Chapter 57

Before Her Very Eyes

It was hard to gauge how she felt about this, especially now that she was in love with Jun and she couldn’t even think about what her true heart would be for someone else.

She didn’t say anything for a long time. She was afraid of saying the wrong thing, afraid of hurting him. Then she realized that saying nothing could also hurt him, and that just set off her anxiety as she began to squeeze her fingers through her gloves and run through a thousand different possibilities in her head.

He noticed. “I’m sorry for putting you in this position,” he said. “I’ll just… be on my way.”

He stood up and rushed out the front door. He didn’t even put on his shoes properly. He just left and slammed the door behind him.


Jun sent her a message that night.

Hi, he wrote. I’m thinking about you.

Arin smiled when she saw the message. The effects of the potion were still in full effect, and any acknowledgement from him was sure to make her heart race, even if she knew it would all fade away in the morning.

Hi, she wrote back. I’m thinking about you too.

It’s funny, isn’t it? How the potion can make you so in love with one person, but then, the day after, that love just disappears into thin air?

Yeah, it is. I got used to it though.

Do you ever feel like you want the love to last?

Sometimes. Other times, I just want it to stop.

Like when?

Right now, for example.


I want to sort out how I really feel about someone else, but the potion is putting up this huge wall and it’s not letting me see past you.

Is it Woozi?


Why are you only thinking about this now? You’ve known he was your soulmate long ago.

Arin paused. She didn’t think it was to tell him that Woozi confessed, and she felt like she owed him a response.

Did something happen? Jun added when she went idle for a while.

Kind of.

Well damn, I don’t know what happened, but I’m still jealous!

Don’t be. I still only love you!

Well, Woozi is still your soulmate.

But I don’t love him.

Not yet, but if you wake up in the morning, you might realize that you actually do.

You think?

Yeah. I’ve seen it in people I’ve matched so far. Falling in love takes a long time, but realizing you’re in love, that only takes a second. All it takes is one little thing. A kiss, a hug, a touch, a confession, a gift, even just a smile. A smile is enough.

Now I really want this potion to fade.

Wait. If you do realize that you love him, then the potion won’t work on you anymore.


And that’s a problem. A huge problem.

As Arin thought about it, she realized he was right. It was a problem. The potion wouldn’t work on someone who was already in love with another person, and MRS needed to use that potion to extract the maximum amount of magic. The problem was that love for Woozi did not trigger any magic at all, for better or for worse. That means falling in love with Woozi would render magical extraction from Arin’s love worthless. Essentially, it would significantly slow down the collection of magic, therefore postpone the reversal of Larali’s curse.

You should tell Hoshi about this.


Arin and Jun had to meet Hoshi at MRS that night, before the potion faded, in order for Arin to renew the dose before the potion faded.

“Sorry about this,” Jun told her as she put the toothpick in again, looking at Jun. Her body shook, and just like that, Arin would be in love with Jun again.

“Arin,” Hoshi told her. “From now on, You’ll have to always stay under the potion’s effect. We really can’t risk you falling in love with your soulmate. Not yet, at least. Not until we can save Larali.”

Arin understood that. She would do everything she could if it meant talking Larali out of that suicidal despair that her difficult curse had inflicted on her.

At the same time, she felt awfully uncomfortable about how she had given MRS the reins to her love. She couldn’t even choose who to love anymore

She wanted to fall out of the potion’s clutches so she can understand her heart for Woozi, so she can give him a fair response to his confession. Right now, all she could do was postpone it.


She wrote Woozi a lengthy message explaining what was going on, how she couldn’t properly respond to him, because she was under the potion’s effect and will be for the foreseeable future. It was a complicated, honest message with all of the technical details that explained the situation, but Arin was sure that Woozi just interpreted it as a rejection.

I get it, he wrote back. Forget I ever said anything.


It was nearly 6am when Arin had to go to MRS for the morning dose of the potion.

Arin had to take the potion twice a day, exactly 12 hours apart, and Jun always had to be there when she did. This meant that both Jun and Arin had to be at MRS by 6am, and leave at 6pm, every single day.

“Well, you’re here early!” the reception woman said when she saw her that morning. Her husband was sitting beside her, massaging her back.

“Hey honey,” he whispered in her ear. “What about we…”

The woman put her hand over his mouth. “Be quiet, babe. Not in front of the lady.”

He grunts. “Don’t put your hand over my mouth! I hate when you do that!”

“Ignore him, he’s grouchy today,” the woman told Arin.

“Hey!” They began to fight, and Arin escaped through the other door before she could hear any more of it. That couple always made her feel sick to the stomach, and it was hard to believe they were actually soulmates.

She found Jun waiting for her on the stairs. He noticed the alarmed look on her face as she escaped the reception couple’s spat.

“Maybe seeing them will make you feel better about this Woozi thing,” Jun said. “Just because you’re soulmates doesn’t mean you’re good for one another. Perhaps postponing the inevitable would be a good thing for you after all.”


Arin and Jun had to spend the entire day at MRS because they had to take the potion together. They barely had time for themselves at home. It was tiring for both of them, but they both found solace in being together. Arin was always in love with Jun, and Jun was usually in love with her too since they often make out during the extraction sessions.

“I wish we could just move in together,” Jun said one day, right before their extraction session that morning. “It would make life so much easier. It that we can’t see one another outside of this building.”

“Funny you should say that,” Hoshi said as he entered the room. He handed Arin the toothpick with the love potion for her morning dose. “I think you newlyweds might actually be able to move in together soon.”

“How?” Jun asked.

“Arin… remember that request you made? About your voice.”

Arin nodded.

“I finally got a Doctor on board,” Hoshi told her. “She said she can operate to damage your larynx. It won’t affect breathing or tasting, just impede speech forever. It’s an illegal operation, so it will have to be done discreetly. I set a date for you in two weeks. Are you still ready for it?”

Arin thought she was ready for it, but hearing it out loud like that sent shivers down her spine. She gulped and shrugged. Even though she was very ready to get rid of her curse, she was really not as ready to get rid of her voice. The two are inextricably linked, but still separate.

“You have a week to mull it over again,” Hoshi told her. “It’s your decision, and you can back out at any time.”

Arin lowered her head as a wave of anxiety and low spirits washed over her. Hoshi claimed she had a choice, but she knew that she didn’t. It was either that, or live in constant fear of killing others. That was hardly a choice.

“Come on,” Hoshi said. “Take the potion, and we can start with the extraction.”

Arin nodded. She put the toothpick in and looked at Jun.

It was only then that she saw the tenderness in his eyes for her. He felt sorry for the choice she had to make, and the valuable thing she would have to lose.

When the potion took effect on her, Jun wrapped his arms around her comfortingly.

She began to cry. She never cried thinking about losing her voice before, but now the prospect was too real, too difficult. She was glad she had Jun to help her get it together.


It was 6pm on a weekend. They had done an extraction session at 6am, so Jun was also under the potion’s influence.

Hoshi had gone home, but had left the day’s dose of potion for Arin to take with Jun. There was barely anyone in all of headquarters, and no one at all in the Extraction Room.

After she took the potion, Jun kissed her again.

It was a spontaneous kiss; no one was watching or collecting magic from it, yet somehow, it felt the most magical.

The kiss became more heated, more passionate. He pushed her onto the bed, laid her down, and climbed on top of her, kissing her more and more ardently, more hungrily.

He then suddenly stopped, shook his head, and laid down beside her, his breath loud.

“That dumb potion really works, doesn’t it?”

She turned her head toward him. He was looking up at the ceiling, his chest expanding and contracting with heavy breath.

“I want you,” Jun told her. “But I don’t think it’s right to have you. Not like this. Not when we’re both under the influence of a potion.”

Arin nodded in agreement.

“When I wake in the morning and fall out of love with you, I feel like the person who kissed you was not really me. It’s a puppet version of me, like someone else possessed me and made me do it. I wouldn’t want that possessed body to take advantage of another possessed body. It feels wrong.”

Arin loved that thoughtful side of him. She loved how he calculated and considered everything because he didn’t want to hurt her. She truly loved everything about him.

She wanted to kiss him again, and so she did. This time, she was the one who hovered over him, straddling his hips as she indulged in another round of his lips.

They were interrupted with the sound of the door opening and footsteps approaching. Flustered, Arin climbed off him. He quickly sat up and leaned over his thighs as naturally as he could manage.

“I see you found a new boy toy, Missy!” came the sound of Jeonghan’s bitter, obnoxious voice.

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Chapter 73: Hi authornim! I can't believe that I finished it within one seating but that was how hooked I was in your story. The characters were written so well. Their arc have always been engaging and they were justified according to their decisions and various unintended circumstances. I've been an avid fan of your writing since Heart of Ice and I want to say that you're a marvelous writer! I did not expect myself to root for Jeonghan as Arin's lover because he was awful with her in the first place but you managed to make your readers understand the complexity of his character and his situation in the story. The ending was bittersweet for me and it that in love, there would always be a person who is bound to get hurt. I was delighted when you revealed the truth about Arin's soulmate. The chemistry between Jeonghan and Arin was all over the place and I can feel it in my bones even if their scenes were written only in sentences and paragraphs. I never felt the tension and longing when she's with Woozi. It felt forced and abrupt that it didn't click. But with Jeonghan, it was like they're a perfect puzzle piece to each other, even with the curses that they had. I even found myself tearing up when he brought her a limited edition album of Chilli. That shows how much he loved her. This is my most favorite story of yours! Thank you very much for sharing it to us and I can't wait to read your upcoming Joshua fanfic.
waee09 #2
Chapter 72: How. Is. This. Not. A. Hollywood. Blockbuster. Yet.?!?!?! Someone , anyone.... THIS NEEDS TO BE A MOVIE!!! it's a work of art! So so so souch appreciation and love for this. Thank you so much authornim! Thank you thank you for this masterpiece! Really injected a bit of life into my grey real life. Thank you!
waee09 #3
Chapter 71: W.T.F I read this in 1 seating... it's been a good 4 to 5 hours.... your writing and storyline, so magical, i was hooked for the first word. BUT THIS CHAPTER OHMAAAAAIGAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!
Soraya6 #4
Chapter 73: I was not expecting Woozi's POV but I'm glad we got to know more about his character, as he has been intriguing for most part of the story! This is a great closure that give us both insight on Arin and Jeonghan's relationship after the end of the story, and lets us know that Woozi is a good person that deserves to be happy as well. Thank you for this special chapter! I
waee09 #5
Chapter 33: What a sweet heart our Jun
Chapter 73: I sure wasn't expecting Woozi's POV! But after a thought, his true intentions were never really confirmed, or revealed rather, until the last few chapters... so this special chapter definitely gives his character some justice! I think it's a perfect chapter. It really proved the kind of person Woozi is, if not the person he's grown to be after everything. He did what he felt was right to do even if he had to set his personal feelings aside and that's also like making up for his past wrongs, toward Arin specifically. And with it he learned how to truly love someone, regardless of whether or not he's with her. It's sad but very sweet.

As for Jeonghan and Arin, of course, getting together didn't mean the challenges in their way were over, their insecurities they got from the years of being in such situations really showed throughout this and it's honestly realistic. I love it. She lost her confidence and so did he, but I know they can gain it back together! It made me kind of sad though because Arin should've known that the uncursed Jeonghan was the real Jeonghan, the one who fought through his curse for years and loved her, not because she was the only girl around him... (If I know at this point she is his entire world and he said himself he didn't want it any other way and that's absolutely sweet) but I get that she just wanted him to experience too what the world outside was like now that he could. They just needed more time to adjust and to learn the new way of communicating with each other and thank god for Woozi!
Magical_Girl #7
Chapter 73: Omg author-nim you've no idea how much I miss seeing your updates and how much I miss getting your comment replies ㅠㅠ it's the only thing which made me open my aff website after months

Btw istg I came for an Jihoon endgame since the beginning, but throughout the story I wanted Arin to end up with Jeonghan, and now I feel so hurt knowing why it's not Jihoon ;;

And ohh guess what I'm currently on my journey with heart of ice! ;)
Chapter 73: Everyone needs a woozi in their life. He may made mistakes before, but man his self redemption is on another level
Gracegesang #9
Chapter 73: Woozi is such a good friend to Arin. Jeonghan and Arin are lucky to have him. Happy ending with Arin and Jeonghan now...Meemo too!