Chapter 19

Before Her Very Eyes

Arin lived with ~ for many months while ~ searched for loopholes. Nothing seemed to come up, and if ~ had a hunch, there was no way to test it without risking someone’s life.

But Arin couldn’t live off of ~ forever. She couldn’t bear being anymore of a burden. She needed to find a sustainable way to live with her curse by herself, or she didn’t want to live at all.

“If I’m going to spend the rest of my life leeching off of someone else, then it’s not a life worth living,” Arin told ~ one day.

It was important to her to be independent, and ~ sensed that and worked to grant Arin her wish.

A few days later, she came home from work and told Arin she found her a job. This job didn’t require her to talk to anyone but her boss, the landlord.

“If I know his name, he might die,” Arin expressed her concern.

“Oh, don’t worry about that.”

“How can I not worry? What if the curse kills him?”

“He’s not going to die, Ar.”

“Why not?”

“Because you’re definitely going to hate him.”


Arin did not have much time to dwell on the sound of her name from his lips.

As soon as they got off the elevator and into his apartment, Jeonghan began to breathe heavily, as if he was gradually losing the air in his lungs and was struggling to take it back in. Suddenly, he lost the strength to hold up his upper body, and then stumbled towards a nearby table, breath getting louder with every second.

He then put a fist over his heart and let out a loud cry of pain.

“W… what’s wrong?” she asked, nearing him cautiously.

“Get out!” he yelled through hisses of pain. “Now!”

“Do you need painkillers?”

“Get out!” he repeated, yelling. “Before I fire you!”

The threat stifled her and made her take a step back from him. His voice was laced with a formidable kind of spite that made her take this threat very seriously.

She bowed and turned to leave, but before she was out the door, Jeonghan had collapsed on the floor. She turned back to him and saw that his teeth were clenched to stop himself from bellowing in pain.

“Leave!!!” he growled through his clenched teeth. The guttural command sent shivers down his spine and chilled her to the bone.

He sounded possessed.

She shivered and hurried out the front door, more afraid of him than ever before. But even as she closed the door, she could not find it in herself to leave. She put her ears against the door and listened.

There were cries and moans and screams. He was in so much pain, and there was no one there to help him. She waited, hoping that the cries would cease, but they didn’t. They only got louder and heavier and more unbearable to listen to.

She didn’t know what to do; she paced back and forth, contemplating whether or not she should call an ambulance or go inside and help him, or whether she should just leave him to suffer alone all by himself.

She couldn’t make a decision; she dialled ~’s number, and was so relieved when ~ picked up.

“Jeonghan is in a lot of pain,” Arin told her as soon as she picked up. “I don’t know what to do,”

Are you with him?”

“I’m at his door. He told me to get out, but I can hear him. I don’t know what to do. Should I call an ambulance?”

No, no. Just… get in there and help him,” ~ advised.

“B… but he told me to get out, or he’ll fire me.” And he was scary, Arin thought.

He doesn’t mean it. Get in there. And keep me updated okay?”

Arin did as ~ advised and re-entered Jeognhan’s home again.

She saw him lying on his stomach, squirming. She knelt down beside him.

“Jeonghan...” she called softly.

“Why the are you here?” he managed to say in between heavy breaths. “Get out!”

She didn’t move.

He then let out another bellow, and tears suddenly fell from his eyes. “Just kill me,” he said as he cried, and it felt like a genuine request, like he actually wanted her to put a bullet through his head and end his suffering.

“I… I’m going to call an ambulance,” she announced, standing up. Jeonghan grabbed her leg and pulled it with so much force that she fell on the ground, knocking her head against the marble floor.

The world spun around her. Her eyes could barely make out Jeonghan standing up and gazing down at her.

“Get the out!” he yelled over at her. “Leave me the alone before I fire you! Before I hurt you. Before I kill you.”

The threats made her fear for her life. She forced herself to sit up and tried to stand, but she was so dizzy that she couldn’t find her balance. Jeonghan pushed her so that she fell again.

“I’m going to give you until the count of 10 to get up! If you don’t, I’ll do to you what that ert couldn’t,” he threatened again with fiendish determination in his voice.

As the spinning in her head slowed, she was able to find her balance and get on her feet. She saw that he had protruding red veins in his eyes, which were wide in a vicious, terrifying kind of way.

She hurried out of the door, fear causing her heart to beat with so much force it made her feel even dizier.

It was like he turned into a monster, like he was possessed by the devil.

Somehow, she knew for sure that magic had something to do with it.


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Chapter 73: Hi authornim! I can't believe that I finished it within one seating but that was how hooked I was in your story. The characters were written so well. Their arc have always been engaging and they were justified according to their decisions and various unintended circumstances. I've been an avid fan of your writing since Heart of Ice and I want to say that you're a marvelous writer! I did not expect myself to root for Jeonghan as Arin's lover because he was awful with her in the first place but you managed to make your readers understand the complexity of his character and his situation in the story. The ending was bittersweet for me and it that in love, there would always be a person who is bound to get hurt. I was delighted when you revealed the truth about Arin's soulmate. The chemistry between Jeonghan and Arin was all over the place and I can feel it in my bones even if their scenes were written only in sentences and paragraphs. I never felt the tension and longing when she's with Woozi. It felt forced and abrupt that it didn't click. But with Jeonghan, it was like they're a perfect puzzle piece to each other, even with the curses that they had. I even found myself tearing up when he brought her a limited edition album of Chilli. That shows how much he loved her. This is my most favorite story of yours! Thank you very much for sharing it to us and I can't wait to read your upcoming Joshua fanfic.
waee09 #2
Chapter 72: How. Is. This. Not. A. Hollywood. Blockbuster. Yet.?!?!?! Someone , anyone.... THIS NEEDS TO BE A MOVIE!!! it's a work of art! So so so souch appreciation and love for this. Thank you so much authornim! Thank you thank you for this masterpiece! Really injected a bit of life into my grey real life. Thank you!
waee09 #3
Chapter 71: W.T.F I read this in 1 seating... it's been a good 4 to 5 hours.... your writing and storyline, so magical, i was hooked for the first word. BUT THIS CHAPTER OHMAAAAAIGAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!
Soraya6 #4
Chapter 73: I was not expecting Woozi's POV but I'm glad we got to know more about his character, as he has been intriguing for most part of the story! This is a great closure that give us both insight on Arin and Jeonghan's relationship after the end of the story, and lets us know that Woozi is a good person that deserves to be happy as well. Thank you for this special chapter! I
waee09 #5
Chapter 33: What a sweet heart our Jun
Chapter 73: I sure wasn't expecting Woozi's POV! But after a thought, his true intentions were never really confirmed, or revealed rather, until the last few chapters... so this special chapter definitely gives his character some justice! I think it's a perfect chapter. It really proved the kind of person Woozi is, if not the person he's grown to be after everything. He did what he felt was right to do even if he had to set his personal feelings aside and that's also like making up for his past wrongs, toward Arin specifically. And with it he learned how to truly love someone, regardless of whether or not he's with her. It's sad but very sweet.

As for Jeonghan and Arin, of course, getting together didn't mean the challenges in their way were over, their insecurities they got from the years of being in such situations really showed throughout this and it's honestly realistic. I love it. She lost her confidence and so did he, but I know they can gain it back together! It made me kind of sad though because Arin should've known that the uncursed Jeonghan was the real Jeonghan, the one who fought through his curse for years and loved her, not because she was the only girl around him... (If I know at this point she is his entire world and he said himself he didn't want it any other way and that's absolutely sweet) but I get that she just wanted him to experience too what the world outside was like now that he could. They just needed more time to adjust and to learn the new way of communicating with each other and thank god for Woozi!
Magical_Girl #7
Chapter 73: Omg author-nim you've no idea how much I miss seeing your updates and how much I miss getting your comment replies ㅠㅠ it's the only thing which made me open my aff website after months

Btw istg I came for an Jihoon endgame since the beginning, but throughout the story I wanted Arin to end up with Jeonghan, and now I feel so hurt knowing why it's not Jihoon ;;

And ohh guess what I'm currently on my journey with heart of ice! ;)
Chapter 73: Everyone needs a woozi in their life. He may made mistakes before, but man his self redemption is on another level
Gracegesang #9
Chapter 73: Woozi is such a good friend to Arin. Jeonghan and Arin are lucky to have him. Happy ending with Arin and Jeonghan now...Meemo too!