CHAPTER 15: FINALE
TANGENT | A JINJOO AU-MINJOO’s POV-
5 years had passed. My memories of who Yujin is not that clear anymore. I don’t even know if her name is Yujin but I guess so because her name is written in this music sheet of Chaewon’s song. That night I lose two of the people I have love the most in this life and as far as I remember Yujin flee off to her own body.
To make everything clear, Eunbi told me everything before Yujin could ever wake up from the comatose but I refused believe her at first. At first, I just think that she’s a product of my imagination because of the longing I have for Chaewon. A defend mechanism that was made by my mind to console myself from Chaewon’s tragedy but everything leads to what she said.
Day by day, I can’t feel Chaewon’s presence anymore. Even if I see her in front of me. Yujin’s really far from Chaewon. She has done things Chaewon can’t and won’t do. When that realization hit me I know I had lost the one who I’ve married. The pain from it didn’t last long, Yujin is there or whoever she is that stayed for 6 months in Chaewon’s body I have felt love and had given my love for her too.
The night that she saw me crying at the library, Eunbi gave me a chance to bid good bye to Chaewon. I saw her that night and the realization I need to accept everything that is rapidly passing in front of my eyes. Yujin didn’t even question why I’m not even one of her mission. I can say that she really succeeded, she made me Chaewon happy by giving me the happiness my past love wishes for me.But Chaewon will always have her own part in my heart but she gave a big piece of it to Yujin.
I saw the real Yujin since then. She’s really beautiful and looks more alive than the one I saw lying in the hospital bed. I’m not seeing Chaewon and everybody except me, sees Yujin. I didn’t feel any foreign feeling towards her, that’s where I realized that I really do love Yujin. It felt like I have been with her all of my life. I know I’ll still keep on falling for her even if that magic didn’t happen that night. I wasn’t ready for the fact that I need let go of her.
Eunbi told me that I should bring to the hospital where her own body is. But I refuse to, that’s why I lock myself and ignore anyone for days before I realized that Yujin is not for me to keep. I knew deep in her heart she wanted to stay with me but that made me feel worst. I felt that she’ll decide to stay and I don’t want her mind to change but I need to defeat myself from being selfish.
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