So we all went back to the dorm and started preparing for dinner, it took us a while since we had to make food for 16 persons. We weren’t exactly the average Korean family with like four persons. But after like three hours dinner was completely done and we could all sit down and enjoy the food and the company. I observed the boys while they ate and talked happily with each other, I really loved all 15 of them to bits, even though it was only Heechul that really was my brother, well at least on paper, all of them felt like my brothers. It was a bit strange thinking that one day we weren’t gonna live all of us together, we were bound to start our own families one day. I kinda hoped that it wouldn’t happen anytime soon, I loved this family way too much.

“So, Chelsea, me and Kangin have to tell you something important” Kibum then said and everybody turned silent and I got really worried

“Kibum and I are going to the army next week on Saturday” Kangin continued and I felt my whole world fall apart, the army!? WHAT!? Okey I knew that they were bound to go sooner or later I mean all my boys have to go to the army, but I just wasn’t prepared for it just yet. God they couldn’t go to the army! They just couldn’t!!

“I do not approve! You can’t! I won’t let you!” I exclaimed and then I felt how my eyes got all misty and soon tears were rolling down my cheeks, how could they leave me like this!? I needed all my oppas!

“I’m sorry sweetie but this is not our choice cuz if it was then we would stay here with you” Kibum said and kneeled down beside my chair and hugged me tightly

“It’s not fair!” I cried out and buried my face in his neck

“We know, but don’t worry, two years will fly by and we will come to visit and you can come and visit us” Kangin said from behind trying to cheer me up but I was heartbroken

“It won’t fly by!” I exclaimed and pushed Kibum away from me and ran out to the hallway and started to put on my shoes and jacket, I needed to get out of there

“Chelsea don’t go, it’s just as hard for them as it is for you” Heechul said who had gone after me

“Please oppa, I just need to get out of here so that I can think clearly” I said pleadingly and Heechul nodded

“Okey but can you tell me where you’re going?” he asked and I thought about it, when I was really down and just couldn’t seem to stop crying there was one person that always managed to calm me down and make me feel happier and that person was GD.

“Jiyong” I said simply and Heechul nodded in understanding

“What I thought then, but be careful” he told me and I hugged him

“I will” I said before I left, well out on the street I caught a cab and told him the directions to Big Bang’s dorm I really hoped that they had came home from Busan early tonight. I really needed to talk to Jiyong. I needed him to tell me that everything was going to be alright.

 First time I had met GD I was six years old and he was thirteen and I didn’t like him at all and I was just as I used to be with people I didn’t know or didn’t really like. I was really arrogant and cold towards him. But then one day about a year ago I had been having a major fight with JR over his girlfriend that he had during that time. I was in love with him then and had been for a long time and I really didn’t like his girlfriend and I told him that and he got really angry so then I got really angry and left the room crying. The same day I was with Super Junior at music bank as they were going to perform there and Big Bang was there as well and I was sitting backstage alone crying in a dressing room while everybody was preparing and GD passed by the dressing room and spotted me there crying.

Flashback

“Hey there, how is it?” a pretty familiar voice asked me and I tried to dry my tears and looked up to see who it was, it was GD, Big Bang’s leader G-Dragon, I had never really liked the guy to be honest

“I’m fine” I said and desperately tried to stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks

“Suuuure you are” he said and placed himself next to me “What’s wrong?” he questioned sounding very concerned actually, it surprised me a bit cuz I had never thought that GD could be concerned about anyone

“I told you I’m fine” I replied

“Okey, if you’re fine then why are you crying?” he asked and raised a brow

“Allergy” I said but he just looked at me in disbelief and amusement

“If that’s so then you have one hell of an allergy” GD said and chuckled “It’s cool if you don’t feel like spilling your heart out to me, I understand that but it’s just that I hate girls that cry” he said and I felt a bit guilty by the fact that tears were flooding down my cheeks, I had never fought like this with JR before

“I’m sorry” I replied sadly and looked at him apologetically but then I heard how Orange Caramel’s song Bangkok city started to play, the song that JR had been in the music video for and I let out a big sob and then GD surprised me by wrapping his arms around me and hugging me tightly

“Whatever it is it’ll be okey” he tried to assure me but I just buried my face in his chest and cried and cried “Please don’t cry, it breaks my heart” GD continued almost begging, I looked up at him and saw the worry in his eyes and I really felt that I saw a different side of GD, it wasn’t that tuff and cool guy anymore, now he was a really sweet guy, maybe I got to see Jiyong and not GD...  “I’m a very good listener you know” he then told me and in that moment I felt that I could tell him, or I felt that I wanted to tell him

“JR and I had a major fight” I started and more tears rolled down my cheeks causing me to stop talking

“Your boyfriend?” GD questioned but I shook my head

“No, my best friend, but I am in love with him and have been since I was like six years old or something” I said and GD looked at me understanding

“Oh, so what did you guys fight about?”

“About his girlfriend, she had made him to cancel on me and Baekho, our other best friend, and I told JR that she was taking him away more and more from us and that neither me or Baekho liked that and I told him that he shouldn’t be with her and that I didn’t liked her. So he got really mad at me and started yelling at me and I yelled back and well here I am now” I said and then I buried my face in GD’s chest again as the tears flooded once more and I didn’t want GD to see it

“I see, did you tell JR why you didn’t like her?” GD questioned and I shook my head “Maybe he would have understood if you had told him?” he continued and I looked up at him again

“He loves that girl so if I had told him it would only have caused tension in our relationship and if she would find out she would probably prevent me from seeing him. And I can’t lose him as my friend. GD we have been best friend’s our whole lives and I love him so much, so I simply can’t lose him.” I said and GD nodded

“First of all please call me Jiyong or oppa or Jiyong oppa, GD are for fans and people that don’t know me that well and aren’t important to me, and second I understand that you don’t want to lose him but if it makes you feel this bad and you don’t want to tell him how you feel then maybe you should take a break from him and give yourself some time to fall out of love with him and then after that you can come back to him” GD said and what he had said actually did make sense but I knew that I was never going to be able to do that.

“I’ll never be able to do that” I said sadly

“Maybe just a short break then? Let him calm down a bit by himself and realize that you guys are just as important as his girlfriend”

“I could probably do that, but it will be very hard, I see him every day” I told GD who I saw started thinking

“Listen I’m about to go to New York to record my solo album and will be away for about a month, why don’t you come with me?” GD asked and smiled and I just looked at him in disbelief

“Seriously?” I questioned and he nodded

“Yes, seriously, you need to come away from Seoul and I have always liked you and wanting to get to know you but just as Heechul you’ve always been so arrogant and cold towards me and making it clear that you don’t want to be my friend but I have seen another side of you today so I hope that you have changed your idea about me and if not, forget that I even asked you to come” he said seriously and I felt a bit bad over the fact that I had treated him that way, but just as Heechul I was really afraid of showing people that I didn’t know that well my true emotions and I was terrified of getting hurt. But if I knew a person it was completely different

“Heechul won’t let me go” I told GD and he smiled a bit

“If I persuade Heechul to let you go with me then will you?” he asked hopefully and I nodded

“Yes, if you manage to do that then I believe that I have to go with you cuz it isn’t all too easy to talk Heechul into something like that” I said and GD chuckled and then he kissed me on the cheek

“Believe me I will manage, just leave it all to Jiyong oppa” he said and smiled

End of flashback

GD did in some miraculous way manage to persuade Heechul that I should go with him to New York. So one week later I went with GD to New York and we really bonded during the time that we were away. Jiyong really is a wonderful person. Before that I had seen the side of him that all the fans saw, G-Dragon, the leader of Big Bang, the tuff and cool guy that seemed a bit like a rude gangster at times. But the side that I got to see while we were away was a side that not a lot of people saw; I got to see Jiyong, the sweet and caring guy that would do anything for his loved ones. For me GD and Jiyong are two completely different persons. And in a matter of only a little more than a year Jiyong and I became very close and now I loved him to bits and he was one of the persons that I trusted the most. It was strange how a person could come to mean so much to you during such a short amount of time when it took other’s several years to mean just as much to you.

After leaving Super Junior’s dorm it only took me about fifteen minutes to reach Big Bang’s dorm. I ran up the stairs quickly and reached the dorm within two minutes. I knocked firmly and I heard how someone started to walk towards the door, well at least they were home, and I was really hoping that Jiyong would be among them and that he hadn’t gone to the studio or something. Then Taeyang opened the door and looked at me confused.

“Chelsea? Sweetie what are you doing here?” he asked me worried

“Is Jiyong oppa here?” I asked him and he shook his head

“I’m sorry, he’s at the studio but I can call him for you” Taeyang offered but I shook my head

“No, I’ll go there, thanks” I said and hugged Taeyang, I knew that he wanted to know why I was crying but he didn’t ask cuz he knew that I needed Jiyong. So I went down and got out on the street and started walking towards YG that only was about five minutes from the dorm. When I got there I had to go into a toilet to dry my tears and make sure that I didn’t look too horrible before I went out to face the receptionist. She recognized me immediately and happily informed me in which studio Jiyong was. I thanked her and smiled at her weakly before I hurried up to where Jiyong was. When I got there I saw to my relief that he was alone in the room. I closed the door carefully after me but Jiyong had heard it so he turned around and when he saw that it was me a smile appeared in his face but then he saw that I had been crying so it quickly disappeared and he frowned and I knew that it wasn’t any idea to hide it anymore so my tears started to roll down my cheeks again.

“Oppa” I said weakly and tried to make my way towards him but I was so tired and felt that I was going to fall but luckily Jiyong was there and I was fast in his arms. He picked me up and placed himself on the sofa with me in his lap and with his arms around me. He started to rock me back and forth and tried to calm me down and soon I wasn’t sobbing so loudly anymore, Jiyong had such a calming effect on me

“What is it sweetie?” he after a while asked me concerned and I looked up at him and let out a big sigh and with that he knew that I was going to open up to him completely within just a second

“Kangin and Kibum are going to the army next week” I told him sadly

“Oh, I see”

“Yeah, and I don’t want them to go. I know that they were bound to go someday, you all are but I wasn’t prepared for it to happen this soon and it made me realize that one after one all my loved oppas will go to the army, one after one you will leave me. I was aware of that before but now with them leaving it became so real. You know all the persons that I love and care about are a part of me, they are on piece of me simply and now two pieces will go away and more will sooner or later. And I realize that now after this who knows when I will be whole again? You’re all gonna leave, there will always be some part of me missing. And I’m really afraid about that, I’m afraid that I might never get those pieces back. And even though I really do love Kangin and Kibum there are some people that I’m terrified about that they will leave and go to the army one day and oppa you’re one of them for sure. Kangin and Kibum leaving made me think that you will also leave one day and that along with Heechul, JR, Baekho. I don’t think that I can handle that Jiyong oppa, I simply can’t. I can’t live without you for two whole years, it’s impossible and I am terrified that that day will come sooner than I expect it and that I will just lose it and not be able to pull through” I said and Jiyong hugged me tightly and kissed my hair

“Yes honey we will go to the army one day, but we won’t go all at the same time, I promise you that when Heechul go I will stay with you and when I go Heechul will be there and when Baekho go JR will be there and when JR go Baekho will be there and so on, we will never leave you completely alone, never. And you have to know that no one of us is going to want to leave you, this is just simply something that we have to do. But believe me all the time that we’re away we will be missing you and wanting to go back. I will at least, so don’t think that you’ll never get a piece back that has left you. All of the pieces will be back one day, I can promise you that so don’t worry about this. And I can assure you that we that are home will take care of you so that you won’t miss them too much, well so that you at least won’t feel it too much. We will distract you from the fact that they’re gone and then they will come back sooner than you thought. So please don’t be too sad about this, it will only break our hearts when we have to leave” Jiyong told me

“Thanks Jiyong oppa, you always make me feel better no matter what, I don’t know how I will make it when you leave” I said but he just shook his head

“Don’t even think about it, that day is yet far” he assured me and smiled “and you know what, you have a lot of oppas that don’t need to go to the army as they’re born overseas!” Jiyong said happily “Kevin, Aron, Hangeng, Henry, Zhoumi and many others that I can’t think about now, so those pieces will always be there no matter what” he continued and it made me feel a bit better thinking about that.

“Seriously Jiyong oppa, if you leave for the army I will have to lock you up or something and in worst case I will have to murder you, they’re not going to take you away from me!” I exclaimed and Jiyong just chuckled at me

“You’re so sweet, but just one question, does Heechul know that you’re with me now?”

“Yes he does” I informed him and he looked relieved

“Good, but you look tired, we should sleep” Jiyong said and then he placed me on the sofa and went to get some blankets “I’ll sleep on the floor” he told me as I had laid myself down on the sofa

“NO!” I protested “You’re sleeping on the sofa with me” I continued and grabbed his arm and pulled him to the sofa, he shook his head but climbed in behind me and laid himself down and slung one arm around my waist and buried his face in my hair. It was nothing romantic about it at all it was just two best friends sleeping together at the same sofa.

“Good night Jiyong oppa, I love you” I told him and grabbed his hand and kissed it and then I kept the hand in mine

“Good night sweetie, love you too” Jiyong told me and lifted his head to kiss my cheek and then he settled down behind me once again and tightened the hold on me and I was soon fast asleep to his even breathing. Jiyong was my safe place, with him no one could touch me and I knew that he would always be there for me no matter what.

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The pic of GD <3

Stayed up till 3am last night just to write these two chapters for you guys so today I have been super tired and been having a major headache but it was so worth it! Cuz I love my subscribers and when I have inspiration I just can't seem to stop writing xD

And guys I have been thinking, if you could chose any idol, who would you want Chelsea to end up with? thinking about breaking her and JR up so if I do so, any suggestions? :)

Hope you liked these two updates :) comment? <3