Hospital Visits
A Reason to Live"Wheein, I'm so sorry." Byul whispered against Wheein's ears as she holds her hand.
Wheein lies unconscious on her hospital bed as Byul studies her, as she thought back to the events of yesterday that lead them here. It hurts her knowing that she's the reason why they're both here right now. All the pain that she caused the other girl weighs heavy on her chest.
Wheein's face looked so child-like; filled with innocence as her chest rise and fall steadily. Byul thinks she could spend her day just looking at Wheein peacefully sleeping, but she'd rather hear her voice and see her smile. Byul wants her to wake up. She wants to talk to her.
"I think you should go home." Byul hears Hyejin say. Byul almost forgot that they weren't alone. "The doctor said she'll be fine. She'll wake up soon."
The more reason Byul should stay here, right? She wants Wheein to see her when she wakes up. She's the reason Wheein is in the hospital right now and she wanted to make up for it by staying by her side. "I think I'll stay." Byul states. Maybe it's the trauma of Yongsun's accident. The last time she visited the hospital she lost someone she loved the most. She wanted to be sure that she'll see Wheein again.
"That wasn't a request, Byul." Hyejin's tone was sharp, and her eyes were telling.
"Hyejin..." Byul trailed off. She knows she messed up, and she didn't expect Hyejin to be on her side because of how badly she hurt her friend, but she at least hoped Hyejin would give her a chance to explain herself.
"Save it." Hyejin replied, crossing her arms. "Wheein's mom and grandma will be here any minute. Maybe it's for the best if they don't see you here."
"I want to talk to them too: to apologize." Byul declares.
Hyejin shakes her head. "You stressed Wheein up to this point. I don't think they'll appreciate your apology."
Byul sighs. If apologizing won't help her case then what would? She wonders.
"Wheein's family has been through a lot, okay? I don't think they'd be thrilled to see you after you put Wheein through this again. So if you're really sorry then just leave for now." Hyejin's tone was softer this time.
Again? Byul wonders what Hyejin meant by it. Did she cause Wheein a cardiac arrest before? Or was it before she even met Wheein?
Byul recalls how Hyejin readily pulled out portable equipment to revive Wheein's heartbeat after performing a CPR on her. It's like she's so skilled because of experience.
"Is she going to be okay?" Byul asks.
"I'll make sure she's going to be." Hyejin promises.
Byul figures Hyejin won't be willing to answer all of her questions right now, so she decided to comply with Hyejin's advice that she should leave. "I'll come back later then."
It looked like Hyejin was about to protest but Byul didn't let her. "That isn't a request either."
Wheein slowly opened her eyes to give her time to adjust to the light protruding on her. She's disappointed to see that she's in a very familiar room that isn't her home, and to add on that she's also wearing an oxygen mask.
But nothing disheartened her more than not seeing a certain person at her bedside. After last night, she expected that Byul would at least be there.
"Wheein." she hears her mother say, her face tear-stricken. Was it that bad that her mother has to cry? She really hopes not, because if it was, then she'd have to see her mother cry repeatedly again; and she hates the sight so much.
Wheein gently removes her mask; she's pretty sure she can breathe on her own now. "I'm okay, Mom." she says as she managed to put on a smile.
Her mother just smiled at her. That's just the thing with her mom. She suffers so quietly.
Wheein can't wait to stop being a burden.
"I told you not to scare us like that again!" Wheein hears her grandmother in a gentle tone, causing Wheein to stifle a very light chuckle.
"Trust me, I'll probably find a way." Wheein answered, she wanted to keep the conversation light, but the look on her parents' faces told her it wasn't a laughing matter to them. "I'm sorry."
Her mother touches her cheek and gently it with her thumb. "I'm just glad you're okay."
Wheein notes how uncharacteristically quiet Hyejin is.
Wheein's mother and grandma went home to cook her food. They know how much Wheein hates hospital food.
Wheein took this as an opportunity to talk to Hyejin.
"What's wrong?" Wheein asks, as Hyejin sat beside her.
"Nothing." Hyejin replies.
"Hyejin." Wheein replies, she knows Hyejin has a lot to say to her.
"What's not wrong?" Hyejin sighed.
"Talk to me." Wheein replied, taking Hyejin's hand in hers.
"You don't listen to me, so what's the point?" Hyejin snickered in frustration. She thought she was going to lose her best friend...again. Seeing Wheein lying unconsciously on the ground, made her fear the worst. She didn't have a pulse and Hyejin had to perform CPR on her. She doesn't think she'll ever get used to it.
She thought that after Wheein's transplant, everything would be normal; she wouldn't have to worry that Wheein would leave her unannounced every waking moment.
The pained look on Hyejin's face told Wheein everything she needed to know as she sighs in understanding. "I'm sorry."
"You should be." Hyejin mumbles.
"I needed to hear what she has to say, or else I'd have to listen to my thoughts and go crazy." Wheein explains. Hyejin has told her repeatedly that Byul isn't going to be good for her heart. In fact, Hyejin stopped her
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