Sorry

A Reason to Live
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"What are you doing here?" Wheein asks, her face cold without any signs of emotion.

It's been a month since their supposed 'date'.

A whole month.

Wheein expected Byul to visit her with flowers the next day after their date, but she concluded that it was too much to ask.

Surely, she's worth, at least, a text or a call from Byul, right? But apparently, Wheein waited for nothing. She knows it's her fault that she expected anything from Moonbyul, but she couldn't help but be disappointed.

Because in those 30 days that she waited; she has never felt so worthless.

She didn't know what to do. She almost went to Byul; if only Hyejin didn't stop her.

She was that desperate.

She has never felt so much pain in her heart -and she's someone who's so used to feeling pain.

And now Byul's at their front door with flowers in hand, "Wheein..." she trailed off, and Wheein wanted to tell her that she'd better come prepared. Wheein would like to think that Byul took a month to gather her thoughts, to practice what she has to say -but it seemed like Byul didn't even know what to say to her still.

Up until now, Byul looked so unsure. And Wheein hates it.

"I'm sorry." Byul says.

Wheein snickers, Byul's words, or lack thereof, rubbed Wheein in all the wrong ways. Her anger rose so quickly that she felt like she might have a heart attack at any moment.

"Sorry?!" Wheein questions. "It took you a month just to say sorry?!"

Moonbyul retained her composure despite Wheein's temper. She acknowledges that she deserved it.

She's been meaning to apologize to Wheein since that day, but she didn't know what change that could make. She wanted to be sure. She wanted to be sure that she can do it; that she can move on. She tried driving to Wheein's house a couple of times, but she didn't have the guts to actually let Wheein see her.

"Wheein, please..." Byul took a step towards Wheein, placing a hand on Wheein's arm in an attempt to somehow calm her down.

"Please, what?" Wheein asks, brushing off Byul's touch, as she gave her a cold stare that Byul couldn't help but look away with guilt.

"Please be a bit more understanding of me." Byul pleads in a low voice; she knows she might be asking for too much.

Wheein chuckles without humor. "You want me to understand you?" Wheein questions, Byul's asking as if that's not what she's trying to do all this time.

Sometimes, Wheein can be a selfish person, she acknowledges that. Wanting Byul, in itself, was her being selfish. But she was also very considerate of Byul's feelings. She tried to be understanding, even in times when it hurts her. She could swear she tried -heck, she's trying right now, but Byul makes it so hard to do so.

"Byul, how can I understand you, if you can't even understand yourself?" Wheein asks, this time without anger, but frustration.

Byul struggled to give Wheein the right answer, but she comes up short.

"You're right." Byul admits. "My mind was all over the place. But Wheein..." Byul trailed off, careful to find the right words, knowing that she was standing on thin ice, and she doesn't want to lose another person important in her life. "I want you to know that I tried...I really want to keep you in my life. And I'm really sorry...about everything."

"Sorry?" Wheein hates that word because it only reminds her of how much a person had hurt her. "Sorry, again?" Wheein questions, she's heard that word a million times, not just from Moonbyul - but somehow Byul's sorry hurt the worst, because no matter how many times she says it, they always run back in circles. "What makes your sorry different from all your other 'sorry's'?"

Byul didn't know the answer to that. All she knows is that she meant it every single time she said it. Proving it, however, is a different story.

She'd give anything just so Wheein would give her a chance to figure out how to pro

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MMfd518 #1
Chapter 23: Quite an emotional ending. The other week I was reading about how, infrequently, organ transplant recipients seem to take on traits of the donor, read through this with that idea in mind.
zetyaffendy #2
Chapter 23: Authornim, it's been a while i've read this in the past year. Thanks for complete it!!
byuliu #3
Chapter 23: When I found your story, I read it all in one night, till ch. 22, and I can hear the crash sound of my heart when its ended with, "...maybe this won't work". I thought really that was the finale like, "we will not getting all in our life", I hold on it.

But then, after awhile, I check my subscription page, and your story was on top. I remembered the title tho. And like a flashback, I remember all the plot. And I checked, just to make sure its really another chapter, the closure, not only an update from author, and, and I feel soo overwhelming now. I didn't know I am too invest with this story.

I'm not a writer I really don't know how I can write, more to my ramblings, this long. But author-nim, thank you. Thank you for all the emotions you manage to wake inside me. I really really love your writing. Not only the plot, but the emotions in your writing that you put. Ah I don't know what its call, but I really admire your writing style. So, thank you and keep going and have a nice day!
Mo_onbyulidaa
#4
Chapter 23: at last!!! thank u for this wonderful piece author-nim they're finally happy.
i really like how u write author-nim, i love how u always give us generous amount of angst but of course with a happy ending
we're always at roller coaster ride with u (i like it)
p_ha_ine
#5
Chapter 23: thank you for this. this fic has been one of those i've been reading during my first days of getting to know fanfics (mamamoo's) until eventually writing one for myself. as usual you didnt disappoint. the ending is clear and heartrending.
Keenshipper #6
Chapter 23: Reading this chapter brought me a lot of emotions. It feels like I am at the edge of mountain while reading the next sentences. It catches reader's attention. At first I thought that Wheein is already dead but its not. From that point, my trust issues on you authornim heightens and made me overthink on what's next to come but kudos to you author for giving us a wonderful story and giving us heart attack. This story is so good. Congratulations, author for this well written fic. More to come pleaseeeee.
Mo_onbyulidaa
#7
Chapter 22: holy damnnnnn. it's like you're drilling a hole in my heart author-nim! i don't think their relationship really gonna work it's just so painful
tpdlpcrid #8
Chapter 22: Damn this chapter is so sad. Can’t wait to read the final chapter
Keenshipper #9
Chapter 22: My heart clenched just reading this story especially the time I read about Wheein's father and how the accident happened. Wheein and Moonbyul's feelings are valid. They both experienced different kind of pain from their lost loved one. I love the conflict but it hurts like hell. The father of Wheein is one of the reasons why Yongsun died. Fate had been terrible for the two. They were meant to meet but not meant to be together. They can't push aside each others struggle and pain. It will be a never ending conflict to the two of them if they will push through their relationship
mamamooot5 #10
Chapter 22: Aaaaahhhhhhhh MY HEART
Istg if wheebyul doesn’t end up together im gonna throw hands 😭😭😭 I love this story and truthfully like I get both sides. Neither side is wrong for feeling how they feel. The guilt that wheein has is so heavy like I get why she would be uncomfortable and want to break it off despite the fact that she loves her. This story hurts. Even if they part I feel like it will take forever for byul to recover from losing. Not only ONE (not by choice) lover but her SECOND.as well and walking away (their choice). Like how is she gonna find someone else. Like I won’t be surprised if she s traumatized because everyone she loved left her both willingly and unwillingly. Wheein too like ughhhhhh she also deserves so much happiness and peace. I hope that they just take a long long break, byul learns to forgive wheezing father and wheein learns to be okay and at peace with her fathers passing. I hope both heal and come back together. Authornim you can’t just let them part like that PLEASEDE