Chapter 63

Before Her Very Eyes

So, Arin…” was the first thing that Jun said when she picked up the phone. “How do you feel?”

“Different,” was Arin’s answer. Jun immediately understood what she meant; after all, he was feeling exactly the same way.

Are you absolutely sure you have feelings for Woozi?”

“I… I don’t know,” Arin answered as she looked at Woozi, who was watching her talk on the phone.

Then let’s find out. I’m close to the car now. Ask Woozi to put on the cuffs and the gag, and we’ll try the potion again.”

After she was cuffed and gagged, Jun entered the car cautiously.

Jun did not look as beautiful to her eyes as he did before. When she thought back to her past week with him, all of the lovey-dovey words and intense make-out sessions, it all felt like part of a strange dream.

Still, even if there were no intense feelings of infatuation anymore, she cared about him. still ached to say his name.

Jun and Arin couldn’t even look one another in the eye. It was extremely awkward to fall out of love so quickly, although the memory of being in love was still there, fresh in their hearts.

“I have the potion,” Jun said, taking out a small vial from his pocket. “I’ll… ummm… I’ll try to put it in your mouth?”

Arin didn’t know what she wished would happen anymore. Did she want to be in love with him or not? She still wanted to be useful during extraction sessions, but she also didn’t want her heart to be trapped anymore.

Arin locked her eyes with his and faced him properly. He took a toothpick from the vial and put it in from under the gag so it touched her tongue. He pulled it out when her body showed the signs of reacting and nervously waited for it to take effect.

When Arin got over the tremor and faced Jun, she felt exactly the same; there was no “love” in the romantic sense of the term like there should have been.

“Well?” Jun asked.

Arin just shook her head, and Jun understood immediately.

Arin was still herself trying to process what it meant that the potion wasn’t working anymore. Was her heart already occupied by Woozi? She definitely felt fondness for Woozi, but did she love him in the deep, intense way that the potion spurred?

It was definitely a different feeling from the potion’s love. The potion’s love was fondness, infatuation, care and intense attraction. But with Woozi, it was mostly an earnest fondness that had the potential to grow. It occupied the part of her heart that could turn into love, but it was enough to render the potion idle.

Jun sighed heavily. “Well… that’s a problem. I’m worried about what this means for Larali, but I guess it can’t be helped.”

Watching from the front seat was Woozi, who definitely did not understand what was happening. “What’s wrong?” Woozi asked, facing Jun.

Jun looked between Woozi and Arin, then turned to Arin again with an earnest look in his eyes. “Are you sure it’s him though”

Who else could it have been? There was no one else that it could have been. No one else could have blocked out the effects of the potion. He was her soulmate after all.

Jun did not wait for Arin to answer. Just watching the way Arin looked at Woozi was enough for him. “I guess I’ll be on my way now,” Jun said. “I believe you two have some things to sort out.”

“What is going on?” Woozi asked, clueless.

“Just ask her when I’m gone. She’ll tell you.” Jun turned to Arin. “Well, Arin, it was fun while it lasted.” He leaned forward, and quickly kissed her cheek, then turned for the door. “Bye!”

Arin watched him through the window as he left the car and walked around the corner, out of sight. Meanwhile, Woozi got into the backseat with Arin, where he began to unlock the handcuffs and take off the gag.

It was then that she faced him. She had to examine her own feelings for him before she could know what to tell him. He was looking at her with curiosity, waiting for her to answer the lingering questions she knew he had.

“The potion didn’t work,” Arin said to him.

“Why not?”

“I… I don’t know exactly, but it has something to do with you.”

Woozi tilted his head to the side. “What do you mean?”

“A love potion doesn’t work when you have feelings for someone else,” Arin answered.

She knew he would understand what she was implying. She watched as his expression changed. Lines formed between his eyebrows, like he was surprised and confused. “So… are you saying that you have feelings for… for me?”

Arin nodded, but Woozi did not look convinced.

“Then that thing with Jun...”

“It’s over. It was all the potion, and when the potion faded, my real feelings came to the surface.”

“Okay.” He still did not look convinced. “What about Jeonghan?” Woozi asked. “The spark between you is not just a potion and you know it.”

Arin opened to reply, but then closed it and shook her head. She didn’t know what to say in response to that, because it was true. Jeonghan occupied some space in her heart that she couldn’t explain, and it was not the potion who made her feel that way. She cared about Jeonghan, and she was attracted to him, with or without the potion.

However, it was different with Woozi. She loved being with Woozi, but being with Jeonghan was mentally taxing and gave her this unpleasant feeling in the pit of her stomach. It was only recently that she stopped hating him, and the symptoms of that hatred still showed up no matter how much she came to care about him, and no matter how much she told herself that he could not help the way he was.

With Woozi, she just felt like she always wanted to be with him. With Jeonghan, she hated herself, but with Woozi, who saw her so beautifully, she felt more confident in herself than ever before. She felt happy with him in ways she never thought possible since she was cursed.

“With Jeonghan, it’s not the same,” Arin said with a shrug. “With you… I…” Arin hesitated and swallowed her words. She didn’t want to say them. They felt too dangerous to say out loud.

She glanced at her bracelet. Still white.

“I think… maybe… maybe I love you,” she said, resigning herself to the feeling.

Woozi’s showed no clear reaction. His face didn’t change, but he held her gaze for a few seconds.

“I’m sorry,” Arin said, looking away, embarrassed. “Not the time or place. You’re looking for a murderer, and here I am confessing...”

Woozi silenced her when he put his lips over hers and kissed her softly as his hand caressed her cheek. He pulled his head back shortly, but kept his hand on her cheek, moving his thumb up and down her skin.

“I love you too,” Woozi said softly. She held his gaze for a moment, and he leaned his forehead against hers. “I can’t believe this is happening,” he said.

His breath sent shivers across her skin, and his touch made her crave more of him. He was holding back though, and she could tell. He would not kiss her again, even though he was looking at her lips like he wanted to. She wanted him to, but he stayed in place, like he wasn’t sure if he should.

She could hear his breath get louder, like his breath couldn’t catch up with his thoughts and sensations. She could feel him start to pull back, but she didn’t want that.

She put her hands behind his neck and pulled him toward her, closing the distance between their lips herself.

Even though there was no magic, it was still the most magical thing she had ever experienced.

 

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Shinspirit1326
#1
Chapter 73: Hi authornim! I can't believe that I finished it within one seating but that was how hooked I was in your story. The characters were written so well. Their arc have always been engaging and they were justified according to their decisions and various unintended circumstances. I've been an avid fan of your writing since Heart of Ice and I want to say that you're a marvelous writer! I did not expect myself to root for Jeonghan as Arin's lover because he was awful with her in the first place but you managed to make your readers understand the complexity of his character and his situation in the story. The ending was bittersweet for me and it that in love, there would always be a person who is bound to get hurt. I was delighted when you revealed the truth about Arin's soulmate. The chemistry between Jeonghan and Arin was all over the place and I can feel it in my bones even if their scenes were written only in sentences and paragraphs. I never felt the tension and longing when she's with Woozi. It felt forced and abrupt that it didn't click. But with Jeonghan, it was like they're a perfect puzzle piece to each other, even with the curses that they had. I even found myself tearing up when he brought her a limited edition album of Chilli. That shows how much he loved her. This is my most favorite story of yours! Thank you very much for sharing it to us and I can't wait to read your upcoming Joshua fanfic.
waee09 #2
Chapter 72: How. Is. This. Not. A. Hollywood. Blockbuster. Yet.?!?!?! Someone , anyone.... THIS NEEDS TO BE A MOVIE!!! it's a work of art! So so so souch appreciation and love for this. Thank you so much authornim! Thank you thank you for this masterpiece! Really injected a bit of life into my grey real life. Thank you!
waee09 #3
Chapter 71: W.T.F I read this in 1 seating... it's been a good 4 to 5 hours.... your writing and storyline, so magical, i was hooked for the first word. BUT THIS CHAPTER OHMAAAAAIGAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!
Soraya6 #4
Chapter 73: I was not expecting Woozi's POV but I'm glad we got to know more about his character, as he has been intriguing for most part of the story! This is a great closure that give us both insight on Arin and Jeonghan's relationship after the end of the story, and lets us know that Woozi is a good person that deserves to be happy as well. Thank you for this special chapter! I
waee09 #5
Chapter 33: What a sweet heart our Jun
BlueVerse
#6
Chapter 73: I sure wasn't expecting Woozi's POV! But after a thought, his true intentions were never really confirmed, or revealed rather, until the last few chapters... so this special chapter definitely gives his character some justice! I think it's a perfect chapter. It really proved the kind of person Woozi is, if not the person he's grown to be after everything. He did what he felt was right to do even if he had to set his personal feelings aside and that's also like making up for his past wrongs, toward Arin specifically. And with it he learned how to truly love someone, regardless of whether or not he's with her. It's sad but very sweet.

As for Jeonghan and Arin, of course, getting together didn't mean the challenges in their way were over, their insecurities they got from the years of being in such situations really showed throughout this and it's honestly realistic. I love it. She lost her confidence and so did he, but I know they can gain it back together! It made me kind of sad though because Arin should've known that the uncursed Jeonghan was the real Jeonghan, the one who fought through his curse for years and loved her, not because she was the only girl around him... (If I know at this point she is his entire world and he said himself he didn't want it any other way and that's absolutely sweet) but I get that she just wanted him to experience too what the world outside was like now that he could. They just needed more time to adjust and to learn the new way of communicating with each other and thank god for Woozi!
Magical_Girl #7
Chapter 73: Omg author-nim you've no idea how much I miss seeing your updates and how much I miss getting your comment replies ㅠㅠ it's the only thing which made me open my aff website after months

Btw istg I came for an Jihoon endgame since the beginning, but throughout the story I wanted Arin to end up with Jeonghan, and now I feel so hurt knowing why it's not Jihoon ;;

And ohh guess what I'm currently on my journey with heart of ice! ;)
tonnettie
#8
Chapter 73: Everyone needs a woozi in their life. He may made mistakes before, but man his self redemption is on another level
Gracegesang #9
Chapter 73: Woozi is such a good friend to Arin. Jeonghan and Arin are lucky to have him. Happy ending with Arin and Jeonghan now...Meemo too!