“Are you sure it’s not weird hyung?”

Sunggyu takes another look on the golden strands beneath his, he tugs out a fistful gently, feeling the sturdy root restricts his action yet flowing through the crack of his fingers.

“Of course not.”

Woohyun’s frown easing but not quite yet disappear. He pats on his own head.

“It’s been so long that I’ve been blond. It feels weird.”

“Don’t worry. You’ll stand out amongst us.”

Woohyun pouts. “But I don’t want to stand out.”

Sunggyu snorts playfully. “Says Nam Woohyun.”

Woohyun shakes his head adamantly. “I’m serious hyung.” He moves so he’s half hovering Sunggyu. “I don’t feel like...I have the strength to go throu–” Woohyun stops in the middle of his sentence, biting his own tongue.

Go through the attention.

Sunggyu knows about the unspoken words without being told.

“Go through what?” Sunggyu asks softly, staring into the pair of eyes above him. He knows what’s on the younger’s mind, yet he’s probing him into talking willingly; spilling his heart content without feeling judged. Which is the farthest thing on Sunggyu’s mind.

Woohyun shakes his head before delving in again onto Sunggyu’s chest, curling his hand around the older guy. “Nothing hyung.” His words a muffled sound against Sunggyu.

Sunggyu pats on the blond hair in comforting manner again. “You know you can talk to me about anything right?” Says Sunggyu to which he feels Woohyun nods against his body, his thick hair, freshly washed, brush over his chin in boisterous manner but he doesn’t pull away, knowing how sensitive Woohyun is whenever he’s clingy. As in right now.

They both don’t say anything after, until Sunggyu is sure Woohyun has fallen asleep on top him. The younger has said before that he can’t sleep well whenever he’s overstressed and that only Sunggyu’s presence could calm him into dreamland.

Sunggyu doesn’t argue with that. He enjoys being depended by Woohyun. It’s the only time Woohyun wouldn’t fight him and instead be vulnerable and letting Sunggyu takes the lead in their relationship dynamic. Although opening up to anyone is a topic Woohyun still being vary of, which in turn, hurt him to core. Not that he’s willing to admit that.

Sunggyu finds himself to be wide awake with the realization, and also with frustration. How come he’d been so blind? How come he’d been so stupid that he scolded Woohyun during his lowest point? How come he hadn’t seen that Woohyun is struggling? How could he?

And he called himself his lover.

“I’m so sorry baby.” He mutters affectionately and drop a kiss on Woohyun’s hair once. “For not noticing earlier. It must be so hard holding it in by yourself.” He tightens his hold on Woohyun. The latter feels so small in his hold. Has Woohyun stop stuffing himself for the past weeks? Sunggyu frowns at the thought. Woohyun loves eating. “I’m sorry for being the worst group member...and boyfriend.” He whispers further, voice cracking at the end. It breaks his heart to see Woohyun breaking down on the stage and also backstage. He regrets exploding at him before for the reason the younger hadn’t being his self lately. He wish