Dara pov
 

Have you ever experienced loving someone so deeply that you thought he was really the one for you?  Then as time goes by,  your perception slowly starts to change.  Then, the one you thought you love becomes a stranger in your eyes,  forgetting who he used to be in your life..? 

I'm afraid i may have fallen out of love with jiyong.  No,  he didn't change.  He's still the same old kwon jiyong,  the loving and caring boyfriend.  It's  me.  I'm the one who has a change of heart.  I don't  know why  but it seems like im starting lose interest in him. I didnt mean to,  but it just happened.  I am no longer excited to see him,  i am starting to appreciate his absence in my life, his efforts no longer lifts my heart.  Everyday i ask myself,  what has happened for me to feel this,  and as i dig in to that question,  the more i am confused. 

Insung..  Was it because of him? Maybe..

I know in the first place,  our relationship was wrong,  and i didn't really plan on falling for him.  Insung was just my platform in reaching my dreams while jiyong was for the long run.. But then everything changed.  As time goes by,  i am slowly falling for insung. He never fails to make me feel loved and he provides my wants and needs.  Ask why i am not leaving jiyong yet?  Well,  i just couldn't find the courage to break it to him.  I guess the very reason why i am holding to this relationship is because of pitty.

Now looking at jiyong,  i couldn't help but to compare him with insung. After days of arguing,  i finally gave in to his date request.  Insung and i waa supposed to have our date but then he insisted, saying that weekends should be our "babetime" as what he calls it. I sigh as i look at the place where he brought me.  It was just a simple restaurant with nothing special to offer. With my black mini dress, i feel so over dressed.

"Babe are you alright? " he asked as he held on my left hand.

I smiled at him  trying to hide my disinterest in our date.
"Yes babe, I'm fine"

He held on my hand firmly and weakly smiled.  "I'm sorry babe if i still couldn't afford to bring you to an exclusive restaurant."

Somehow i feel bad.  Did my detachment really showed in my face?

"It's ok babe.  I am fine with this.  No need to do that " i genuinely said.  To be honest,  if this was insung,  he wouldn't bring me to this kind of place.  But then,  i don't want jiyong to be pressured. 

He looked down,  feeling sorry.  "Don't worry babe,  once i get promoted from my job,  i will bring you to any 5 star restaurant that you want"

I lifted his chin up and motioned his head to look at me.

"Hey,  i am not asking for you to do that ok? I am fine with this.  Don't pressure yourself" i sincerely said.  Somehow guilt consumes me.  But then,  as i look at him,  i don't feel any spark.

"Uh, babe I'll just go to the ladies room.  Will that be ok? " I stood up and excused myself for awhile. 

As i was making my way towards the restroom,  i felt a hand grabbing my wrist and dragged me to the secluded part of the hallway. I got scared that i didn't have the chance to scream for help. The room was kinda dark so i didn't see the face of this mad man. As we reach this isolated part of the hallway,  i was pinned in the wall,  with both if his hands holding mine.

"I miss you baby " he said with his husky voice.

That voice,  i know who it came from.  I tried to adjust my vision and stared at the face if this man.

"Insung?" I said under my breath.

"I miss you so much babe. " he gave me a peck on the lips, and i smiled.

"I miss you too.  Wait. What are you doing here? " i asked as i looked at the hallway, making sure nobody would see us.

"We didn't have our date,  so i followed you here" he was about to kiss me but then i pulled away a bit.

"Others might see us insung!  Why are you so reckless? " i felt so antsy with our situation right now.

Insung caressed my soft cheeks and beamed a smile.

"Relax babe.  I am being careful.  Besides,  it's not like this place is packed with people, so nobody can see us here.  Infact.. " his lips found it's way to my neck,  slowly devouring it like a sumptious meal.

" i can you right here and nobody would notice" i can feel my body tensed with what he said. My tummy felt like there's a zoo inside in it.  My heart pumps louder everytime his lips touches my skin.

"Oh babe.. " i couldn't help but to moan. I s my hands around his neck.

"Why are you still with him?  Leave that loser already" he kept on doing his thing,  and to be honest,  i am loving it.  If there's one good thing about our relationship that is the thrill it brings. It excites me to the point that everyday i look forward to meet him.

"I.. Oh.. I still can't babe.. " i can feel his breath as he sighed . This is nit just a typical secret relationship.  I know insung loves me so much and he seeks marriage to me.

"You know i love you right?  If you choose me, i will make sure you'll be the happiest girl in the world" he cupped my face and stared at me seriously. 

"I know babe.  But please understand that it's not that easy . I just can't dump him that easily. After all,  we've been through a lot and we've shared so many memories. " i held his hand that's still in my cheeks.

"I am giving you until after the Olympics babe. Make sure to break up with him if you don't want me to come to him and reveal everything ."

Now i felt pressured.  But then..

"Fine." I sighed as i gave in.  The Olympics is just 4 months away.

He smiled again and kissed my hand.

"Meet me later at our usual place. " he commanded

"Babe, you know i can't.  I have a date remember" i frowned a bit