BROKE MY HEART
 

I saw you.

I saw you with her.

I saw you with her talking.

I saw you with her laughing.

I saw you with her holding hands.

I saw you with her.

I saw you with her and your body resting on her.

I saw you with her.

I saw you with her and your face are so close to hers.

I saw you with her.

I saw you with her and your lips are leaning.

I hold my breath. 

I saw you with her and your lips are leaning close.

My heart is pleading. 

I saw you with her and your lips are leaning closer.

Please don’t do it, baby.

I saw you with her and your lips almost made contact.

I dropped my eyes on the floor. 

I can’t bear to watch someone else taste your sweet cherry lips.

I saw you with her and you’re about to kiss her.

I shift my eyes to the floor again not wanting to see.

My baby, how could you? 

Do you know that, at that moment my world just crumbles beneath my feet?

I saw you with her and you’re about to kiss her again.

This time I closed my eyes shut. 

I thought it’s my lips you love to taste.

I my lips and it’s parched. Uninviting.

I saw you with her and your forehead rested on hers.

I should have kept it shut.

I found myself only to open it again to watch a re-run.

I saw you with her and your nose start to rub on hers side to side.

A re-run of how you did the same thing last night after our lips parted.

I am now turning around and I’m walking away.

Walking away from the heartbreaking scene.

Walking away from our love.

Walking away from you.

Tiffany, I can’t say I don’t love you.

Because I do love you. I really do.

You were my world. You were the queen of my heart.

My heart is crying and screaming inside.

My heart is broken in two.

It is bleeding profusely causing so much pain.

I feel my body slowly becoming numb.

I don’t know if my heart can be mended.

But I know there’s going to be a permanent scar across my heart.

A visible scar to anyone that can see right through me.

I’m standing at the edge of a cliff.

My broken heart brought me here.

I can see the waves crashing on the hard rocks below.

My heart screamed in pain every time the waves hit the rocks.

The wind is blowing rather hard.

I feel this petite body of mine is going to be lifted by the wind.

Maybe I should let the wind do its job. Spare me the heartache.

I just need a step to go over the cliff.

One more step to free myself, erasing every pain that I feel inside.

The crashing waves sounds like it’s calling me on.

Chanting my name over and over again.

So loud and so clear.

The black rocks below look so inviting. So tempting.

It looked like a perfect place.

A perfect place for me to rest in peace.

Tears are streaming down my cheek. 

Sobbing and I feel my body gone cold.

I inhaled the ocean air one last time.

I breathe in.

I breathe out.

And I say my last goodbye.

“Goodby -…”

“TAETAE!!!”

I turned and there she is running towards me.

Now you see me?

She grabs my arm and pulls me in for an embrace.

“What the hell are you doing? You scared me to death!”

“You should just let me.” 

“What are you talking about?”

“I saw you.”

“What?” I can see confusion written on your forehead.

“Stop pretending. I saw you with her.”

I can see Tiffany trying her hardest to pinpoint my statement in her brain’s memory.

“You broke my heart, Tiffany.”

Finally I see that she manages to understand when I feel her body are no longer tense.

“You saw me kissing them. Didn’t you?”

I nod.

“I thought that it’s only mine that you kiss. I thought wrong.”

“Pabo! Of couse it’s only you I kiss. Hey, look at me.”

I look up to her eyes and she stare back at me.

“Sunny, Jessica and Yuri have nothing on you. It’s only this cute lips I crave for. It’s only this cute lips I want to taste. It’s only this cute lips I miss when we’re apart. Only yours, Taetae.”

“Really?”

She lean in and I close my eyes as her lips touches mine.

It was soft and it taste so sweet.

Must be her favourite strawberry flavoured lipstick.

I am now in her arms. I feel so warm.

None of us wanting to let go.

I can feel her breath on my ear and I hear her whisper.

“I don’t know why you are so jealous. It’s just a kiss on the cheek.”

It clicked on me. That’s right.

I never saw her. 

I closed my eyes the entire time.

What was I thinking? I almost kill myself for nothing.

I am blinded by my own stupidity. 

I need someone to save me from myself.

And thank God she came.

“I love you, Fany-ah.”

I hear her chuckle and then she says the words I love to hear.

“I love you more.”

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