I ran to YG still crying and I didn’t care if everybody looked at me strangely, thinking that I was absolutely crazy. I arrived and didn’t even bother to ask the woman in the reception where GD was. I just ran straight up to his studio and prayed that he would be there. When I reached the fourth floor I was panting and crying. I ran to GD’s studio and slammed the door open. Luckily he was in there. He turned around in surprise and when he saw me his face twisted.

“Chelsea? What is it?” he asked and hurried to me and pulled me into his arms hugging me tightly

“W-we g-got married” I stuttered and cried into his chest holding onto him with all my force, afraid that he might go away when I needed him the most

“What? We got married? Chelsea what happened? Who did they pair you up with?” he asked me softly and caressed my back. I lift up my head and looked into his eyes and let out a big sob

“JR” I said, it almost came out as a whisper but GD had heard me clearly, his eyes got wide and he grabbed me by the waist and led me to the sofa and sat down and pulled me down to his lap holding me tightly

“JR? Seriously?” he then asked me deeply concerned and I nodded

“I went to SM and there was the whole NU’EST and of course I panicked thinking that I might had been paired up with JR and then they told me it was him” I informed him and he sighed and caressed my cheek

“Did he know it was going to be you?” he then wondered and I shrugged

“I don’t know” I told him and he nodded “We pretended that we barely knew each other” I continued and sniffled

“Oh... how was that?” he asked frowning, he knew very well how close we used to be and how I loved hanging out with him, not only when we were together but also before, I mean we had been best friends for ages

“Horrible!” I cried out and buried my face in his chest “I just wanted him to hold me and tell me that everything was going to go back to normal” I continued sobbing, he tightened his hold of me and kissed my hair

“Will you go through with this?” he then asked me worriedly and I nodded

“I have to, I wrote a contract and all you know” I answered him and he sighed loudly

“But... I think the important question is if you actually want to go through with this?” he continued and yet again I nodded “Why? Why do you wanna torture yourself?” he wondered and I shrugged

“I miss him, and not only like my boyfriend but as my best friend and this is my only chance to be with him” I told GD

“But...” he started and then he stopped himself to think a bit before continuing “it won’t be like before, you will have tons of cameras around you so you have to pretend all the time, won’t that be hard?” he continued wondering

“There won’t be cameras ALL the time” I pointed out

“True but still... Chelsea is this really good for your mental health?” he asked, I pouted and hugged him tighter

“Maybe not, but there is no way out now” I stated “We will live together too” I told him and he looked surprised

“Seriously Chelsea?” he asked and I nodded

“From the day after tomorrow or something” I said, he sighed obviously not liking it at all

“I don’t like this idea” he told me sincerely and looked at me seriously

“Well I have to do this now” I stated and he sighed even louder

We sat quiet for a while. GD held me tightly in his arms and I could tell that he was thinking very hard. Thinking of a way to get me out of we got married. But he knew just as well as me that there was no way out. I had to do this. It felt good being in GD’s arms, I felt safe and I knew that I was going to endure this. I listened to hid heartbeats. GD’s beautiful heartbeats. But then I was reminded about something JR had said.

“He said that his comeback got in the way of our relationship so he had to break up, what did he mean with that?” I asked GD “Did Pledis tell him to break up with me? Or was it just something he said?” I continued and GD frowned

“I have seriously no idea sweetheart” he told me and kissed my hair and I sighed

“I miss him” It came out as a whisper

“And what about Hongki?” he asked and I let out another big sigh

“He’s a great guy and after this whole thing is over I’ll give him a fair chance” I told him and he nodded

“Good. It’s the right thing to do, maybe you and JR aren’t meant to be, you should just be thankful for the years you got with him” GD then said and I started to cry again

“But I miss my best friend!” I cried out and sobbed into GD’s chest “I MISS MY JUNIOR ROYAL!” I was in so much pain without him

“My poor little girl” he cooed and caressed my cheek “It’ll be fine, I promise” he continued hugging me tightly. I cried in his arms for a while till I started to feel really tired. Tired of crying, tired of my emotions, just tired of everything. GD didn’t say much, he just held me in his arms and let me cry my heart out.

“Oppa?” I after a while called out and GD looked at me wonderingly and concerned and caressed my cheek

“Yeah?”

“How should I act around him? I mean we are pretending to not know each other but he is just so carefree, he kissed my cheek today and then called me yeobo and all” I told GD and he frowned

“Act like that too then. Maybe that is the best way for you, to just act like you did before, no worries, it will just be hard to think about the past too much. Though I think you should talk to him off cameras about it” he said to me and took a strand of hair from my face and tucked it behind my hair, I snuggled up in his chest and thought about it.

“Maybe you’re right, I should talk to him about it” I told him and he nodded and kissed my hair

“Good, but now you should sleep, it’s getting late and you have school tomorrow” GD stated and I let out a groan in frustration

“Don’t remind me!” I whined causing him to chuckle

“Sorry” he said and then he laid us down on the sofa and wrapped his arms around my waist and started to sing Blue till I fell asleep.

The next day was pretty much a blur for me. I went to school as usual. Luckily there were no cameras in school, so there I didn’t need to pretend to be married to JR. And fortunately no rumours about us had been spread yet. So I was safe in school. Baekho walked up to me instantly when he saw me coming towards my lockers at the end of the day. It was a day that I didn’t have any lessons with him at all so I was really glad that I got to see him before I went to meet JR.

“Chels” he back hugged me and held onto me for a long while before he turned me around in his arms, he looked at me apologetically “I’m sorry you have to go through this” he told me sadly but I just smiled at him weakly

“Don’t worry Baekho, I’ll make it” I assured him but he obviously didn’t believe me as he frowned

“How did he act around you?” he then instead asked me

“Like he always does pretty much, though of course we pretended to not know each other” I informed him and he nodded

“I s that a good thing?” he wondered and I shrugged

“I don’t know, probably, it makes things less awkward I guess” I told him

“Yeah I guess, but it will go good sweetie, I promise, it’s only for some time and after that you don’t ever need to see him again if you don’t want to” he said comfortingly and I hugged him tightly

“Thanks, I am so incredibly glad that I have you in my life Baekho” I said and got out of his grip and stretched up on my toes to kiss hi cheek

“Me too sweetie, but what are you doing now?” he asked me and my face twisted

“I’m gonna get married to my ex boyfriend” I informed him and his face twisted as well

“Well... good luck I guess” he told me and I nodded

“Thanks, I got to go now, love you!” I yelled and started to run towards the exit, Heechul was picking me up

“Love you too sweetie!” he called after me and I ran out to the yard where Heechul was waiting.

The rest of the day was just a big NO COMMENT! JR acted just like the day before, so carefree and though it bothered me a lot I tried to act like that as well. If I acted y or something they would just start hating me and that was the last thing I needed. But JR and I were going to have some sort of wedding ceremony. In less than an hour I was “married” to my ex boyfriend and then it was time for photos. I hated every second of it. I hated that it was fake. I had always imagined myself marry him for real. And now, it was all fake. He didn’t marry me because he loved me; he married me because he had to.

When I arrived at Super Junior’s dorm after the horrible afternoon I went straight to my room. But as the members are extremely overprotective and always worry about me I wasn’t left alone for a long time. One minute I would believe. It was Donghae which wasn’t too surprising. He laid down on the bed right next to me. At start both of just stared up at the ceiling without saying anything

“How did it go today?” Donghae all of a sudden asked and turned around and propped himself up on one elbow and looked down at me, concern was to read all over his angelic looking face. I sighed and frowned and he gently caressed my cheek

“Good I guess, I barely saw him in school and I survived the whole wedding ceremony thing and the silly photo shoot” I told him and he smiled weakly at me

“Are you sure you can make this princess?” he wondered and I nodded

“Yeah, I promise, I will endure this” I assured him but as usual I don’t think that he was very convinced

“You seriously don’t need to do this” he then said to me and I sighed

“Donghae that’s the thing, I do need to do this! I wrote a contract, remember!?” I said starting to get upset. Donghae then stayed quiet and lay down again and pulled me to his body and wrapped his strong arms around me. I turned around in his arms so that I was facing him and leant my head to his chest. Donghae’s arms were also a place where I felt completely safe. He then started to sing for me. No other, my favourite Super Junior song and soon I was fast asleep.

The next day was the day JR and I were going to move into a house together. I didn’t know what to feel. I was now going to live with him for a couple of weeks or even months. It was gonna feel so weird. To see him all the time and to not being able to act like before. I arrived at the house at the late afternoon with my bags and went inside. It was a really beautiful house. I was there before JR so I looked around by myself. Unfortunately there was only one bed. And the sofas weren’t so comfortable so that you could sleep on them. Before JR and I always slept on the same bed. Also before we got together. It was our thing, that way he could easily hold me if I had a nightmare or something. It was going to be weird if I had to share the bed with him again after all that had happened. I sat down on the bed and sighed. I really didn’t like this.

On air

“Hey yeobo!” JR’s voice sounded through the room and I looked up and found him standing in the door looking at me smiling, I forced a smile in return

“Hello JR” I greeted him and he sat down next to me on the bed

“Are you excited about moving in together?” he then asked me happily

“Well, it sure is gonna be interesting” I told him and he nodded and looked around in the room “There is only one bed here” I continued and looked at his reaction, it didn’t seem to bother him at all

“Oh, are you okay with that?” he wondered and I shrugged

“Do I have a choice?” I questioned and he shook his head chuckling

“I guess not, though I could sleep on the sofa or the floor if that would make you feel more comfortable” he said to me

“Don’t worry about it JR, it’ll go well” I assured him, even though I wasn’t sure at all that it was gonna go well, at least we weren’t gonna be filmed the whole night, so after the cameras were off I didn’t need to pretend if I didn’t want to.

“Okey good!” he exclaimed and the he jumped up on his feet and grabbed my hand in his and dragged me up with him “Let’s unpack!” he suggested and I smiled and nodded

“Sure” I said and went to get my bag and he followed to get his, when we returned to the bedroom we stood silent for a while, the thing is, it wasn’t an awkward silence. We had always been comfortable being silent with each other. I just hoped that it didn’t show on TV that we were so comfortable around one another.

“So what do you think about NU’EST?” JR then all of a sudden asked me while he picked up one of my favourite shirts on him, I looked at it and caught myself smiling when I thought about all the times I remembered him wearing it “Yeobo?” he asked and waved his hand in front of my face making me snap back to reality

“Oh sorry, I got lost in my own thoughts” I answered and I could see JR observing me trying to read my face “But I like NU’EST, you have good songs and I like you guys as person, I mean I have classes with Baekho, Ren and Aron and I like them a lot” I told him and he nodded, after all he knew how close I was to Baekho but also to Ren and Aron.

“Yeah they’re cool” he agreed “So what’s your favourite song this far?” he wondered

“Face, it’s just awesome” I told him sincerely

“Cool, but I guess no group could ever beat Super Junior, huh?” he asked and grinned

“Yeah, they’re always gonna be number one in my heart” I said instantly smiling when I thought about them, how I wish I could be home with them.

“I understand that” he said and then it got silent again

It took us about another twenty minutes to unpack everything. Now and then we said a couple of words to each other but mostly it was quiet. But we like silence. We didn’t need to fill every single second with meaningless talk. We just enjoyed being with each other. Which was really painful for me when we hadn’t been together like this in many months. After we were done we went out to the living room where we found a letter to us on the table. I picked it up.

“What does it say?” JR wondered curiously and tried to read over my shoulder

“It says that we have to make up house rules” I informed him and he nodded and sat down on the sofa

“Okey, that sounds good” he said and I sat down on the table so that I was facing him

“They left us some paper and a pen to write it down” I stated and picked up the little notebook and the pen

“I think the first rule should be no eating alone” JR then started and I nodded and wrote it down

“No leaving the clothes on the floor” I then continued and looked at JR that frowned, he always did that, and it always drove me crazy whether I was at his place or if he spent the night at my place

“Fine, and we help each other with the dishes” he said as before he was always the one who was forced to do the dishes

“And we cook together” I continued as that had always been my job, he always observed me while I cook and did nothing to help me, but that was gonna change

“No brutal wake ups” JR then said and I had to bite my lip very hard when he said that, JR was a very heavy sleeper so when I woke him up I did it quite brutally or else it wouldn’t work and he’d sleep all day  

“No teasing me about my length” I then said and now it was JR’s time to try not to laugh, he always bullied me because I was short

“Okey, and no crying!” he said and I looked at him confused

“Huh?”

“I hate girls that cry, if you ever have to cry then go lock yourself into the toilet or something cuz I won’t handle it” he told, I knew how much he hated to see me cry

“Yah! What kind of husband are you!? If your wife cries you have to comfort her!” I told him upset, if I was gonna pretend I didn’t knew him then at least I could be myself and have fun with it

“But, but” JR started but I shook my head and looked at him seriously

“The rule will be: when your wife cries you have to comfort her and don’t stop till she’s fine again” I said and started to write it down

“Yah! Why are you writing that!?” he then yelled at me

“I’m the wife and you should agree with everything I say!” I told him and continued to write it all down and he let out a groan in frustration “And if you break the rule you sleep on the floor” I continued making him pout

“Fine...” he muttered looking so adorable, god I missed him

“Mm! But we should continue this tomorrow, I’m tired” I then said and he nodded

“Yeah me too, let’s go to sleep” he agreed and we both stood up and went to our bedroom, I grabbed my PJ’s and went into the bathroom and washed up and got changed and brushed my teeth. When I came out JR had changed too, he smiled at me and then he went into the bathroom. I crawled up in the bed and laid my head down on the pillow. I was going to sleep on the same bed as him again. It felt so weird. But also good in a way. JR then came out from the toilet and crawled down next to me, he lay so that he was facing me a thing he always used to do.

“Good night yeobo” he then said and turned off the light

“Good night” I replied and then the cameras were turned off and they left our bedroom. We lay silent till we heard them leave and lock the apartment

“JR” I called out in the dark

“Yeah?” he answered

“How are you feeling about this?” I questioned him and then I heard him sigh

“I miss you” he whispered so quietly that I almost didn’t hear him and I was shocked “A lot” he continued and I honestly didn’t know what to say. He missed me...

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Sorry for the wait! It's just that I have so much in school! I even had a stress attack last week so bare with me! I'l try to write more but I can't promsie anything as school takes up most of my time :(

But I hoped you enjoyed this! I love you all and thanks for staying with me! And your comments are the best! It makes me wanna write more! <3<3