ran to him holding him tight

"Yuniee I missed you" and was like jummping on him  I pike his lips butI can tell something was wrong but I didn't want to ask I want him to tell me in his one time, he pull himself away from me

"What wrong yuniee" he never pull himself from me before now I really  want to know what wrong, he hold my hand and looked me in the eye and said

"I need to tell you something, but I need you to listen to me before you do anything else `sigh` " he was scaring me, a lot

"What wrong are you all right are you sick do you need anything"

"No baby am fain,, but I did something ,, something really bad "

"It ok you can tell me" smiling to him

"jae I .`baiting his lip` I got marred " did he just say that , that…

"ha-ha very funny yuniee tell me seriously what wrong " please tell me you were joking `I hoped `

"am not joking jae I got married on Saturday , " and I saw it a golden ring shining on his finger , I pulled my hand away from his

"Please tell `teary` tell me your lying "

"Am so sorry Jae I'm not lying ` sob` please forgive me "forgive I  ...

"Why ` sob` why yunho `sob` why?" I want to know maybe his parents forces  him or something, or maybe it his dying grandpa last wish or maybe aliens' brine washed him or something anything.    

"She was an old girl friend we met and I don’t now , she got pregnant with my child " ` he voice was cracking`   pregnant I felt like someone just stab me right in the heart

"When. How. WHY?" I screamed at him I really needed an answer a really dam good one .

"she was 3 month pregnant so I have to marry her jae please understand please I didn’t have a choice "

"`Understand `tears` what there to understand yunho you `tears ` you,,, had no choice you ing kidding me you ,, you `sob` " I really didn’t know what to say he betray me .. He tried to hold me but I bushed him away

"Don’t touch me "
 

"Jae"

 "so what now `sob` you expect me  to congratulate you , is `sob` that it "I started crying like a little baby, every word he said was hiting me like lightning.

"I really need you right now jae please please" he was begging but it too late.

"Need me `sob` you don’t need me anymore GO , `sob` GO BACK TO YOUR WI .. wife and `sob` child " why yunho why

"I don’t love her jae I love you "

"huh love me `sob` you .. you lied to me yunho , you cheated on me , `sob` YOU BROKE MY HEART  ` heavily breath` all in one day .."

"please I wanna be with you " I can't , too late

"it `sob` too late for that, Go i don’t want you here anymore go, go on live `sob` leave me alone GO " no more `I thought`  

"Jae I … `tears` it was am mistake please I love you "crying for what , what was he crying for .

"Then why did you do it ha why WHY WHY WHY WASN’T I ENOGH, DIDN’T I  LOVE you ENOGH, HOW.. HOW COLDE YOU HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME `crying even harder"

"I'm sorry it just I,,` sob` I was drunk didn't know what happen am sorry , it was just a mistake "

"to late `sob` to late `sob` it a little too late for you come 'sob` come back ,you think `sob` it just a mistake and ill forgive you like that , will you though wrong ` sob` I ll never forgive you never " and just like that we were over .

I walked pass him to the glass door he tried to hold me but I just pushed him away I couldn’t I just couldn't stand his touch anymore. got to the house and closed the glass door and lucked it `like my heart` , he stood there pigging me to open it but I wouldn't , I just stood there watching him watching me cry and I had enough so I drooped the curtness down watching his face fade away behind the glass for the last time .

I shouldn’t have done that

I should have pretended not to know

Like I didn’t see it, like a couldn't see it

I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place.

I should have run away, I should have pretended I wasn’t listening

Like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it

I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place. 

Without a word you made me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took my breath and ran away just like that.

Without a word you made me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took my breath and ran away just like that

Leaving me wondering what to say next, my lips were surprise

Because it came without a word. 

Why does it hurt so much?

Why does it hurt continually?

Except for the fact I can't see you anymore

And you're not here any more.

Without a word loves lift me

Without a word love abandon me

Otherwise it the same as before

I shouldn’t have done that

I shouldn’t have pretended not to know

Like I didn’t see it, like a couldn't see it

I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place.

I cryed like a baby ` it not fair yunho `tears it ` not fair,, I love you . I `tears` love you .

good bye yunho

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my next up will be little late sorry but it like am not in the mood to wrrite thiese dayes so i hope you'll understand any way please comment ok wish me luck 

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